Hello again!
Ok, so today I've finally remember something very important. After forgetting time and time again, I've finally remembered to thank my reviewers! I'm so sorry I didn't get round to this sooner *guilty smile* Please don't hate me!

Hinagiku Zeelmart: Well the reason was because of his past. He blames himself for what happened with Ur and the fact the Lyon hates him as well makes him feel completely worthless. Oh, and thank you for your reviews! :)

KawaiiOdango: Tee hee! Glad you like it. Oh, and yes, there will indeed be a lemon later on! Although it will take a while for me to get there as I don't think now would be the right time. It'll most likely be towards the end of the fic.

IdiotMee: Thank you! Although I'm not sure if you actually liked it because of the question mark...

Kuro: I can't quite tell...I kinda feel as if you're making fun of me. But maybe it's all in my head? I dunno. Also, Gray is one of my favourite characters too so I don't know why I decided to write a story like this using his character. But I guess I just felt that he had more of a reason to than anyone else.

MartiaLae: I know I thanked you a little before when I reviewed your story but I just wanted to say thank you once again. Your review made me so happy :)

Silver: I'm glad you liked it! XD Thanks for the review.

Guest: Don't worry! I always update within 5 days of posting a chapter. I like to make my updates quick because I know how frustrating it can be when you're waiting for someone to update.

Fairytaillover416: Kyahh~! Thank you, thank you, thank you! This review actually made me cry, I'm so happy you liked it! It makes me smile to know that you think it's unique as I don't like writing generic fics.

IloveCeslestialIce: Oh! I'm so sorry I made you cry! I feel really bad now. Although I am glad to know that you still enjoyed the story. Oh, and don't worry, I don't think I'll be deleting it. People like you, who have gone out of their way to tell me not to have changed my mind :D Thanks :3

Herbert942: O/O ! Oh wow. After what you just said I realised what a complete idiot I am. I'm so sorry! I didn't even realise at the time...ah! I'm such an idiot. Sorry! But thank you so much for the review, it means a lot :)

FairyTailLover333: Hehe, yes they should have! But I think this makes it a bit more interesting, ne? Oh and sorry for the confusion, it's rated M for the chapters still to come. Thanks~!

IYRGirl: I know right! Lucy and Gray are just...perfect for each other. But you never know what could happen. This could lead to something good ;D

FallingStar93: It seems that way doesn't it? Well bad things can eventually lead to good things, ne? :P

Aha, sorry I made that part so long. If I hadn't put off replying to my reviewers this wouldn't have used up over 500 words. Sorry about that :P
Ok, I'll just get on with it now. Here you go guys, the sixth chapter~!

Chapter 6: Questions

Gray's POV

A nightmare. That was the only way to describe this day. A complete and utter nightmare.

Gray had known that this day was going to be bad but he wasn't expecting it to be this horrible!

He sighed, running a hand through his jet black hair. He'd only just gotten back from his appointment five minutes ago and had already taken up his post as he sat in the hospital bed once again with the covers drawn up to his waist.

He couldn't believe how utterly terrible this day had been. It was just so full of twists and surprises that he'd given up on trying to control the events that had unravelled in the course of today.

Firstly, there had been that awkward scene between him, Erza, Jellal and Mira.
The fact that Jellal and Mira had walked in on him as Erza kissed him was embarrassing enough. But then Lucy just had to be the one to open up the door for them, which meant that she saw the whole thing as well!

Damn. Why were things always so complicated?

It's because of you, Gray. You bring about pain and sorrow wherever you go. And it's all just because of your existence...

A nasty voice was echoing about his mind, causing him to cringe at the sudden truth.

Gray, in his own mind, thought that he was the cause of all his friends' problems.

Problems...

Suddenly Gray's mind travelled back in time, taking him to the unfamiliar room that was used by the psychiatrist.

"Tell me about your problems, Gray." The tall, tawny haired women had insisted.

That statement alone was ridiculous. She was basically telling him straight out that he was messed up.

What kind of psychiatrist does that? I mean...aren't they supposed to...well you know...help?

Gray rolled his eyes, forcing his breath upwards in an attempt to blow his dishevelled hair from his eyes.

"Look, lady, I don't have any problems. I'm just here because I'm being forced. I mean, it's not like I would choose to come see you. I'd much rather be at home, by myself without any people." Gray had frowned darkly at her ever cheerful face.

She was starting to get on his nerves. The way she always smiled constantly. He had the feeling that he could scream obsinities at her and she wouldn't even flinch.

That stupid smile would always remain plastered on her face.

"Why wouldn't you want to be around people?" She asked in an attempt to be professional and failing miserably.

"I dunno." Gray was going to keep his answers short. There was no way he'd let this stranger into his personal life.

Besides, she was clearly an idiot with no clue of how to do her job.

Gray had been to see many counsellors and psychiatrists back when he was living with his foster parents. And this was not how a professional did things. She wasn't doing her job very well at all!

Gray forced his way back to reality with a sigh. That psychiatrist really was an idiot. In the end she had just asked him some questions about how he felt about himself and even did a massive long test. All for the sake of passing time.

Or so he had thought.

As it turned out, that test, from what he could remember, had something to do with mental disorders.

So they're finally going to find out what the hell is wrong with you...

The voice in his mind whispered.

It was true. Tomorrow, when he got the results back, he would have some kind of clue as to what was wrong with him.

Although he really didn't want to know.

They'd probably put him on some kind of drug. Anti-depressants or whatever.

And Lucy, being his nurse, would have to make sure he had them every day until he was out of the hospital.

"Hey there...Gray." Lucy greeted quietly.

He jumped. He hadn't even heard the blonde come into the room, she had been so quiet.

"Oh hi Lucy." Gray smiled half-heartedly at the girl who didn't remember him.

