Hey you guys I am soOoOoOo sorry for making you wait so long. It was just because I was
so mad!!!! My computer crashed and so everything had to be rebooted. I even lost chapter 14 so
now I have to write it all over again!!!!! I loved that chapter *whines* okay whatever lets move
onto the future, I just wanted to let you guys go that I did take the time to say thanx to you
guys who had taken their time to review my last chappie but after I needed to write everything
again I was just too pooped to write all those responses again, I'm soo sorry. I promise you guys
that I'll have responses to the reviewers of the next chappie. Thanks you guys it really means
a lot. ^-^
~A LOVE BEFORE TIME~
Sakura groaned when she woke up. Her hair was damp and it was clinging to her forehead.
She was still in the car, her brother had no intention of waking her up when they got home.
"Did you sleep well?" the voice mocked.
Sakura froze knowing whose voice it belonged to. "Oh no not again." she whined. "You just
can't seem to leave me alone can you?" she whirled herself to the back seat of the car to see a
young man with a very grim face, oddly enough with an older man.
"I'm guessing you two have already introduced yourselves already?" she rubbed her face
with her hand and began rubbing her temple. Considering how her life had been for the past few
weeks, this was somehow not that surprising.
"Kinomoto, you've never told me you had a father. We have a lot in common." he grinned
that evil little grin of his.
"You never asked." she retorted looking hesitantly at her father, his frown was probably
a good sign that he was upset.
"Li...what d...did you say t...to him?" she began to get even more nervous when Li opened
his mouth to say something but her father stopped him.
If Li was obeying her father than he must be somewhat familiar with him. After all
he was not the kind of guy who would listen to anyone.
Sakura took in a deep breath. If Li did tell anything she didn't want her dad to know,
she swore she wouldn't help him anymore.
"Sakura." it was just one word, he had just said her name but that was all it took for
Sakura to realize he was displeased. "Sakura I don't want you..." his thoughts seemed to trail
off as he glanced back at Li, and if she didn't know any better he was holding his breath.
Ugh! what had they talked about? It was as if they now had this sacred bond. Her thoughts
disappeared as quickly as they wence came.
"Yes?" she urged. "You don't want me to...cause I'll do what you say dad." she added,
this time wondering why Li was glaring at her. Geez did she feel like an odd ball.
"It's nothing Sakura I'll come and talk to you later tonight okay? Your friend Li tells
me you two have things to talk about." and with that he seemed to dissintigrate into the air.
Anger seeped through her, she had wanted to spend some time with her father, even if he
was going to lecture her. Li and her had nothing to talk about as long as she was concerned. They
could talk anytime!
She muttered something and got out of the car, slamming the door on her way out. She
didn't look to see if the young ghost was still in the car.
Li frowned as he watched Sakura make her way up the steps. How could she mad at him? He
didn't do anything...still knowing she was hurt or angry made him want to help her in some way.
He smiled suddenly reminiscing about the time he tried to kiss the young girl. The way
she pressed her lips together so tightly they paled to a white. Even the way she tried to ward
off his advances. She was definatly true to her word. She would help him get Emike back, but was
it what she wanted? No woman had ever made him this crazy. If only he knew how she felt about
him. Maybe, just maybe he would fufill her wish. Not just for her, but for the deep craving that
was slowly consuming him day by day.
~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~
Sakura forced her feet to pull her up the stairs and into her room. She was tired,hot,
and her neck was beginning to throb again. She did not have to deal with her grandmother or
anyone else now. All she wanted was to take a shower and go back to sleep.
The room was dark when she entered the room but she didn't bother to turn on the lights
because the light would probably just hurt her eyes and take away her fatigue. She really didn't
want that. Sleep was all she wanted.
Head drooping she went to her closet and took out a long towel and her clothes. The
chance of Li seeing her in a towel again was just to great.
"And just where are you going?"
Sakura ignored him and kept walking toward the bathroom. She stooped short when her head
banged hard against a flat hard chest. It felt nice. Too nice. Uh oh this was not good. She tried
to back away but found it impossible. She was frozen and he wasn't even holding her against her
will.
"Get lost. I'm hot and I need a shower, you can give me time to that can't you?"
"You can shower after."
"I'll be too tired after we talk."
"Then don't shower and you can go directly to bed."
"I'm sticky with sweat, no." she didn't care she was telling him she was sticky with her
own sweat and she didn't care how odd it might have looked that she was talking into his chest.
