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Chapter 12: When it becomes official

Cana's POV

Finally. He knows.

It's out in the open, I've finally mustered up the courage and now Gray knows about how Lucy lost her memories. I'm glad.

But there's one last thing I have to say...

"Say...Gray...?" I kept my eyes on the road as I drove, still cautious about my driving even though it's been 4 years.

"Hmm?" Gray looked away from my still sleeping cousin and I could see him looking at me through the rear view mirror.

I gave a quick glance around the car, making sure that Lucy, Lisanna and Natsu were all asleep, "Are you and Lucy...together?"

"WHAT?!" His eyes went wide and he shuffled back in his seat as far as he could, panting and ever so slightly sweating.

His face was bright red from embarrassment.

Lucy's POV

"Ahh! Awesome!" I sighed happily, breathing in the salty air and smiling.

I looked out at the vast expanse of ocean, taking in the beautiful blue waves washing over the golden sand of the beach.

We had finally made it.

Here we were, in a small beach town, 6 whole hours away from Magnolia on a spur of the moment road trip that had only occurred because we were all still slightly feeling the effects of last nights alcohol.

Honestly, I'm just glad we made it here in one piece and without the cops stopping us for a breath test. I suppose we're really lucky considering the police cars are usually everywhere during this public holiday.

But never the less, we came here to have fun. It was like part two of our little celebration for Gray.

Gray...

Oh god, Gray. I still can't totally comprehend exactly what we did last night.

After being attracted to him for no more than a week and a half, we'd shared our first kiss in the midst of a drunken passion. Then not even five minutes later we were lying together in Laxus's bed doing things I've never done before.

I try to live my life without any regrets, and this was indeed a great experience in my life. But the fact that I lost my virginity the same night I had my first kiss whist drunk off my ass seems a little well... Thoughtless.

I don't want to regret it since it was Gray I lost it to, but I can barely remember what happened between us. My first time was meant to be special. It was meant to go exactly as I planned it. It was meant to be perfect.

But I guess that's something that I've learned taking care of him over these past two weeks. Things rarely go the way you planned them and there's really nothing you can do to stop it.

I just wish I could remember.

Remember what it was like to be so close to him, to feel his skin burn against mine. But most of all... Just to remember him in general.

I want to remember what it was like in middle school, living next door to him and being his best friend. I want to remember so badly it hurts.

But of course, none of it would be worth it if Gray doesn't stick around.

Now that he's out of the hospital, after this little road trip, I may never see him again. One thing I'd like to know is: Are we a couple?

I mean, we kissed...a lot. And we had sex. I don't think that really counts as being a couple.

We haven't been on dates, he hasn't officially asked me to be his girlfriend and I don't even know if he really likes me all that much.

But those words...

"Stay strong Lucy. I know you'll remember us one day. I believe in you.

I believe in us."

He didn't seem to notice that I was waking up when he kissed my cheek and whispered in my ear. He believes in me. In us.

But what does he mean by us? Us as a couple? Or us as friends?

I don't know how to ask him about it. It's not like I can just go up to him and be like, "Hey Gray! What's up? I was just wondering... Are we a couple or not?"

That'd be so damn stupid.

"Hey! Lu-chan!" Levy called, poking me in the arm to get my attention and dragging me away from my inner ramblings, "We're going to the hotel now, hurry up!"

My bluenette best friend grinned at me before skipping off to capture the arm of the spiky haired boyfriend, who blushed from the sudden contact but kept the rough looking smirk on his face all the same.

I, like the rest of my friends, pulled a small suitcase from the boot of Cana's car. Sliding the handle upwards into its full length so I could tow it behind me.

In total there were 19 of us. We had a pretty big group.

Erza, Jellal, Levy, Gajeel, Freed, Mirajane, Natsu, Lisanna, Elfman, Evergreen, Bickslow, Laxus, Cana, Juvia, Lyon, Sherry, Ren, Gray and I.

We had finally arrived at the hotel.

Whilst took a look around the lobby of the hotel, the girls all gathered together to discuss our sleeping arrangements.

