Chapter 11

Hey guys I'm really sorry that i haven't been updating as much i have had a lot going on but here is the next chapter. I will try and get the chapters up as soon as possible but it might not be as often as it has been. Thanks for all the comments though. :) XX

After surgery Dez is wheeled into another room and was left to recover, Trish came and sat with him for a while, asking if he was alright every few minutes. She kept talking about how she was worried not only about Ally but about Austin; because Trish knew that he wouldn't be able to cope without her.

"He broke down in the hospital because he knew that he couldn't do anything to help her, he kept saying that it was his fault and I didn't understand how it could be his fault! I mean he said that Ally had got a head ache at his birthday party but she didn't want to make a big deal about it because she didn't think it was that important and he believed her. But I would have done the exact same thing if it was me because I would have wanted her to be happy in her last days with us. He can't blame himself because if he does and she doesn't make it then he won't be able to take it! I know I shouldn't be worrying about him but about Ally because of what he did to her but you can genuinely see the he loves her and would do anything to make sure she is okay!" Trish said to Dez, she was trying to hold back the tears because she knew that if she started that she wouldn't be able to stop.

Austin was still at his house, he couldn't face going back to the hospital now, what if Dez hadn't been a match and Ally had passed away. He knew that he shouldn't be thinking like that but Trish hadn't text him to say if Dez had been a match or not. So he was in a panic, he would break down sooner or later if he went to the hospital because that would be where Ally's fate was decided, if she was to die or not. Ally was a fighter and he knew that but sometimes fighting didn't work. Sometimes they need a miracle and maybe there is no miracles left to give out, he didn't know what to do anymore because he knew that whatever he did would have a massive effect on either him or Ally. If he went to the hospital and Ally was dead he would break down but if he didn't go and Ally woke up without him there he thought that she would think that he didn't care and she would never ever forgive him and that would also lead to him breaking down. He didn't even realise how much he cared about her. He couldn't think straight knowing that Ally could be dead, he wouldn't accept that she was dead, he wouldn't! If she died today then he would give up his dream, he would find a way to get her back! He couldn't loose her!

It was now three in the morning and he still had no clue what to do, he wouldn't sleep without knowing that Ally was okay but he couldn't face going into the hospital knowing that Ally might never come out alive. He couldn't think this way anymore because he knew that if he kept thinking negatively that he would almost definitely break down. He walked over to his guitar, picking it up and beginning to play. His parents weren't home because they had to go to do business a few days ago so he wasn't disturbing them. So he began to sing.

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something

He stayed staring at the ground not looking up, but slowly closing his eyes.

"Please wake up Ally. I'm giving up on you." He said, letting one single tear fall.

Meanwhile at the hospital, Ally's mum and dad were by her side in the hospital room. They weren't talking but were just watching for any sign of movement from Ally, they waited and waited but nothing showed, they held Ally's limp hand whilst waiting tightly, but all they thought was that it wouldn't work, that she wasn't going to wake up. Ally's mom began to cry; she put her forehead on Ally's bed and squeezed Ally's hand tightly.

"Ow!" Someone whispered, Ally's mom looked up to see her daughter's eye flutter open, Ally opened her eyes and squinted, she waited for her eyes to adjust before looking round the hospital room to see her mum staring at her in disbelief.

"Mum, what's going on?" She asked but as quick as a flash her mom pulled her into a tight hug, Ally tried to hold back the tears as her mother cried into her shoulder. Her mum pulled away and Ally's dad gave her another tight hug. Her dad ran out afterwards to go get Trish and Dez and he took a while as Ally thought that Trish and Dez were just outside. But when Trish had walked in and given her a hug, she had cried quite a lot but then Dez was wheeled in and Ally was terrified of what had happened.

"Relax Ally! I'm completely fine; you said that you needed a donor right? Because just in case you hadn't realized already, I was the perfect match! Don't worry about me, worry about Trish she looks like a raccoon!" Dez said laughing. They all turned to see that Trish was in floods of tears and she wasn't able to stop.

"I'm sorry Ally. I'm just so happy that you are okay! I didn't know if any of us would be able to cope without you!" She said. She hugged Ally tightly again and Ally started to cry. When they pulled away Ally felt the absence of someone very important to her, Austin. She scanned the room to see where he was but he wasn't there.