Except, she knew she was staring into his chest but what was he looking at exactly?
"We need to talk." his tone made it a demand more than a suggestion.
"There's nothing to talk about." she dismissed.
Li sighed. "Is this about the way I acted before?"
"I don't know refresh my memory." she met his gaze head-on. She couldn't believe how
calm she was at that moment. Were his eyes always this dark?
"You want me to describe it word by word?" his eyes flashed even in the dark. What I
wanted to do while you were in my arms?"What I was thinking every passing second? because I for
one know nothing of what you were thinking."
"Okay stop it!" her face was warming and she was sure if the lights were on she would
look like a tomato. "What do you want? You seem to remember every detail of our last meeting.
Now what do you want from me?"
He was suddenly irritated with her beyond all reason. "Why do you flush when I talk about
us in our past?"
An apalled look appeared on Sakura's face. A quick reply sprung to her lips but died
unsaid. Lamely she replied "I don't."
He moved even closer to her then, pushing his hands against her back and letting her body
crash into his. "Why do you freeze when I touch you?"
"I'm caucious."
"Like hell you are."
"Let me go! I need a shower."
"Fine." he released her and allowed her to enter the bathroom. "Next time you decide to
take a little nap try to act a little more like the Emike I know."
Sakura peered out of the bathroom door. "Huh?"
Li's eyes had a stark look in them. "Stop being yourself Kinomoto and act like Emike. Get
me to,"
"Love Emike?" she finished for him, hoping she didn't sound too pethetic.
Li seemed to stop and tilt his head in Sakura's direction. His eyes reflected no light
even as the moon shone through the window.
"Love Emike." he finally confirmed.
Sakura quickly shut the door before he had a chance to say anything else. Behind it she
started to lean against the hard wood as a large lump grew in her throat. If anything she had to
admit to herself she had already fallen in love with Syaoran.
*past events*
Li stared at Emike at the dinner table. The girl had no shame. Acting like nothing had
ever happened between them. Did she think he was a fool? Her smile no longer affected him. Her
voice no longer brought chills down his spine and her eyes were no longer those innocent green
emeralds he used to love looking into. No that had all changed. Everything was different now that
Sakura had came into his life.
Ahh his Sakura, just thinking about her made him more alert. He never took his eyes off
Emike. Not because of Emike herself but because he couldn't wait until his angel would come back
for another one of her visits. When would she show? Why was it taking so long?
He couldn't understand why but he was jealous of his future self. He probably got to
spend every second with that girl. The lucky bastard. All he got was a a couple minutes, even
more if he was lucky!
God he needed her right now. The household was just so boring without her. He had been
as sincere as possible with Emike after Sakura had told him to but you could be nice to a person
you despise for just so long. He also couldn't comprehend why Sakura wanted him to do this, could
she not tell he wanted her? He knew she felt the same way or she wouldn't have walked into his
arms the last time he told her too, so why was she fighting it?
No...no...he felt like choking himself. Of course it must be his past self! He was the
one who wanted him to marry Emike and he got His Sakura to do his dirty work! But that still didn't
explain why his past self was doing this. Did he not see Sakura as the person he himself saw her?
She was a thousand times better than Emike.
Li's eyes took a certain faraway look. He would have to ask Sakura when she comes back.
That is if she ever comes back...
*back in the future*
Sakura sighed as she rentered her room, leaving the nice, warm steaming bathroom. Her
eyes scoured the room. No Li. Boy was she relieved.
Smiling she pounced onto her bed. Things were finally going her way.
Sakura gasped as a cold arm encircled her throat and squeezed. She'd have screamed but
the tightness surrounding her throat was preventing it.
"Didn't I tell you to leave Syaoran alone?" the tone of voice was familiar. Oh yeah
definetly familiar. Then again you don't just forget the voice of a person that slashed your
throat.
"What d..o you want?!" she managed to gasp. Her nails dug into the woman's arm.
"What do I want! You idiot I want you to stop helping yourself and start helping me!!!!"
her other free hand moved infront of Sakura's face. A knife dangled before her blurrying eyes.
"Know what I'm going to do with this?" she taunted.
Sakura would have nodded but the rings on the woman's fingers were digging into her gums
and she could feel her own blood dripping onto her tongue. If she moved she was afraid the
bleeding slits would grow deeper. So instead she panted out the first thing that came to mind.
"If you hurt Li or anyone else in this household I swear I'll get my revenge."