"I wanna sleep in the same room as Gajeel." Levy chimed, smiling shyly with a heavy blush coating her cheeks.

"Nuh uh, no way. There's not gonna be any co-ed shit in the hotel. You wanna get down and dirty, you do it where the nice people of this hotel can't hear your screaming." Cana scolded and Levy backed down, retreating Gajeel's side and holding his hand gently whilst playing with his fingers.

"Well if that's how you feel about it Cana, then why don't we get one of those big rooms where they have a wall between two rooms and a door connecting them. This way, we can have a girl's side and a boys side and if we really need something from the guys or vice versa, we can use the door." Lisanna suggested.

"Yeah, that sounds good. Ok, it's settled!" Erza grinned before calling the boys over.

We told them our plan and as expected, there was a lot of protesting from the male side of our group. Boy's really do think with their dicks, I swear.

But a glare from our scarlet haired beauty was enough to shut them up once and for all as Mirajane and Juvia made their way over to the front desk to arrange our rooms.

Two minutes later they came back with huge smiles on their faces as they held up a large amount of room keys, handing one to each individual within the group.

The pair led the way up the stairs -since there were too many of us to take the elevator at once- and up to our rooms.

Mira bought us all into the boy's side first before opening the door separating the two rooms and ushering us inside.

Laxus, Lyon, Natsu, Jellal, Freed, Bickslow, Gajeel, Elfman, Ren and Gray were to stay in the boys side and not cross the border under any circumstances unless they had an extremely good reason.

Whereas Lisanna, Erza, Mira, Evergreen, Sherry, Levy, Juvia, Cana and I were supposed to stay on the girls side. But unlike the boys, we were allowed free reign between both rooms.

Taking a look around, the place actually wasn't so bad.

There were 10 identical single beds in the room, 5 on the right and 5 on the left. There was a little kitchen hidden behind the bedroom section, then a bathroom and then a laundry. The place was fairly small, but it would do. It wasn't like we were going to be here all that often anyway.

I smiled as the girls began to choose which bed they would sleep in and unpack their stuff.

Mira ran to the door separating the boys from the girls, shouting, "You boys unpack quickly. We're leaving for the beach in an hour and a half!"

Jellal appeared in the doorway, giving a wave at Erza before asking, "But why? We could easily get dressed and grab our beach stuff in 15 minutes. Why an hour and a half?"

"Because," Mira replied, "We need some girl time! We've all got heaps to talk about and I'm sure you boys could find something to do to entertain yourselves."

And with that, the blue eyed beauty turned on her heel, waves of white hair swirling around her shoulders.

"Ok girls, gather round!" She called and our the female side of our group formed a rough circle in the centre of the room, "We have a lot to discuss, ok? A whole lot of stuff went down last night and I gotta know the details!" Mirajane was grinning happily, eager for some gossip.

"What'd you mean, Mira?" Levy asked, cocking her head to the side, "What kind of details?"

"Oh, you know. All the details! Who hooked up with who!" Mira was getting real excited by this point.

"Ahh, I get it," Erza commented, "You're the same as ever Mira."

The oldest Strauss giggled girlishly and nodded.

"Well then, if that's how you wanna play it," Cana grinned evilly, "Why don't you go first then Mirajane?"

The white haired girl's face suddenly flushed red in embarrassment, "W-well... I-I-I..."

"C'mon Mira~" I encouraged, a sly smile playing on my lips, "If you want us to reveal our secrets, you gotta go first."

"Oh fine!" She huffed, her shoulders drooping as she sighed in defeat, "I-I-I hooked up with Freed."

"Tee hee," Lisanna giggled, "Saw that coming from a mile away Nee-chan. Did you's go all the way?"

"What? No!" Mira gushed, "Freed's too much of a gentleman and plus we'd only really just started off our relationship that day anyways. It wouldn't be very appropriate."

Hearing Mirajane say that made me swallow nervously. Isn't that exactly what Gray and I had done? Had sex the same day our 'relationship' started?

"Ok! Now I get to choose who goes next!" Mira smirked, waving her finger around in the air before it landed on Cana, "Tell me Miss Cana, what was it that was making you shriek so loudly with pleasure last night?"

