Title: The List
Author: GEM
Date: 10-5-14
Pairing: Fitz/Mellie, Olivia/Fitz
Rating: T
Summary: Their marriage is a now a business arrangement. Their marriage is just for show. There was a list of things that they didn't do. There is a list of things that they don't talk about. Mellitz, Olitz
Disclaimer: Scandal is Property of Shonda Rimes and ABC et al.
A/N: A little Season 4 Speculation. Please let me know what you think. Thank you to the you wonderful reviews. A thank you all to all the favs and follows Now here is the next chapter. I little trip down memory lane. I am not going for sympathetic Mellie just to clear the air for the guest reviews.
Chapter 3
One moment can change the direction of your life forever. One moment, for Mellie Grant, that one moment occurred one night Santa Barbara. Big Gerry changed the course of her life in the blink of an eye. She cried after it was over. She laid on the couch alone in the dull fire light and cried. Then she climbed the stairs in desperate need of a shower. She needed to wash away what she left as her husband beckoned her to came to bed. She gave in but never felt the same way in his arms again. She was tainted and dirty and she felt like she wanted to curl up and hide. While laying in his arms she fought the urge to burst into tears and much as she tried to fight off Big Gerry.
The next morning while sitting alone with her attacker she realized what needed to be done. She needed Big Gerry to appreciate his son. He needed him to believe in his son. She struck a deal. Tell him you believe in him and he'll run for Governor.
She gave her soul to the devil for Fitz's political career. They started pretending the night Big Gerry raped her and they never stopped.
She tried to kill herself because she couldn't deal with the idea of her son been her father-in-Law's child. She got the pills into the Governor's Mansion, she swallowed the pills and passed out into Oblivion before Andrew found her.
Andrew found her and saved her from herself. She was so mad at him. She just wanted it to end. He wouldn't allow that. She begged and pleated with him and he agree not to call an ambulance and take to a hospital. He stayed with her all night after he interrupted her attempted suicide. He talked to her like Fitz used to talk to her. He cared for her like Fitz used to care for her. She was angry with him because her way would have been easier but she did finally thank him for going along with her request. She knew he missed her company but she couldn't break apart her family because of Andrew's moment of weakness. She pressed on and retreated within herself. When Fitz asked what was wrong with her she explained that have a baby changed her. She was no longer a sexual person. It was a lie but it was the only way she could survive. Every time Mellie was with Fitz she would see his father. Every time Fitz touched her she would feel his father. Mellie tried to change. She loved Fitz but the idea of being intimate with him turned her stomach. The sad part of it was, he did nothing to deserve that kind of reaction. She was his wife but that part of her died the night Big Jerry forced himself on her.
One decision can change your life forever. It took a while for her to realize that her husband was in love with Olivia Pope. Mellie thought that the novelty of the idea would wear off once they made it to the White House. She had turned her husband away years ago but she never dreamed he would go looking somewhere else. He hadn't for years.
Olivia Pope became a cloud over their marriage or so she thought. She realized much later that Olivia was so much more. Olivia was the air Fitz breathed, the Water he drank and the food he ate. He could function without her. It was hell when she left. She would come back, then leave again and come back and it was the same song and dance every time. Olivia was finally the one who told Fitz the truth about Mellie.
Fitz always believe Mellie loved him for what he could give her. The Governor's Mansion, the White House and a stepping stone to her own political career. He never realized what was taken from her to reach those goals. He believed her to be a vindictive monster but Olivia set him straight. Big Gerry raped her." It's a lie." was his first reaction.
"I don't think so. Think about who Big Gerry was." Fitz thought and his face fell. He had asked Mellie two weeks ago what she lost. She hesitated but never answered. He was mad about Andrew but it all made sense now. He walked out of the Oval Office and up to the Residence.
When he entered the room she looked at him and turned her attention back to the drink. "What?" She asked caring much more about the drink that the sad, devastated look on his face. "You know."
"I know." Fitz said
"Olivia Pope can't do anything right." Fitz walked over to Mellie and took the glass from her hand. He placed on the table and bent down and kissed her on the top of the head. He sat down a drew her into his arms. "I took a paternity test. Gerry is your son, not his."
"I don't care." Fitz held her closer.
"I fought him. I fought." Mellie cried as Fitz pulled her closer and calmed her. When she finally calmed down she looked up at Fitz. "I'm not ready to talk about this. Do we have to talk about this. You know that it wasn't you. You didn't push me away. You didn't do anything. Olivia would never have happened if I had paid attention to you."
"Olivia is not up for discussion. You are. We are. Andrew Nichols is up for discussion."
"I don't want to talk about it Fitz. I don't want to talk about us. If Olivia is not up for discussion than Andrew isn't either. I lived through this. I don't want to talk about it. You don't want to hear how your father forced himself on me. You don't want to talk about this. I don't want to talk about this. I'm putting it on the list. My rape...Mellie's rape, is going on the list." It did go on the list but time will tell if it is a good place for it to be.