The woman burst out in laughter. Her voice was strangely musical, edged with just a slight
accent. "I don't think your in any position to be threatening me."
Sakura thought about ramming her elbow into the woman's stomach. "Maybe not but neither
are you." she did as her thoughts said, she rammed her elbow as hard as she could into her attackers
soft stomach.
She began to panic as the attacker did nothing but cringe at the light hit.
"Who are you?" Sakura whispered as she stopped struggling altogether.
"Don't you know? Twin sister?" her voice was definetly mocking. "Why don't you call your
precious little Syaoran to come and rescue you?"
Sakura didn't say anything. But her eyes said it all.
She called me twin sister! but the only person that even came close to looking like me is
and was...No it just wasn't possible! I mean she was dead for centuries now.
"E..Emike?" she thought aloud.
The woman let out another one of her bell ringing laughs. "Surprised are we?" she quickly
placed the knife upon Sakura's hollow spot of her throat. "Now once I leave here I want you to
drft back to sleep got that?" she pressed the knife harder into Sakura's skin, which was now
threatening to peirce through her skin.
"Then when you see my Syaoran you will act like me not you me. Because Syaoran will love
me again and he will marry me."
Wearily Sakura answered "Li will love you again."
Cackling Emike began loosening her grip on Sakura's throat. "There's a good little girl,
do this and I might just let the people you care about live." with that she dissintergrated into
the air.
Sakura was alone again. Her ragged breath seemed to fill the room. Her arms were limp, her
neck felt like it was going to rip off any second. She stayed in her position for a few moments.
Knees on the bed, arms drooping to her side, chest heaving. She didn't know what but she felt
like she was waiting for something. Whether it was for Emike to return, or herself to faint she
wasn't sure. Probably neither of them.
After minutes had passed and realization came that no one was going to come she pulled
herself out of bed and waddled into the bathroom. She stared at herself for a few minutes as
thoughts floated inside her head.
Twice today she had been told the next time she went back to the past she should act more
like Emike. To stop being Sakura and be the Emike Li would fall in love with. Had she done such a
horrible job that Li had to even call Emike in to threaten her?
Her heart felt like it cracked into two just then. She didn't think it was possible but
she was so sad she couldn't even force herself to cry. Her eyes raised themselves to lock at
her refection.
Lips wrenched crookedly back at her, lightly covered with dried blood. Lifeless eyes
looking back at her. The reddest neck she had ever seen glared back at her and her face?
completely dried. That's what terrified her. Where were the tears? even the glaze over your eyes
that created tears?
She tried to bring herself to smile. Both times were futile. Is this what it felt like
to be betrayed?
Slowly she opened the tap and allowed the water to drip onto her hands. She cupped her
hands together and still taking her time gathered enough water to fill her mouth. The liquid swished
around inside along with her saliva a few times before she spit it back out. She repeated this
act again but no matter how many times she did it blood would always come seeping back into her
mouth.
Giving up she turned off the lights and walked back into her room.
She was halfway to her bed when a cool hand touched the small of her back. She glanced up
in surprise. Li appeared by her side, his piercingly dark stare eyes her with intense curiosity.
He waited for her to say something but she remained strangely quiet. The room was still
bathed in darkness so he couldn't make out the expression on her face. Though her eyes...he
studied them for awhile.
"I could've sworn I felt another presence in the room." he mumbled to himself. More
clearly he asked Sakura "Why are you up?"
She didn't answer, didn't even move as far as Li could tell.
"What happened?" he lowered his voice. Her eyes were holding secrets. Secrets he couldn't
read and she probably wouldn't tell him. He cursed silently to himself for leaving her alone.
"Are you okay atleast?" he put both hands on her shoulder and gave her a light but firm
shake. "Did something happen?!"
"I had a bad dream, that's all." she finally replied.
Li's mouth twitched. "Are you sure? because I felt something in this room. Something-"
he stopped short and gave Sakura another hard shake. "Why aren't you moving? fighting back?,
talking?"
"I'm tired." she answered lifelessly.
"Why were you in the washroom for so long?"
She didn't answer again.
"What the hell is wrong with you woman?!" he pushed her into the moonlight and his eyes
narrowed. This was not Sakura's face. What had happened to cause such an expression on her face?
She looked so dead. He placed a knuckle underneath her chin and gently raised her head
to his. "What happened in your dream?" he asked softly.