Now it was time for Cana's face to turn bright red as she muttered the name of her lover, "L-L-Laxus..." She whispered, her words barely audible.

This little game of Mira's was kind of scaring me. I didn't want to tell everyone here that I'd slept with Gray. That'd just be weird!

But thankfully, I was saved by a knock on the door.

And who else could it be but Gray. Of course he'd show up now.

Just seeing his handsome face and raven hair made me smile happily.

"L-Lucy...Could I speak with you for a second?" He mumbled, digging his hands deep into his pockets and blushing ever so slightly.

The group of girls made 'ooh' sounds as I stood up and met him at the doorway, "Of course." I smiled up at him, letting him take my hand and lead me away from our hotel room until we were standing at the top of the stairs we'd climbed to get here.

"So what was it you wanted to talk about?" I asked, generally interested.

"Well... You see, it's more of a question actually." He cast his eyes down at his shoes, trying to hide the growing redness in his cheeks with his dark hair.

"Oh?" I cocked my head to the side.

"I was wondering..." He paused, lifted his head up and looked me right in the eyes, "Would you please be my girlfriend?!" He almost shouted the question as he stared intensely into my chocolate coloured orbs.

He was so cute like that. Biting his lower lip whilst his cheeks glowed red. His dark eyes were hopeful and scared.

I smiled, tucking a few stray strands of my blonde hair behind my ears, pausing for affect as I cast my eyes downwards before mumbling, "Of course."

Gray's POV

I did it. Lucy's officially my girlfriend. I should be the happiest guy in the world.

My heart is still pounding and my cheeks are still flushed, but I have this sinking feeling.

I feel... No, I know that somehow I'm going to find a way to screw this up. I'll end up doing something stupid and it'll all be over. The girl of my dreams will be gone.

I should have had the most amazing day. Lucy was now my girlfriend and I'd just spent the day at the beach with all my friends. But something was dragging me down.

I lay wide awake in my bed, the sheets pulled up to my chin, just thinking of ways I could screw up our newly formed relationship.

I simply couldn't sit still anymore.

I got up and made my way to the tiny kitchen to pour myself a glass of water.

I knew why these negative thoughts were popping up again.

After the party I'd forgotten something. Something very important.

My medication.

They'd had me on anti-depressants and anti-anxieties for over a week during my stay at the hospital. After that they gave me two yellow bottles full of medication. One for my depression, the other for my anxiety. I was supposed to take them twice a day. Once in the morning and then again at night.

And I'd forgotten to take them when I got back from the hospital. Then I'd forgotten them again in the morning when I woke up. And once again, I screwed up by forgetting to take them with me on this trip.

So I wouldn't have my meds for three whole days.

And the downward spiral had already begun. I was losing control.

On the kitchen bench was a knife block with five different knives in them.

Before I knew what was happening, before I could stop myself, I was reaching for the black coloured handle of the biggest knife in the block.

I drew it from its slot, letting the moonlight from the window shine down and reflect off the pretty silver of the blade.

This time I pulled up my boxer shorts to reveal the smooth, unmarred skin of my upper thigh. Here would be a lot safer than my arms. This way no one would see the damage.

Without even thinking about what could happen, I slid the sharp silver across my bare thigh, over and over till there were over 20 slash marks on just one leg.

I moved to my other leg, copying my actions from only moments ago.

It felt good.

After not being able to cut for what seemed like forever, it was pretty much a relief to be able to start again.

The open wounds on my now cut up legs. The blood trickling down my flesh. That sensation of release. These feelings had already resurfaced.

It was good to finally hurt myself in return for causing all my friends so much pain.

I know for a fact that Lyon and Juvia did not want to visit me at the hospital. They didn't want to come to m party or on this road trip. They don't want anything to do with me.

Because it's me, I'm stupid and worthless and a loser.

I was wallowing in self pity when a clear female voice echoed lightly through the depressing air of the kitchen.

"Gray?"

Ooh, who could it be? Which one? Hehe, gotta wait till chapter 13 to find out!
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LW / Wonder-chan