He thought back to a few hours ago and remembered that he had told Erza about her after Jellal and Mira left.

There was something that she had said that allowed him to still have hope that, one day, Lucy would remember who he was.

"You know Gray, you never really forget someone. It just takes a while for their memories to return."

Gray had thought about his sentence all day. Was it possible? That maybe, just maybe...her memories could find their way back to her, that they could return?

He hoped so. That's all that he wished for.

That she could remember him. Remember all the fun times they had together. How they'd sat on the swings in Lucy's backyard, eating apple pie like they were in some cliché movie or something.

Gray had so many photos of those two years. Those two forgotten years...

Wait.

Photos?

Yes! Photos! Gray had a whole box of photos with just him and Lucy from when they used to live next door to each other.

He couldn't believe he hadn't thought of this before!

If he could just get Natsu or Erza to go into his room and bring that box to the hospital then he could show her the photos. Maybe then her memories would come back!

Gray smiled to himself as Lucy waved her hands in front of his face.

"Gray? Hello, Gray?! Anyone home?" Lucy tapped his cheek lightly and Gray snapped out of his trance.

"Huh? What?" He looked into the blondes chocolate brown eyes with a confused look in his eyes.

"You just zoned out for a bit. Are you ok?" Lucy asked, concern crossing her features.

"Oh I'm fine, honestly!" Gray flashed her a convincing smile and slowly, Lucy let the corners of her mouth drift upwards to grin warmly back at him.

He'd missed that smile. He had taken it for granted back when they were younger but now he treasured every single one. Every last dazzling smile that lit her face with sunshine.

It was truly a spectacular sight.

"Well then," her face dimmed as she touched his arm gently, "Let's get this over and done with."

Gray grimaced and the lovely moment was lost in a cloud of despair.

"Right..." was all he could manage as she began to unbandage his wounded arm.

She quickly and gently swapped his old bandages for fresh ones, all while trying to avoid actually looking at his arm.

The scars from his previous experiences seemed to be barely visible under all the redness that surrounded the deep, dark cuts.

There were so many slash marks intersecting across his arm that it was hard to tell where one ended and the other began.

Gray forced his eyes away from his marred flesh and cringed, knowing that Lucy found it quite unpleasant to look at.

He hated making her feel so uncomfortable.

He was just so sick of causing other people grief. He hated himself for it.

Ur, Lyon, Erza, Natsu, Mira, Lucy, Jellal, everyone...they all had to feel the after affects of his internal mental pain.

Even if he only meant to hurt himself, he always ended up hurting other along the way.

Ur was dead because of him.

Lyon hated him because of what he did to Ur.

Erza and Natsu were stressed out to their limit with all the worry he was causing them. And he also left a bloody mess in the bathroom for them to clean.

He had heard that poor Mira had passed out from shock after she had received the ambulance call from Natsu the other day.

Lucy now thought he was going out with Erza and she had to deal with his cut up skin every day.

And Jellal...well Jellal probably hated him after what he'd seen this morning. Especially since the blue haired boy had trusted Gray with the fact that he liked Erza.

So it was true.

All he ever did was cause pain for the people around him. There was never any joy or happiness when his friends were around him.

They were all sad and taking pity on him. They all constantly worried about him and whether he was ok. People would drive down from miles away, all just see him.

But Gray didn't want the attention. He didn't want people to feel sorry for him, especially since he didn't deserve their sympathy.

"Hey Gray..." Lucy spoke quietly as she stood beside Gray's bed with her hands behind her back, "I had this dream..."

Gray raised an eyebrow at the blonde, wondering exactly where she was heading with this.

"You see, in my dream...I'm with this boy. He has really dark hair, just like yours and we're always having fun together. We play childish games and run around a backyard together, always holding hands. Do you think...Possibly...?"

She didn't finish her question as Gray's eyes began to widen in bother surprise and happiness.

His head tilted so he could look deeply into her dark eyes, "Are you starting to remember?" He leaned forward, eagerly.

"I'm not sure. It seems familiar even though it could just be a dream. But Gray, I'm starting to think maybe its true...what you said. I'm sorry I thought you were...well...crazy. It's just that it seemed so unbelievable at the time. But now...after that dream, I think maybe I could be remembering those two years I couldn't remember..."

Gray's mood had shifted dramatically. His smile, for once, was completely genuine. It actually reached his eyes, lighting them up with excitement and joy.

Perhaps...Lucy's memories of him were finally coming to surface!

Lucy's POV

What was this? That smile? It was...amazing.

Lucy had never seen Gray smile in such a way. She now realised that up until now, Gray was always giving away fake smiles.

But this was a real smile that actually reached his eyes. One filled with pure happiness.

All because she had just a glimpse into those two forgotten years.

That smile was making her heart flutter nervously as her cheeks tainted the palest shade of red.

She turned her face away from his and sighed.

He's off limits now Lucy. Remember that. He's with that scarlet haired girl now so don't go falling for him!

But she couldn't help it.

The way he was smiling so excitedly at her...it made her want to lean forward just a little bit more. Until, just barely, their lips would brush against each other's so gently they could barely feel it.

No! Stop it Lucy! Don't go there!

She scolded herself internally as she quickly said her goodbyes and restrained herself from sprinting out of his room.

Just what the hell was she doing falling for a guy with a girlfriend?

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Well, well, well! Chapter 6 complete! But I feel terrible.
Putting these characters into such horrible, painful positions and making them feel lost and alone.
But bear with me. Everything will work out in the end, ne?
Anyways, thanks for getting this far into the story and please remember to read and review! Please, please, please! I just want to know if you guys actually like this story or if I should just delete it. I feel hopeless, don't judge me! D:
Thanks :3

LW / Wonder-chan :)