Sakura dropped her eyes unable to meet his dark eyes. Everytime he touched her she felt
a small rip in her heart. Slowly she slunk away from him. When she turned her back on him she
felt a little braver.
"I'll do it." she paused and clenched her hands into fists. "I'll do it so you can just
stop." she stopped and smiled crookedly. "It's funny isn't? Just when you think someone has
earned a spot in your heart they don't want you anymore. It makes me wonder why they even
bothered with you. You know Li? I know you've never trusted me to do what you asked. I make
mistakes, you yelled. I try explaining, you don't give me the chance. When yelling doesn't work
you try to make me listen to you by using my own feelings against me. It hurt Li, it hurt
knowing you would do that even after I told you I would make sure you and Emike get married.
I knew you didn't believe me. It hurt knowing when Emike wasn't around you just played with
the girl who's just her imposter." she took in a deep breath. "But I guess that's what I am
right? an imposter. A girl that is second best to the better, nicer, better and original Emike."
Sakura closed her eyes tightly. "It hurts Li everything hurts." Building up as much
courage as she could she turned to face the man whom she was talking to her. "I dreamed day by
day you would get to know me, trust me as a friend would. But I was naive wasn't I? people don't
change do they? But It's better this way. Atleast I get to see you a few more times until the
marraige." She swallowed silently. "I'm sorry I wasn't trying hard enough Li Syaoran." She smiled
sadly and quickly ran out the door, never once glancing back. Though she would always consider
Li a friend, he had broken her heart, the one precious thing she finally realized she only gave
to him.
Li stood motionless. He had gotten his wish. Sakura was definetly going to do her job now.
But at what cost? This was one argument he had lost. For he had been to blind to see what burdens
Sakura had carried. Too stupid to realize who his own heart was calling for...
Well, well, well interesting chapter eh? okay so maybe it was a little to melodramatic
in the end. hahaha you know I was actually hoping I was able to stir some emotions in you. DID
IT WORK? haha tears pouring yet?!!!!(*bunch of dead pans) ARE YOU PEOPLE DEAD INSIDE?!!!!
okay so I didn't do such a good job oh well..there's always next time. HAHA ^.^
Please tell me what you thought about this chapter hmmm k? if not any... I'll have the next
chapter with the responses up real soon. Bear with me! -silent wanderer
so mad!!!! My computer crashed and so everything had to be rebooted. I even lost chapter 14 so
now I have to write it all over again!!!!! I loved that chapter *whines* okay whatever lets move
onto the future, I just wanted to let you guys go that I did take the time to say thanx to you
guys who had taken their time to review my last chappie but after I needed to write everything
again I was just too pooped to write all those responses again, I'm soo sorry. I promise you guys
that I'll have responses to the reviewers of the next chappie. Thanks you guys it really means
a lot. ^-^
~A LOVE BEFORE TIME~
Sakura groaned when she woke up. Her hair was damp and it was clinging to her forehead.
She was still in the car, her brother had no intention of waking her up when they got home.
"Did you sleep well?" the voice mocked.
Sakura froze knowing whose voice it belonged to. "Oh no not again." she whined. "You just
can't seem to leave me alone can you?" she whirled herself to the back seat of the car to see a
young man with a very grim face, oddly enough with an older man.
"I'm guessing you two have already introduced yourselves already?" she rubbed her face
with her hand and began rubbing her temple. Considering how her life had been for the past few
weeks, this was somehow not that surprising.
"Kinomoto, you've never told me you had a father. We have a lot in common." he grinned
that evil little grin of his.
"You never asked." she retorted looking hesitantly at her father, his frown was probably
a good sign that he was upset.
"Li...what d...did you say t...to him?" she began to get even more nervous when Li opened
his mouth to say something but her father stopped him.
If Li was obeying her father than he must be somewhat familiar with him. After all
he was not the kind of guy who would listen to anyone.
Sakura took in a deep breath. If Li did tell anything she didn't want her dad to know,
she swore she wouldn't help him anymore.
"Sakura." it was just one word, he had just said her name but that was all it took for
Sakura to realize he was displeased. "Sakura I don't want you..." his thoughts seemed to trail
off as he glanced back at Li, and if she didn't know any better he was holding his breath.
Ugh! what had they talked about? It was as if they now had this sacred bond. Her thoughts
disappeared as quickly as they wence came.
"Yes?" she urged. "You don't want me to...cause I'll do what you say dad." she added,
this time wondering why Li was glaring at her. Geez did she feel like an odd ball.
