One week later
It's been a week since I lost my voice. I haven't gone home. I can't. I've stayed in the hub with Jack.
I've gotten quite good at getting my point across with out speaking. When the others are on missions Jack talks for me over the com. And when he needs to go on a mission Tosh stays with me.
The nightmares come more frequent now and more violent. I punched Tosh in the stomach yesterday and Jack in the jaw the day before that. I see him at least once a day. Mostly in my sleep but now while I'm awake (hence punching Tosh and Jack).
Also, when it happens, I awake with a big bruise that looks like BE that no-one can figure out how I got. So far I have one on my left arm, right leg, right wrist and my lower back (which has made it painful to sit).
It hasn't happened yet today but I know it will.
Tosh, Owen and Gwen have gone to sort out a Weevil disturbance in a residential area leaving me and Jack in the hub. Alone. Waiting for them to contact us.
"Do you want some tea?" Jack asks me
I shake my head. I'm not thirsty.
"Ok then, I'll be right back then" he walks over to the tea room and I turn to face the computer screen.
I'm starting to fall asleep, I've barely slept at all this week. I can feel my eyes close and my head slowly fall onto the desk in front of me. I let myself sleep, praying that nothing will happen, that I wont see him.
My prayers don't work.
Laughter, cold, sharp.
That's all I hear.
A pain in my side.
"Soon you will be mine" The voice says in the dark. "I will take you in everyway and all you will be able to do scream a silent scream."
I can see him, he's in front of me. I pick something up from beside me and walk towards him. He has his back turned. I take what I have in my hand and plunge it into his back.
I hear a scream and open my eyes.
Oh god no.
I've stabbed him.
I've stabbed Jack in the back……with a screw driver!
"Aahh, Ow, Shit that hurts." He mumbles as he pulls it out and turns to face me.
My face is full of fear, tears streaming down my face. God what have I done.
"Jack is everything alright?" I hear Gwen say. Jack has his com on him now.
"Yeah fine, just a little hit in the back that's all" he replies to her.
"Ok the Weevil has gone back underground and we're heading back."
"K. see you in while, over and out." he puts the com down on the desk sorts out his shoulder.
I fall to the floor, crying and shaking. Oh god what have I done!
Jack puts his hand on my shoulder.
"Don't worry I'm not hurt bad, it'll heal soon." He smiles at me.
I try to smile back and then grip my side.
The pain.
Jack lifts up my shirt slightly and there, plain as day is my side bruised with a BE.
"It's ok" Jack whispers "Everything will be ok."
I know different.
He will get me.
Jack, don't let him take me.