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Feelings

Remus made his way to the dungeons for Potions, thinking over and over what Lily had said to him. The idea of being gay didn't exactly scare him – it just gave him another reason to stand out, which was not what he wanted. Also, of all of the boys at Hogwarts to have "feelings" for, it had to be Sirius Black of all people. The thought made him uneasy.

He thought of the options that Lily had proposed; either ignore the dream but risk having more, or speak to Sirius about it. Both thoughts made his stomach turn. He didn't want any more of those dreams. He'd rather deal with the reason he'd had it in the first place, and that meant speaking to Sirius.

What would Sirius say?

He wasn't sure how Sirius – or any of his friends for that matter – felt about gay people. What would they do to him if they found out? He was brought out of his thoughts with a clap on the shoulder. He turned around and rolled his eyes.

"What was that for?" he asked James, who was wearing a big grin.

"That was my way of saying good morning," he replied. "Since you never waited around for us!"

"Oh," Remus said. "Sorry. I was just asking Lily for some help on my homework," he lied.

"I see," James said, trying to act calm. "So, did she mention me?"

"No," Remus said. "Funnily enough, she doesn't talk about you very much."

"I wonder why?"

"Maybe because you're a stalker," Remus grinned, receiving a nudge in the ribs.

"Not fair," James said. "I'm not a stalker. I just love her, and I need her to realise that we're supposed to be together."

"Good luck with that," Remus said. "Seriously, good luck."

James rolled his eyes and smiled. "I know I'll convince her. Mark my words, me and Lily will get married one day."

Remus nodded, and decided not to say anything. They neared the classroom and stood outside with the rest of the class. Lily was already there, smiling at Remus, who wished more than anything that she would stop being so happy about his problem. It wasn't something to be happy about – it was a disaster.

"Come in, come in," Professor Slughorn said as he opened the door. "Partner up. We're doing love potions today which will require a lot of concentration and help from another person. Choose your partners wisely."

Remus groaned and stood alone at the side of the classroom while he waited for the last person to pick him. He never got picked as a partner, as he was terrible at potions. As expected, he was standing all alone while everybody else had a partner.

"Hmm, you can make a three with Black and Pettigrew when they turn up," Slughorn said off-handedly. "Page 122, get started!"

After a couple of minutes, the doors slammed open, Sirius and Peter tumbling into the room looking red-faced and out of breath.

Remus' heart fluttered at the sight of Sirius. You see him every day, stop acting like this, he told himself sternly, but he couldn't help thinking about his dream as he watched Sirius get up gracefully and run a hand through his hair with that winning smile of his...

"Why are you two late?" Professor Slughorn asked them.

"It was Peeves," Peter said. "He wouldn't let us through. He kept throwing pencils at us!"

"I highly doubt that," Slughorn said. "Ten points from Gryffindor!"

"But it was Peeves!" Sirius insisted, but the glint in his eyes told otherwise. Obviously Professor Slughorn could see through this, so chose to ignore him.

"Get to work! Black, Pettigrew, you're working with Mr. Lupin over here," Slughorn said.

Remus joined them quickly and tried to ignore the weird feelings he was getting when he looked at Sirius.

"So..." Remus said to them. "Where were you really?"

"You'll see later," Sirius said mischievously. "At dinner."

"Oh no," Remus said, rolling his eyes. "Let me guess. Something to do with the Slytherins – Snape in particular – and spiked juice. Right?"

Sirius and Peter stared wide-eyed at him.

"How'd you know?" Peter asked.

"It's pretty obvious," Remus said, pointing towards the potions book. "Page 122, you'd better get started."

Sirius flipped the book open and sighed. "Guess I'll be making this all by myself," he said. "No offence, you guys, but you'll probably blow it up or something."

Remus and Peter exchanged glances and stepped away from Sirius and the cauldron, just to be safe. Remus wished he could be as good as potions as James or Sirius. They did it with so much ease, they made it look so simple.

He watched as Sirius stirred the potion clockwise, then anti-clockwise, then clockwise. He tossed a few ingredients into the cauldron, and waited for a moment before bringing it to the boil and then stirring again. Remus watched as Sirius leaned over the desk to grab something – he wasn't sure what, as he was too busy staring at something else...