"It's nothing Sakura I'll come and talk to you later tonight okay? Your friend Li tells
me you two have things to talk about." and with that he seemed to dissintigrate into the air.
Anger seeped through her, she had wanted to spend some time with her father, even if he
was going to lecture her. Li and her had nothing to talk about as long as she was concerned. They
could talk anytime!
She muttered something and got out of the car, slamming the door on her way out. She
didn't look to see if the young ghost was still in the car.
Li frowned as he watched Sakura make her way up the steps. How could she mad at him? He
didn't do anything...still knowing she was hurt or angry made him want to help her in some way.
He smiled suddenly reminiscing about the time he tried to kiss the young girl. The way
she pressed her lips together so tightly they paled to a white. Even the way she tried to ward
off his advances. She was definatly true to her word. She would help him get Emike back, but was
it what she wanted? No woman had ever made him this crazy. If only he knew how she felt about
him. Maybe, just maybe he would fufill her wish. Not just for her, but for the deep craving that
was slowly consuming him day by day.
~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~
Sakura forced her feet to pull her up the stairs and into her room. She was tired,hot,
and her neck was beginning to throb again. She did not have to deal with her grandmother or
anyone else now. All she wanted was to take a shower and go back to sleep.
The room was dark when she entered the room but she didn't bother to turn on the lights
because the light would probably just hurt her eyes and take away her fatigue. She really didn't
want that. Sleep was all she wanted.
Head drooping she went to her closet and took out a long towel and her clothes. The
chance of Li seeing her in a towel again was just to great.
"And just where are you going?"
Sakura ignored him and kept walking toward the bathroom. She stooped short when her head
banged hard against a flat hard chest. It felt nice. Too nice. Uh oh this was not good. She tried
to back away but found it impossible. She was frozen and he wasn't even holding her against her
will.
"Get lost. I'm hot and I need a shower, you can give me time to that can't you?"
"You can shower after."
"I'll be too tired after we talk."
"Then don't shower and you can go directly to bed."
"I'm sticky with sweat, no." she didn't care she was telling him she was sticky with her
own sweat and she didn't care how odd it might have looked that she was talking into his chest.
Except, she knew she was staring into his chest but what was he looking at exactly?
"We need to talk." his tone made it a demand more than a suggestion.
"There's nothing to talk about." she dismissed.
Li sighed. "Is this about the way I acted before?"
"I don't know refresh my memory." she met his gaze head-on. She couldn't believe how
calm she was at that moment. Were his eyes always this dark?
"You want me to describe it word by word?" his eyes flashed even in the dark. What I
wanted to do while you were in my arms?"What I was thinking every passing second? because I for
one know nothing of what you were thinking."
"Okay stop it!" her face was warming and she was sure if the lights were on she would
look like a tomato. "What do you want? You seem to remember every detail of our last meeting.
Now what do you want from me?"
He was suddenly irritated with her beyond all reason. "Why do you flush when I talk about
us in our past?"
An apalled look appeared on Sakura's face. A quick reply sprung to her lips but died
unsaid. Lamely she replied "I don't."
He moved even closer to her then, pushing his hands against her back and letting her body
crash into his. "Why do you freeze when I touch you?"
"I'm caucious."
"Like hell you are."
"Let me go! I need a shower."
"Fine." he released her and allowed her to enter the bathroom. "Next time you decide to
take a little nap try to act a little more like the Emike I know."
Sakura peered out of the bathroom door. "Huh?"
Li's eyes had a stark look in them. "Stop being yourself Kinomoto and act like Emike. Get
me to,"
"Love Emike?" she finished for him, hoping she didn't sound too pethetic.
Li seemed to stop and tilt his head in Sakura's direction. His eyes reflected no light
even as the moon shone through the window.
"Love Emike." he finally confirmed.
Sakura quickly shut the door before he had a chance to say anything else. Behind it she
started to lean against the hard wood as a large lump grew in her throat. If anything she had to
admit to herself she had already fallen in love with Syaoran.
*past events*
Li stared at Emike at the dinner table. The girl had no shame. Acting like nothing had
ever happened between them. Did she think he was a fool? Her smile no longer affected him. Her
voice no longer brought chills down his spine and her eyes were no longer those innocent green
emeralds he used to love looking into. No that had all changed. Everything was different now that
Sakura had came into his life.