"Trish? Where's Austin?" Ally said, sounding a bit hurt.

"He went home. But it wasn't because he didn't care, if anything it was because he cared too much. He couldn't stay in the hospital knowing that he couldn't do anything to help you and knowing that you may not be able to see anything other than the hospital walls ever again. He couldn't stand the thought of leaving you but I told him that he should go home and try to calm down because he looked like he was about to have a mental break down. I said that I would tell him if there were any updates but my phone died. So..." Trish said, giving Ally a weak smile.

"Okay. When I feel better I want to go back home. I know that they probably won't let me out for a while but Trish do you think that you could pull some strings to get me out of the hospital for around tonight. We need to keep Austin clueless. I know that is cruel but I want to make sure that he believes that I am still here. I want to make it special." Ally said, giving everyone a weak smile. They all nodded and they all came in for a group hug.

Austin was standing in his room; he had his guitar in his hands and had just finished a song he had been working on for a while. Ally came in a few moments later with a big grim on her face.

"Austin, that was really good! You are really getting better at that song writing thing! You might not even need me any more in a couple of years!" Ally said, coming to sit next to him on the bed.

"I will always need you Al; I wouldn't be able to live without you." He stared into her gorgeous hazel eyes and smiled.

"What?" She asks innocently, that made him smile even more.

"Has any one ever told you how pretty you are? Because they should." Austin said. Ally blushed at his comment.

"Other than my mum and dad, no, and they have to say that because they are my parents. I know I'm not pretty and you're only saying that because, like my parents, you have to." Ally said, looking down into her lap.

"Hey! That's not true! You are the prettiest girl I have ever met! I love you so much an you know that but I have told you a million times that I am an awful liar and two that I have promise you more times than I can remember that I will always be totally and completely honest with you!" He said, giving her a quick nudge, she did the same to him and then it stopped, she looked up into his eyes to see he was staring at her, she blushed slightly and that made Austin smile. They edged closer together, so close that she could feel his breath on her lips and just before their lips could meet Austin's phone rang, switching them back to reality, well, Austin back to reality anyway. He pulled his phone out of his back pocket.

"It's Cassidy. I've got to take this but I'll see you later, hopefully." He said to Ally, she looked back down at her lap and didn't make any more eye contact with Austin.

"Oh. Okay." She mumbled, how could he not see that she knew something about Cassidy that he didn't, how could he not see that she was a lying, cheating bitch and always would be, how could he not see how she felt about him? He answered the phone and walked out of her room and out of his house.

"Bye. Austin. I love you." Little did she know that later that night would be one of the worst nights of her life?

Austin woke up in a cold, sweaty, panic. He still had his guitar on his knee so he must have fell asleep after he had played the song. How could he have fallen asleep at a time like this? He thought to himself. It was hard enough to not be there with everyone else but to have fallen asleep, he felt like he was showing her that he didn't care, saying that he could fall asleep at home, in his bed whilst she could be lying in the hospital dying. The dream he just had was a memory, a memory of the first time that he had realized that he couldn't live without Ally. She was his best friend, she was the one who had helped him to achieve his dream and she was one of the only people that he could live without. He would do anything to see her again. He got up off the bed and walked over to his closet. He pulled out a big red box which was full with pictures, old presents and they were all from Ally. He pulled out an album the he had bought to keep all the pictures in and opened it. There were so many pictures that he had filled the album before he had even got half was through the pictures. The one picture that he had always loved was the one taken four years ago, before anything had happened with Cassidy or anything like that. They were at the beach with Dez and Trish and Austin had come back with Dez from the sea and they were both soaking wet. They came back and Austin got Ally wet and had managed to pick her up and pull her to the water. Dez and Trish had watched from where they sat, Dez had taken the photo and it was of Austin and Ally just coming back from being in the water, Ally had been shivering so Austin had put his arm round her, it was the best picture of the two of them that he had, with Ally still healthy and Austin still being his cheerful self. Every time he looked at it he wished that they could go back to that point in time, where there was no Cassidy and Ally was okay. He just hoped Ally was okay.

"Austin?" He heard a familiar voice behind him.