NO, Remus. He's your BEST FRIEND for Merlin's sake. Even if he does have a nice arse... I did not think that! I can't believe this. Oh god, he's looking at me. HE'S LOOKING AT ME! Merlin, Merlin, Merlin. His eyes... crap! What's happening to me?

"You okay, Moony?" Sirius asked him, breaking him out of his thoughts.

"Uh, yeah sure," Remus said. "Why?"

"You look a bit ill," Sirius said, looking at him with worry.

"I'm not ill," Remus said. Liar. You're sick, SICK! He's a guy! He's SIRIUS BLACK. No.

Sirius placed a hand on Remus' forehead, and Remus felt an excited fluttering in his stomach at the touch. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the feel of Sirius' hand against his skin, and then it was gone.

"Maybe you should go to the hospital wing, Rem?"

"No, I mean it. I'm fine," Remus said. "Look."

He headed towards the potion that Sirius had been brewing and Sirius pulled him back immediately. "No way!" he said. "I spent ages making that and I won't let you ruin it."

"I wasn't going to ruin it," Remus said defensively.

"You probably were," Peter said. "You usually ruin potions."

"Oh, shut up," Remus groaned, stepping back.

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"So who are you going to use your batch of love potion on?" Sirius asked Remus as they left the classroom with the small vials in their hands. Remus hadn't intended to even use his.

"Nobody," he said. "I don't like the idea of love potions."

"Why not? You could get anybody you wanted!"

"Maybe I don't want anybody," Remus said. "And when I do want someone, I won't use a love potion on hi- her."

Sirius shrugged. "I'm not using mine yet anyway. I'll save it for that special girl."

"Right," Remus said bitterly, feeling his stomach turn at the thought of Sirius kissing a girl.

"I'm using mine on Evans," James said, coming up behind them. "Just you wait. One drop and she'll be all over me."

"I don't think so, Potter," Lily said, grabbing his vial of love potion and throwing it against the wall so it smashed and its content spilled on the floor.

"Shame, Prongs," Sirius said, grinning.

"Can I use yours, Remus?" James whined.

"Not if you're going to use it on Lily, which I know you will," Remus said. James turned his attention to Sirius.

"Padfoot, you know I let you stay at my house..."

"Yes, I do."

"Well, let me use your love potion, please? You don't need a love potion anyway. All the girls want to date you. Why not give it to a friend in need?"

Sirius rolled his eyes and handed James the love potion. "Just so you know, mate. I don't think Evans will want to be with you even with a love potion. She hates you."

Peter sniggered, and received a glare from James.

"We'll see," James said, grinning down at the love potion in his hand. "I'm just going to find Evans. See you guys later."

With that, he ran down the corridor that Lily had gone down and disappeared from sight.

"He's mad," Peter said. "Seriously mad."

"Tell me about it," Sirius said. "So, the prank! Later when we-"

Remus tuned out of the conversation. Being with Sirius, watching him, talking to him, looking into his eyes – Remus wondered how on Earth he hadn't noticed his feelings before. He was mad about Sirius. Never, would he have thought he'd want to kiss his best friend, but that was all that seemed to be filling his mind and he couldn't get rid of the feeling.

He subtly glanced at Sirius. His lips looked so kissable and Remus had to force his eyes away after a moment, so nobody would notice.

"What do you think, Remus?" Peter asked him.

"Eh?"

"Were you even listening?" Sirius asked, raising his eyebrows.

"No. I mean, kinda. I don't know, sorry. I need to go."

"Where are you going?" Sirius asked.

"Upstairs," Remus said quickly.

"AH!" Sirius smirked. "I know why you're going upstairs."

"Why?" Remus asked, feeling slightly nervous. He wasn't planning on going upstairs – he was planning to have another talk with Lily. What could Sirius be thinking?

"Oh come on! Going upstairs in the middle of the day with a face as red as yours is right now," Sirius said in amusement. "Someone needs to cool off a bit."

"What?"

Sirius rolled his eyes. "Have a wank."

Remus flushed bright red and ran a hand through his hair. "No! I need to get on with some... arithmancy homework that I forgot about."

"Right..." Sirius said. "Of course you do. Just admit it – we all do it."

Remus tried not to picture Sirius running upstairs to the dormitory to "cool off" during the day. The thought alone was already turning him on.

"I'll just be going then..."

He walked off quickly, making sure that nobody was following him.

One thing was for sure – he no longer needed to talk to Lily. Sirius was right. He needed to "cool off", and straight away.

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