Ahh his Sakura, just thinking about her made him more alert. He never took his eyes off
Emike. Not because of Emike herself but because he couldn't wait until his angel would come back
for another one of her visits. When would she show? Why was it taking so long?
He couldn't understand why but he was jealous of his future self. He probably got to
spend every second with that girl. The lucky bastard. All he got was a a couple minutes, even
more if he was lucky!
God he needed her right now. The household was just so boring without her. He had been
as sincere as possible with Emike after Sakura had told him to but you could be nice to a person
you despise for just so long. He also couldn't comprehend why Sakura wanted him to do this, could
she not tell he wanted her? He knew she felt the same way or she wouldn't have walked into his
arms the last time he told her too, so why was she fighting it?
No...no...he felt like choking himself. Of course it must be his past self! He was the
one who wanted him to marry Emike and he got His Sakura to do his dirty work! But that still didn't
explain why his past self was doing this. Did he not see Sakura as the person he himself saw her?
She was a thousand times better than Emike.
Li's eyes took a certain faraway look. He would have to ask Sakura when she comes back.
That is if she ever comes back...
*back in the future*
Sakura sighed as she rentered her room, leaving the nice, warm steaming bathroom. Her
eyes scoured the room. No Li. Boy was she relieved.
Smiling she pounced onto her bed. Things were finally going her way.
Sakura gasped as a cold arm encircled her throat and squeezed. She'd have screamed but
the tightness surrounding her throat was preventing it.
"Didn't I tell you to leave Syaoran alone?" the tone of voice was familiar. Oh yeah
definetly familiar. Then again you don't just forget the voice of a person that slashed your
throat.
"What d..o you want?!" she managed to gasp. Her nails dug into the woman's arm.
"What do I want! You idiot I want you to stop helping yourself and start helping me!!!!"
her other free hand moved infront of Sakura's face. A knife dangled before her blurrying eyes.
"Know what I'm going to do with this?" she taunted.
Sakura would have nodded but the rings on the woman's fingers were digging into her gums
and she could feel her own blood dripping onto her tongue. If she moved she was afraid the
bleeding slits would grow deeper. So instead she panted out the first thing that came to mind.
"If you hurt Li or anyone else in this household I swear I'll get my revenge."
The woman burst out in laughter. Her voice was strangely musical, edged with just a slight
accent. "I don't think your in any position to be threatening me."
Sakura thought about ramming her elbow into the woman's stomach. "Maybe not but neither
are you." she did as her thoughts said, she rammed her elbow as hard as she could into her attackers
soft stomach.
She began to panic as the attacker did nothing but cringe at the light hit.
"Who are you?" Sakura whispered as she stopped struggling altogether.
"Don't you know? Twin sister?" her voice was definetly mocking. "Why don't you call your
precious little Syaoran to come and rescue you?"
Sakura didn't say anything. But her eyes said it all.
She called me twin sister! but the only person that even came close to looking like me is
and was...No it just wasn't possible! I mean she was dead for centuries now.
"E..Emike?" she thought aloud.
The woman let out another one of her bell ringing laughs. "Surprised are we?" she quickly
placed the knife upon Sakura's hollow spot of her throat. "Now once I leave here I want you to
drft back to sleep got that?" she pressed the knife harder into Sakura's skin, which was now
threatening to peirce through her skin.
"Then when you see my Syaoran you will act like me not you me. Because Syaoran will love
me again and he will marry me."
Wearily Sakura answered "Li will love you again."
Cackling Emike began loosening her grip on Sakura's throat. "There's a good little girl,
do this and I might just let the people you care about live." with that she dissintergrated into
the air.
Sakura was alone again. Her ragged breath seemed to fill the room. Her arms were limp, her
neck felt like it was going to rip off any second. She stayed in her position for a few moments.
Knees on the bed, arms drooping to her side, chest heaving. She didn't know what but she felt
like she was waiting for something. Whether it was for Emike to return, or herself to faint she
wasn't sure. Probably neither of them.
After minutes had passed and realization came that no one was going to come she pulled
herself out of bed and waddled into the bathroom. She stared at herself for a few minutes as
thoughts floated inside her head.
Twice today she had been told the next time she went back to the past she should act more
like Emike. To stop being Sakura and be the Emike Li would fall in love with. Had she done such a
horrible job that Li had to even call Emike in to threaten her?
Her heart felt like it cracked into two just then. She didn't think it was possible but
she was so sad she couldn't even force herself to cry. Her eyes raised themselves to lock at
her refection.
