Sorry it's been a while. But the chapter's here now! Yay! ;D

The Dream

The sheets were wet, and so were his pyjamas. He swallowed hard and scrunched his eyes shut, hoping that just by closing his eyes, it would make him forget everything. No such luck.

He could still feel everything that had happened in his dream; the touches, the kisses, the sex. It was a wonderful feeling, but it was also completely wrong, and that's what scared him.

He shakily lifted his hand up to the bedside table and grabbed his wand. "Scougify," he mumbled, pointing the wand at the wet sheets. Instantly, they were clean, as were his pyjamas. He placed his wand back on the bedside table and sighed, leaning back against the headboard of his bed.

I'm screwed, he thought miserably.

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Remus made his way downstairs quickly and quietly, not bothering to wake his friends up. He felt as though he needed to tell somebody about his dream, and his friends definitely weren't the right people to talk to. He'd die before telling them.

He reached the common room, and scanned the room for the person he was looking for, but he couldn't see her.

Without hesitation, he headed out of the common room and downstairs towards the library. He gave Madame Pince a smile as he came in, and walked to the usual table Lily Evans sat at. Voila – she was there.

"Lily," Remus said in relief, sitting down opposite her. She looked up from the work she was doing and smiled when she saw who it was, pushing the books aside.

"Hey Remus," she said. "How are you?"

"I'm... great," he lied, feeling nervous at the very thought of talking about his dream.

She gave him the 'yeah, I don't think so' look, and raised her eyebrows.

"Okay fine," Remus said quietly, looking down at his hands. "I came to you to speak to you about something."

"What is it?" she asked.

"You have to promise you won't repeat this to anyone though, Lily," Remus said. "I can't have anybody finding out."

Lily smiled and squeezed his hand. "You know I wouldn't tell."

"Right, I know... just wanted to make sure."

"It's alright," Lily said. "So what's up?"

Remus let out a nervous sigh and nodded. "I had a... dream."

"Judging by the redness of your face, you had a sex dream," Lily commented, blushing slightly. Remus laughed and nodded.

"Am I that easy to read?"

"No," Lily said. "I'm just observant. So what happened in this dream?" Her face reddened. "No! I don't really mean that! I don't want to know the details, I just mean why do you need to speak to me about it?"

"It's not about the dream itself," Remus said slowly. "It's about the person I was with in my dream."

"What's wrong with the person?"

"It wasn't exactly... a g-girl," Remus said, closing his eyes and trying to push away the thoughts coming back to him.

Lily's eyes widened and she pursed her lips. "Oh. So you're gay then?"

The word was just so...

He couldn't even describe it. Gay. Sure, it wasn't as bad as werewolf, but people treated them similar. I'm not gay, he thought. It was just one stupid, but admittedly erotic and excit- NO REMUS! No, it's wrong and inappropriate. I'm not gay!

"No, I'm not g-gay," Remus said, trying to look defiant. "I just had a dream. About a boy. I don't even know why."

"Did you enjoy it?" Lily asked.

"Of course not!" Remus said, resulting in a loud shhh from Madame Pince.

Lily looked sceptical. "Are you sure?"

"I'm sure! I didn't enjoy it one bit." Liar, he thought as an afterthought.

"Then why are you speaking to me?" Lily asked quietly, leaning closer to him. "I'm pretty sure you liked it. I mean, the way you're talking. You're worried because you thought you were straight, and you may even still do, but you've realised now that somewhere inside – some unconscious thoughts are seeping to the surface, and you're scared."

"Wow, you're good," Remus whispered. "I must be easy to read."

"Like I said, I'm observant," Lily smiled. "But seriously, Remus. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being gay. Sure, it's new and scary, but if you're unconsciously having thoughts about boys... well, there isn't much you can do about it."

"You're supposed to make me feel better," Remus groaned. "I don't want to be gay! Don't you think I'm already different enough? Can't I just be normal?"

"Being gay isn't abnormal," Lily said. "It's just a sexual orientation. Maybe you aren't gay, but don't push it aside like it's something to be afraid of. If you really are gay, then I know that one day you'll stop fighting it and you'll find someone who loves you for being a werewolf – a special guy. You will, Remus! Don't look at me like that. You're a catch."

Remus laughed and stared at Lily in disbelief. "A catch? What, a nerdy could-be-gay werewolf? Sure, I'll have people lining up all the way to Hogsmeade and back."

"Stop putting yourself down," Lily said. "Maybe the guy you like will fall for you."

"The guy I like?" Remus asked, staring at her as though she was insane. "I don't like anybody... in that way."

"Well if you're having sexy dreams about a guy, then surely you must like him," Lily said teasingly. "Come on, who was it?"

Remus sighed. "I don't like him in that way," he said. "Well, at least... I really don't think I do... I haven't thought about it – not until last night anyway."

"Tell me who it was," Lily urged. "Maybe I could help."

"Lily, please promise me you won't tell."

"I promise."

"It was... Sirius," Remus said, feeling his cheeks grow hotter again.

Lily smiled. "I thought it would be," she said. "You two do have chemistry."

"Chemistry? Remus said. "We're best friends. Of course we have chemistry."

"Well in my opinion, there's something more there. But if you don't want to believe me, you don't have to," Lily said. "Okay Remus. You had a dream about your best friend. You're confused. I can now see why it wasn't him you went to for help," she laughed. "I think you have two options."

"Two options?"

"Yes. Number one: just completely push it from your mind and pretend you never dreamt it. Although, you may have another dream which will just make things complicated. Or, number two: you could talk to him about it. You never know, maybe you do really like him somewhere deep inside, and it would be a shame to ignore it and never get a chance with him."

"I want a chance with him," Remus said, not even thinking about what he was saying. He hadn't even realised that he wanted a chance with Sirius until the words were out of his mouth.

"Then go for it," Lily said. "He's your best friend. Even if he doesn't feel the same way, I'm pretty sure he'll be nice about it. I doubt it'll mess up your friendship."

"But-"

"Look Remus, I have to go or else I'll be late, but think about this; if you go for it and he doesn't feel the same way, at least you'll know. If you don't go for it, you'll never know, which means you'll never get your chance."

With that, she patted him comfortingly on the arm and collected her books. "Think about it," she said as she left the library.

Remus stood up and ran his fingers through his hair. Right, I'm even more confused now.

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