Okay, now we shall hear Kate's song! Sorry about wierd updates, I've been trying to keep up with everything. But weekend, yay! Hopefully I can get a few more updates in to both of my stories;) thank you awesome guys for all the reviews, and here's a long chapter just for Livia Toric, glad you like it!
Kate walked away from her piano (Mr. Black hadn't shown up again), hoisting her bag on her shoulder.
She took a deep breath. Now was when she had to perform. Since yesterday, she had been pondering on songs all day that she had stayed up 'til midnight finishing her landscape drawing. Good thing she didn't have a roommate.
Kate liked to choose songs that reminded her of herself and her own life. This time, she had chosen one that just happened to come on the radio, (drum roll...;P) Demons by Imagine Dragons.
She loved the way the chords sounded on her piano. She didn't have time to make a CD, not that she'd want to use one anyways, so she was using a piano.
She reached Ms. Tooth's choir room, sighing deeply and flattening her bun before stepping inside.
"Hello," Kate said nervously and very, very, quiet.
"Ah, you're here," she says. "Show me whatcha got!" She says enthusiastically.
She nodded, sitting down at the bench. She loved the smooth feeling of the keys as she ran her hands lightly over them. She enthralled in the fact that this wooden machine could make such beautiful sounds that only she should produce, with the right fingerings.
She had memorized the song, it wasn't a hard one, but her hands still shook with the thought that Ms. Tooth was right behind her.
Then, Elsa began to play, and then, she began to sing.
Little did she know, but a certain white-haired boy was biding behind the door, listening intently to the shy girl's song.
Jack was amazed by the sweet melody that came out of the instrument and her.
When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When the dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst all
And the blood's run stale
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
Jack was awestruck. Who knew the shy little girl had such a voice. Her voice was beautiful. He could imagine her sitting at the piano, fingers flying with the music he heard floating out of the not-so-soundproof choir room. He listened intently as the girl glided into the chorus.
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Kate was so caught up in her concentration and song that she forgot all about her graded assessment. Why oh why had she ever stopped performing? She loved this. Then, she remembered why. She had had to change everything about her, her hair, her eyes, her personality, her life in general, just so Anna and even Jack could forget her. Her eyes watered again, but Kate had held in her tears before, this time was no different. Pain seeped into her voice as she finished the moment of music where her singing had rested.
At the curtain's fall
It's the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
In the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made
Both Jack and Kate thought of themselves when she sang that verse. Both for different reasons. Both the same amount of agony.
Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Kate's thoughts were clouded with Anna and Jack. She did need to let them go. They were both better off anyways without her. Of course, they didn't know Kate's real secret that she had buried deep in her mind, where no one would ever find it, not even Kate herself.
Your eyes they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
She let the last chord echo around the choir room. She breathed a sigh. But this sigh was relieved. It felt really good to fully sing but like that, singing about her pain, a song that described her ways. Her eyes and her hair, that's what she changed the most. Her eyebrows made it easy for her dyed chocolate brown hair to look natural, and brown-haired people did not have blue eyes. If you looked really closely, the intensity of Kate's true blue eyes could be determined after a long and hard stare. Her past, her demons, lay there. Color contacts made it easy to hide her real emotions, especially since she was used to the brilliant blue that revealed her every thought. She enjoyed her dark eyes. It was like her cover, and she almost felt nude without them. She never really saw her hair, it was always pinned up in that bun. Sure, she missed her old french braid hairstyle but this was safer.
Her eyes had been the thing to really change. One could find the truth if only one one knew where to look.
Ms. Tooth, Kate turned around the find, was purely overjoyed.
"I have rarely ever heard a beautiful voice, Kate! You have to sign up for our winter festival!" Indeed, Ms. Tooth ran over to her desk for a flier.
"What?" Squeaked Kate. Sure, she loved singing but she wasn't ready for that kind of crowd!
"Oh yes, I'll make all the arrangements, you'll be wonderful! Trust me," she said sincerely, before squealing with excitement and shoving the winter festival flier in her bag. She then pushed her out the door, and it seemed like Kate's feet were literally dragging on the floor.
In fact, hearing how Ms. Tooth would sign her up to sing (in front of a crowd who-knows-how-big, eek!) At the winter festival, she felt very light headed.
"Uh, Ms. Tooth, I don't know if that's really a good idea," Kate mumbled, dazed.
"Don't worry, you'll be fine!" With that, Kate was pushed firmly out the door, given a date and time for the festival that she didn't quite catch.
"Hmmg," Kate made a very interesting groan, staggering in the hallway...right into Jack.
"Uh, are you okay?" He asked awkwardly as Kate swayed back and forth.
"I think...I'm gunna..." With another moan, she collapsed in the hallway, falling right into Jack for the third time in three days. She would have been mortified if she hadn't been out cold.
~A few unknown hours later...~
"Mm," Kate muttered, coughing awake. She sat up, looking around.
This wasn't her dorm, and it certainly wasn't the hallway...
In which she had fainted on Jack! Could this day get any worse?
As a matter of fact, it could.
Speak of the devil, Jack came walking in at the time.
"Oh, good, you're awake." He says, giving a charming smile.
Kate ignored it, "What happened?"
"Well, you passed out, and I didn't want to just leave you in the hallway, so here we are in my dorm. My roommate's out right now, so I brought you here."
"What?" Kate exclaimed, standing up quickly, realizing that she had been passed out in Jack Frost's dorm room.
"Don't worry, you're safe, it's not after hours so I'm not breaking any rules to bring you here," he told her, trying to calm her down. Speaking of which, she still hadn't even told him her name.
"Um, this is kinda awkward, but, what's your name?" Jack asked, rubbing his neck with his hand, a similar habit of someone else long ago...
