~Lucy's pov~

It's been a week since it happened Right when I got home I shut my door locked myself in and locked/closed the curtains. Right now I'm on my bed with my knees up to my chin and wrapped my hands around my legs.

Why did they save me? Why did they do that for me? Am I really important to them? No I can't be because I'm messed up. I can't do anything right. Even though I'm strong I can't do anything.

*Knock-knock* "Lucy? It's me natsu open up." His voice was full of saddness. I just stared at the door. "Please Lucy I want to talk to you." I got up and opened the door to let natsu in. He walked in and shut the door. I got up on my bed again. "Lucy why did you just give yourself up that easy?"He asked sitting on the floor.

"Because I knew that one day he would come for me and nobody knows me so I don't want anyone getting hurt by me." "I still don't get it you knew that when he went to get you he would do that to you." "I'm messed up and I can't love or trust anyone so leave me alone!" I shouted and ran out of the room.

I ran until my house was nowhere in sight and I was in the forest. I sighed. I can't beilive I just said that to Natsu But, well it is true ... Right? I can't be loved? I always thought that because ... Well I just thought. I thought love was only for fairy tales but, I guess this is a fairy tale since we use magic. I walked until I fell on my knees. I didn't notice I was crying until something was dripping from my hand.

Natsu can't love me because he and Lisanna are dating right? I think they are dating I'm not sure but, it seems like it to me. I Wonder what I'll do next I mean the only thing you do right is running away from your problems I think that's ALL I do right. ALL I did right in my lifetime you know?

I can't believe that someone like me is so powerful. I'm a cowered a phony I run form all my problems. What can I do right? "LUCY! WHERE ARE YOU?" someone yelled it sounded like Natsu's voice. I looked for him but I couldn't see it was already dark. Then I felt hands grab my shoulders I sceremed. I turned around and punched whoever was there.

"Why did you do that Lucy?" the voice said. "Natsu?" "Yup here." He lit his hand on fire and grabbed some wood to burn a fire. A sat down and staired at it. "Lucy." he voice was soft. "Mmm" I answered. "Why did you turn yourself in. We could have protected you." "That's why i didn't what anyone to get hurt on my behalf. I'm not a good cause I'm messed up and a coward phony I don't even belong in this time period. I should have died a long time ago." I looked down I couldn't talk anymore.

Natsu just looked at me "What do you mean you should have died?" I didn't say anything i got up and walked away. I didn't know how long I was walking but it wasn't to long before I reached the city. I walked the streets not really knowing what to do. "Hey pretty lady what are you doing there all by yourself? Come hang out with us."a guy said. I kept walking.

Next thing I know I was being jumped. It was a surprise attack so I couldn't do anything they were to many of them. "See she's not strong at all I can't believe a guild would take her in." someone said. "Yea I know what your talking about if she was in my guild I would just rape her and send her off." another guy said. "She's so weak I can't believe she's not dead yet She's a freak."

Freak, Weak, Rape, dead. I snapped. I stood up barely looked up and said as loudly as possible "DON"T JUDGE ME UNLESS YOU HAVE LOOKED THOUGH MY EYES EXPERIENCED WHAT I WENT THOUGH AND CRIED AS MANY TEARS AS ME UNTIL THEN BACK OFF CAUSE YOU HAVE NO IDEA!" They looked at me and was shocked. I saw pink hair and next thing I fainted.

I woke up to see a white ceiling. "Lucy? Lucy? Are you awake?" someone said. I looked to the side and saw Natsu, Erza, Gray, happy, and Wendy. "Your ok!" Said hugging me. "Wendy yet Lucy sleep I know your happy that your sister is ok but she's still not fully recovered." Erza said. Wendy let go and nodded. "We'er happy that your ok lucy." Erza said looking at me. I just nodded. "I'm sorry." I said. "I shouldn't have ran off that like." "It's ok you had a lot going on." Gray said. Everyone nodded.

Later everyone left expect natsu. I could go home but I didn't want to. "C'mon lucy." Natsu said trying to get me out of the room. I nodded giving in. Once we were at my house I saw Wendy asleep with Carla and Musia by her on the couch. I headed up to my room and natsu followed. I was on my bed but i couldn't sleep. "What's wrong Luce " Natsu asked. "The reason why I was supposed to died is because my mom was in a battle with brain and them and She died saving me. Wendy wasn't there at the moment she was at her grandma's i guess she kept Wendy when my mom died but Wendy was just a baby when it happened I couldn't do anything so I left and later I learned magic my a dragon named crystal and when she left I just thought she did what my mom did died. Everyone has to died sometime and so I didn't cry when she left I saw her leave I didn't do anything to stop her. That's how I got to the guild and why I'm not close to anyone. I can't smile I can't cry I can't show any kind of emotion." Natsu just stared at me.

I layed back down and natsu came into bed with me and hugged me. We fell asleep like that and for the first time since A LONG TIME I felt safe.

***Eve's talking corner

Hey guys! Hope you like this chapter! I put a quote in "Don't judge me unless you looked though my eyes experienced what I went though and cried as many tears as me until then back off cause you have no idea!" Lucy Heartfillia I like that quote and more. So if you have any ideas for the story please tell me and I'll write it down thanks!

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