Omg I am so excited for some things to come. I think I'll hold off the big stuff for another chapter or two, but, who knows, some unplanned drama is always bound to happen. Again, though, another filler chapter. I'll just post it today, so, hey, flip you guys out with 2 chapters! Tomorrow, though, I have plans for some indefinite drama...so brace yourselves while I find all you guys and burn all possible weapons in your houses. Oh, and write the chapter. That too.
Kate scolded herself all through the next day.
I am such an idiot. I'm too close, I have to back away.
And that's exactly what she did. She refused to acknowledge Jack that whole day.
She had been successful, mostly. Maybe a glance here and there but she had all together avoided him. She couldn't tell if he was too but honestly, she didn't care.
Her grade in math class had dropped to a 90% since one of her tests had gone missing (probably courtesy to Jasmine who was a TA for the front office, where the etacher happened to grade all the tests in the teacher's lounge) so she needed an extra credit packet.
She hugged her textbook to her chest, staring intently at her feet.
Just one foot in front of the other, she told herself.
She suddenly stiffened as she walked.
That's when she heard him.
Well, not technically him, more like him and a bunch of fangirls surrounding him. He talked and flirted with them with a smile, which Kate highly admired. How he could pull a smile that fooled everyone (side for herself and now Hiccup) was unimaginable.
She walked faster, praying to God that he didn't see her.
Except for, that was impossible since she was the only other person in the hallway.
She tried to hide her face but with her hair pulled back in her bun she couldn't.
She heard him fade off, no doubt because he'd caught sight of her.
She walked even faster, her shoulder bag whacking against her side.
Kate looked up briefly, just for a second, and what she saw broke her heart.
None of the other fangirls noticed that Jack's smile had dropped, and that he was staring at Kate with a look of pure sadness. His eyes said it all.
It seemed like that half second eye contact lasted for hours. But Kate tore her eyes away, staring back at her black flats as they click clacked against the floor.
She was shutting him out again. She knew that he needed support right now, but she also knew that she could never be the one to give it.
"Hiccup, I think I'm going to explode." She announced at lunch, setting her things at the table.
"Why won't you just tell him?" He blurts out.
Kate stopped for a second, then continued on with placing her food down. "Tell him what?"
"I know your guy's history. He told me about...you."
"Really? What did he say?" She said, sitting down and sounding disinterested.
"Don't make me say it."
"Say what? I'm sorry, Hiccup, but, I think you are mistaken."
"I will."
Don't.
"Hiccup, what-"
"He told me about-"
She cut him off by rushing over and covering his mouth with her hand.
"Alright, fine. You promised you wouldn't say it out loud." She glared at him icily.
When she removed her hand, he looked away. "I did warn you."
Another glare.
"Fine. But why won't you tell him?"
She sighed. "It's not that simple, Hiccup."
"I don't understand you two."
"Me either."
"What makes things so complicated?"
She looked emptily at her lunch.
"I'm so broken, I'm not even worth attempting to fix. I wish he could see that, and leave me alone," she whispered.
Hiccup leaned back in his seat.
"You don't really mean that," he stated.
"What?" She eyed him.
"You. You don't really mean that. You are worth saving, Kate. Despite what you might think. But it's not me who can save you."
Before she could even open her mouth, everyone was let out for the afternoon classes.
She thought about what he said for the rest of the day.
But, being Kate, she completely dismissed the thought entirely when she thought too much about it.
When her free period came, she couldn't help but go to the practice rooms. She was glad to see that Jack had gone to the gym today.
She sat down, breathing in and out.
Why was everything so complicated?
It could be so much simpler if you didn't complicate things, yourself.
Well, they were. He still didn't know, and if that's the way that things had to be then that's the way that things had to be.
But she couldn't help it. She still wanted all those memories of him. But the memories of him would only bring back memories of...the incident. The question was; was she willing to risk Jack for a better future?
Yes. She was.
Her fingers began to sweep across the keys, playing a pretty tune. She hummed a little, but started to sing.
Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say
You always say more
It was too much to deal with Jack. That one night of Hiccup's date had been like old times, but it was gone now. Dead and gone. So she needed to suck it up and get over it.
I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe
Jack was just too confusing. One moment it seemed like he was the old Jack, and then he was someone she didn't even know. If only she could just take a step and realize that he wasn't the same Jack. He would never be the same Jack ever again.
So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
She couldn't let him in again. She mostly likely would again because she couldn't stop herself, but, for now at least, she needed to breathe without him. She would probably completely break if she let him in and she found out that he was just as broken. Jack had given her his all three years ago, and what had she done? She had left him. Without so much as a goodbye. He couldn't know then, he couldn't know now.
Under haunted skies I see you
Ooh
Where love is lost your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down whoa
It only seemed in the worst situations that she could really see him. Back from before, where love is lost, where she left him...he was probably still there. But he had moved on, she needed to, too. Oh, how hard she was trying to shut him out, but when she had said that shutting people out was hard, she meant it. No matter how hard Jack came bursting through her metaphorical doors, her castle wouldn't fall. She had built it too strong.
I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe
So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
Turning tables
Kate picked up the pace a little, trying desperately not to think about the truth behind the next set of lyrics.
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet
She paused the music for a second, letting the note ring out before continuing.
I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Once again, her vision blurred just slightly. Her tears didn't fall, forever caged in her eyes. She bit her lower lip as she finished the song.
Turning tables, yeah
Turning, oh
She gently lifted her hands. She could have sworn she felt them shaking.
She quickly hid her tears, taking out some worksheets and practicing some drills that Mr. Black had given her last week.
Jack went back to his practice room, grabbing his school bag that he had left there the other day, tearing himself away from the wall to Kate's practice room. He left then, realizing that she had pushed him out and had no intention of letting him back in.
I know, super short, I think my shortest chapter yet, but, (oh, never mind, it hit my 2,000 word minimum although I think that's because of the A/N's. Oh well) you got two in one day! I just wanna point something out. When "Elsa" is "talking" to Kate, she symbolizes all of you and your real life point of views. Also, Hiccup is another symbolism for all the reader confusion and seeing it from your guy's point of views.
And OH MY GOSH 200 REVIEWS I AM FREAKING OUT HERE! Alas, only have time for the longer ones with/or questions, sorry!
Rose: gee thanks. I feel so special :3 anyways, I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you... jk, but you it's one of those things where if I told you I'd give away the story
Snowman: um...I-you-I can't- urgh! Another one of those times where if I explain it to you I'd give the story away! *face palm* why do you have to ask such complicated questions?! Haha...keep track of things, yeah, that's what I do...hehe.
Shimmer Shine: well, when they do might not be for a while or I could just have Kate turn to him and say, 'hey I'm Elsa' happily ever after and then the story ends, but, that would be no fun for you guys, right?
shobbs10: oh my gosh, you are coming up with some great ideas (and if that's the first thing you've ever suggested then someone is) but I have plans for their much awaited first kiss *wink wink* and I don't think it will fail to disappoint. So, just hang in there!
x-pounce-x: aww, thank you! *blushes* and, personally I feel like they both are a little OOC but glad to know you like them.
TheMashedUpSisters: actually, I came across Plumb for a Jelsa video (and haha, just wanna point out that my computer just autocorrected Jelsa to be capitalized...I'm so obsessed) and I loved it and thought it was utterly perfect for this story. The song was a little down for Anna and originally, she was going to sing Say Your Name and Kate/Elsa was gonna sing I Want You Here but the lyrics were more fitting for Anna. And, what?! I love that song! It's Stay by Rihanna feat. Mikki Etto or something like that.
ATA: 1) HAHA YOU'RE STILL IN SCHOOL! ;P and 2) yeah, I have lots of time now *throws hands up in carefree way* and okk, I'm not putting the Big Revelation (as I'm calling it now) until later so not to fear! But I think I will add a little (big) drama soon...
Alright, Pearlness4700 out! Until tomorrow!