Kate shook her head, clearing her thoughts. No, her Jack wasn't here, and if she ever wanted to really 'let him go' then she would have to stop comparing him to this Jack. Besides, a lot of changes happen in three years, especially from middle school to high school. She probably wouldn't even notice Jack, if he was here, and vice versa. Kate had gone to extremes to ensure that.
"Oh, my name's E-" She cut off, staring into space about something in which Jack had no clue.
Kate, on the other hand, was horrified at herself.
She hadn't introduced herself as...her real name...since before. She had nearly lost everything she had ever worked for just in one simple name! How could she be so stupid?
Kate composed herself, concealing her emotions and depriving herself of feelings.
It was one slip up. She would just have to conceal it, don't feel it, just like she always did.
"Uh, I just go by Kate," she said, suddenly very (well, more than usual) shy.
"Go by? What's your full name?" Jack laughed.
Well, no one ever said Kate wasn't good at finding loop holes."Katrian."
"What kind of name is Katrian?"
"Well, actually, it's Scandinavian, and also, I don't name myself," she replied smoothly and evenly.
"Well, who knew, Katrian can speak more than ten words," Jack gives her a round of applause.
"It's just Kate, actually," she whisper-corrected, wishing she had hair to hide behind.
"Sorry, what? What is it with you shy people? I never hear you," Jack says.
Anger bubbled up inside Kate. "So what? It's not like you popular kids give us the time of day anyways!"
But, being the shy character Kate was, she didn't say anything out loud, just turned her face to a deeper shade of crimson, looking for a way out.
"Um, I should, uh, probably go," her voice faded to a whisper.
"Oh yeah, do you want me to walk you to your dorms?" Kate shook her head, ducking low to attempt to hide her face (key word there: attempt).
"S-see you around," Kate said, rushingly pushing open the door.
"Ow!" Someone yelled.
"Oh my gosh, sorry!" Kate cried, running away before she could see. Or, at least, trying to run. The person grabbed Kate's elbow, stopping her.
"I-I really am sorry!" Kate stuttered, face to face with the girl who had asked (told) her to move from her corner the first day in choir just so she and a group of fangirls could fawn over Jack.
Her eyes narrowed to beady little slits. "I bet you are. What were you doing coming out of Jack's room?" She demands acidly.
"I-I f-f-f-" Kate was cut off.
The girl cackled. "God, you're worse than Hiccup. Just who do you think you are? Jack belongs to me- I mean, us."
"Huh?" Kate said, completely lost.
"Don't you know? All the girls are in line for Jack's heart. And you just skipped."
"What? No, I don't even want to-"
"Save it," the girl snapped her hand closed. She then began backing poor Kate into the wall.
"You are a pathetic loser who is already nothing on her first day here! You will never be anything to Jack! He's going to break your puny little hear-"
This time, the girl was interrupted.
"Jasmine," a voice said coolly.
"Jack!" So called Jasmine's attitude went from a breathing fire cracker to an overgrown puppy. Girls like these made Kate sick.
Kate practically collapsed on the ground when Jack cut in. She could feel her legs shaking.
Jack kissed Jasmine rather passionately on the lips. Kate nearly gagged, but remained cool and steady. She took a deep breath in and out, then got up, turning to leave.
"Oh, hey!" Jack called after her. Kate paused, looking around. Was he actually stopping her?
"Watch it next time," Kate gaped at what he just said. Was this the same Jack Frost who had shown her kindness in refusing to leave her alone unconscious in the hallway? To this mean, stereotypical player who just yelled at her when his girlfriend was hissing insults at her?
Kate just nodded, actually trembling, and ran off, holding her shoulder bag close as she did.
She shut her eyes tight when she came to a corner. She slid down the wall, catching her breath as well as what just happened.
One time. One time, someone had shown her kindness, even joked with her. And then they had turned around and become the cold, heartless person she had come to expect. God, she hated popular people.
"A-are you okay?" A voice asked. Kate's eyes snapped open, and she suddenly stood up.
She looked over at who had spoken. He was a skinny boy, with long and shaggy brown hair, freckles, and forest green eyes. Now that she thought about it wasn't this the same boy Jack had been looking at in math class? Not that she kept track of those things...
"Uh, I'm fine," Kate said.
"Okay. I'm Hiccup," the boy introduced.
"H-Hiccup?" Kate asked.
Hiccup blushed. "Yeah, it's really a nickname."
"Oh," Kate felt herself liking this boy. He didn't seem like some over exaggerated jock. "I'm Kate. You could say it's a nickname as well."
"Nice to meet you Kate," Hiccup said, smiling. "I'm here for a class on technology, so I have to go, but, hope to see you around!"
"Yeah, nice meeting you!" She called as loudly as she dared. She did hope she would see this Hiccup around. He seemed like the kind of friend who stuck around.
Kate reddened at the thought, a feeling of shame washing over her.
Forget it, conceal it, don't feel it, don't let it show.
She sighed, once again flattening her already perfect bun, and headed back to the dorms.
She was still slightly fazed by what had happened with Jack. She had already established that she hated him. Hmm, maybe that wasn't quite the word. 'Hate' was pretty strong, and someone like Kate never used something so strong like 'hate.'
That didn't stop her from cursing Jack and all his 'kind.'
How she wished she had the courage (and no vows against it) to say something back. It would probably bring immense joy to say some snappy comeback at Jack or his girlfriend (or whatever she was). But she had promised specifically not to do just that.
When she reached her dorm, she fell on her bed, immediately falling asleep.
She dreamed of a place where she could just let go, where Kate could be herself and not have to worry about any -one or -thing.
While she was asleep, she was also praying for a miracle.
By the way, yes, those little foreshadowing(s) are supposed to be very irritating. Haha, I try. Anywho, see you next chapter!