Lips wrenched crookedly back at her, lightly covered with dried blood. Lifeless eyes
looking back at her. The reddest neck she had ever seen glared back at her and her face?
completely dried. That's what terrified her. Where were the tears? even the glaze over your eyes
that created tears?
She tried to bring herself to smile. Both times were futile. Is this what it felt like
to be betrayed?
Slowly she opened the tap and allowed the water to drip onto her hands. She cupped her
hands together and still taking her time gathered enough water to fill her mouth. The liquid swished
around inside along with her saliva a few times before she spit it back out. She repeated this
act again but no matter how many times she did it blood would always come seeping back into her
mouth.
Giving up she turned off the lights and walked back into her room.
She was halfway to her bed when a cool hand touched the small of her back. She glanced up
in surprise. Li appeared by her side, his piercingly dark stare eyes her with intense curiosity.
He waited for her to say something but she remained strangely quiet. The room was still
bathed in darkness so he couldn't make out the expression on her face. Though her eyes...he
studied them for awhile.
"I could've sworn I felt another presence in the room." he mumbled to himself. More
clearly he asked Sakura "Why are you up?"
She didn't answer, didn't even move as far as Li could tell.
"What happened?" he lowered his voice. Her eyes were holding secrets. Secrets he couldn't
read and she probably wouldn't tell him. He cursed silently to himself for leaving her alone.
"Are you okay atleast?" he put both hands on her shoulder and gave her a light but firm
shake. "Did something happen?!"
"I had a bad dream, that's all." she finally replied.
Li's mouth twitched. "Are you sure? because I felt something in this room. Something-"
he stopped short and gave Sakura another hard shake. "Why aren't you moving? fighting back?,
talking?"
"I'm tired." she answered lifelessly.
"Why were you in the washroom for so long?"
She didn't answer again.
"What the hell is wrong with you woman?!" he pushed her into the moonlight and his eyes
narrowed. This was not Sakura's face. What had happened to cause such an expression on her face?
She looked so dead. He placed a knuckle underneath her chin and gently raised her head
to his. "What happened in your dream?" he asked softly.
Sakura dropped her eyes unable to meet his dark eyes. Everytime he touched her she felt
a small rip in her heart. Slowly she slunk away from him. When she turned her back on him she
felt a little braver.
"I'll do it." she paused and clenched her hands into fists. "I'll do it so you can just
stop." she stopped and smiled crookedly. "It's funny isn't? Just when you think someone has
earned a spot in your heart they don't want you anymore. It makes me wonder why they even
bothered with you. You know Li? I know you've never trusted me to do what you asked. I make
mistakes, you yelled. I try explaining, you don't give me the chance. When yelling doesn't work
you try to make me listen to you by using my own feelings against me. It hurt Li, it hurt
knowing you would do that even after I told you I would make sure you and Emike get married.
I knew you didn't believe me. It hurt knowing when Emike wasn't around you just played with
the girl who's just her imposter." she took in a deep breath. "But I guess that's what I am
right? an imposter. A girl that is second best to the better, nicer, better and original Emike."
Sakura closed her eyes tightly. "It hurts Li everything hurts." Building up as much
courage as she could she turned to face the man whom she was talking to her. "I dreamed day by
day you would get to know me, trust me as a friend would. But I was naive wasn't I? people don't
change do they? But It's better this way. Atleast I get to see you a few more times until the
marraige." She swallowed silently. "I'm sorry I wasn't trying hard enough Li Syaoran." She smiled
sadly and quickly ran out the door, never once glancing back. Though she would always consider
Li a friend, he had broken her heart, the one precious thing she finally realized she only gave
to him.
Li stood motionless. He had gotten his wish. Sakura was definetly going to do her job now.
But at what cost? This was one argument he had lost. For he had been to blind to see what burdens
Sakura had carried. Too stupid to realize who his own heart was calling for...
Well, well, well interesting chapter eh? okay so maybe it was a little to melodramatic
in the end. hahaha you know I was actually hoping I was able to stir some emotions in you. DID
IT WORK? haha tears pouring yet?!!!!(*bunch of dead pans) ARE YOU PEOPLE DEAD INSIDE?!!!!
okay so I didn't do such a good job oh well..there's always next time. HAHA ^.^
Please tell me what you thought about this chapter hmmm k? if not any... I'll have the next
chapter with the responses up real soon. Bear with me! -silent wanderer