A/N: Sorry if it seemed I was never going to update again but my focus is on my other story and life as been getting in the way in updating that one which made it impossible to update this one. I can't say when I will update next but I'm aiming for either this Friday or next Friday. For now enjoy!
Warning: There is verbal bullying (Gay-bashing).
I could hardly sleep after Daniel left. I mean it not like he asked me on a date or anything but the butterflies in my stomach just won't stop. Which made me wonder. 'Do I want to go on a date with Daniel? I mean why not. There is nothing wrong with being attracted to the same sex and this is a free country and he is so handsome and nice but there is no way he would want to date a loser like me.' With that depressive idea implanted in my head I stayed in bed til about 11AM tossing and turning. Pretending to be asleep until my stomach growled and I just stopped acting as if I was spent the morning sleeping soundly.
I ate breakfast and as the hours crept to five my previous depressive idea was shoved to the back of my mind. I spent the next hours showering, picking out an outfit, priming, finding out about football stats and trying to calm down. I was staring at the clock when at 4:52 pm the door rang and I ran to the door then stopped and breathed in and out to calm myself before finally opening the door. But it wasn't Daniel it was Eddy in toll with Ed.
"Hey Sock-head." Said Eddy entering my house followed by Ed who greeted me as well. 'Oh, no what are they doing here? In 8 minutes Daniel is going to be here and...'
"Salutation gentlemen. What do you need?" Edd said urgently.
"Nothing just came to chill. Why are you all dressed up?" Eddy answered.
"You think I am too dress up. Wait, no. You don't ever come over to hang out on Saturdays anymore. Why, today?"
"Well Lumpy here felt bad that you didn't seem to be having any fun at the party and we haven't hang out in awhile so I thought you may be up for it. What too busy studying to hangout with you friends?"
"No it not that." I responded looking at the clock that read 4:55PM. "Its just that..."
"Why do you keep looking at the clock? your going on a date or something?"
I couldn't help the nature reaction and started lightly blushing and stood silently for a minute before I could finally say something. "No."
But I took too long and Ed and Eddy look gleefully at each other and started dancing and singing. " Edd's got a date. Edd's got a date."
Ed continued singing and dancing but Eddy turned to me and asked. "So, who is she? Is she from the party?"
"No, I am not going on a date or anything." I protested in vain. The singing and dancing continued as I started to blush harder. 'All I wanted is for them to leave before Daniel arrived. I don't want him to hear them saying it a date and I don't want them to see him.' Frustrated and angry I shouted at them. "STOP TEASING ME! JUST GO AWAY I DON'T WANT YOU GUYS TO BE HERE!"
Both of them looked at me shock and I quickly regretted yelling at them. "Sheesh, you didn't need to yell like that. Lets go Lumpy." Eddy remarked heading out the door.
"I'm sor-" but before I could finish Eddy opened the door and standing behind it was Daniel. "Did I come at a bad time?" He asked.
"Yea, you did Edd is on a date and needs us all to disappear. Who knows? We may embarrass him or something." Eddy said passing Daniel and heading to his house followed by Ed.
"Wait, Eddy." I yelped but he didn't look back. Now I just stood there embarrassed and stupid. Daniel broke the silence. "If you want we could do this another day."
"No, I'm sorry. If you still want to hang out with me then I still want to hang out with you."
He placed one of his hand on my shoulder and I looked up to him and he smiled. "Of course I want to. If your ready then lets go." Where he touched felt hot and my stomach filled with butterflies.
Soon we were in his car driving I don't know where. He wanted it to be a surprise the drive was filled mostly by me talking. Daniel never asked about what happen with Eddy and Ed. All he commented on was my outfit which he said he liked. After a long drive we finally he parked on the side of the street and we both got out of the car.
"So are you finally going to tell me why you brought me to downtown?" I asked Daniel.
"Double D, your acting as impatient as Eddy. Just wait a little longer. We are almost there. Come on." Smiled Daniel walking down the sidewalk.
I couldn't help but be impatient as we walked. I want know what was up this felt more and more like a date then just two guys hanging out. I was so distracted by this thought I didn't notice Daniel stopped until he grabbed my arm and said "Hey where are you going? Its over here."
I looked around to realize we were at the Natural History Museum. "What are we doing here? The museum is closed by now."
"Not today. Its their monthly late time opening. There is also temporary exhibitions, performances by up-and-coming musicians throughout the evening and there is even a few pop-up restaurants if you get hungry later."
"Really? Wow I didn't know about this. It sound cool."
"That's understandable you been busy. Anyway why don't we go in already."
This became the first of many outing with Daniel, just the two of us. They almost felt more like dates then hanging out and more often than not Daniel paid despite my though we always did things I like to do or am interested in for example we went to see insects at the botanical gardens, visited the giant public library in downtown, went on historical tours and so on.
When Christmas came along he gave me a a rare beetle he caught for me during his vacation. It made me giddy that he thought so much about me that he took the trouble to try to catch something nearly impossible during his vacation time even though he didn't need to bother. Nothing really eventful happened and new year came and went.
Spring was upon us and I couldn't help but be upset. I wanted to do something Daniel liked to do not what I liked to do. Valentine's Day was fast approaching and I wanted to hang out with him that day. Not to imply anything but if he accepted then that means there was no girl who caught his fancy and if there was then I guess I would have no choice but to stand aside. Although I rather not dwell to much on it. But before I got the chance to plan anything Eddy told me that they all had been invited to Valentine's Day Party. 'I hate parties.' I wasn't invited but Eddy said I could be his plus one. I wanted to reject but I started thinking that maybe Daniel liked parties. He always went to them and there was never a dull moment with him. He would dance, joke and listen to others attentively. 'I want to hang out with Daniel and do things he wants to do. This mean sometimes doing things I don't like. But its worth it if it brings me closer to him.'
With this resolve I accepted Eddy's invitation. Daniel mention being invited and I immediately told him that so was I and looked forward to meeting him there. He looked at me rather surprise but it quick fainted behind a smirk.
The party was just I like imagined it to be boring. Well at least it was to me. Its hard to not get bored when the only person that is welling to put up with you is being chatted up by a bunch of desperate clingy lonely attractive single teenagers. But who am I to judge I'm pretty much at. Unlike them I do get to spend lots of alone time with him but because I am not like them he will never like me the way I have come to like him. I sigh hopelessly and slip away.
I walk out to the back and find a field of couples spread out near the backyard's pool as well as in it. Some cuddling, some kissing, some drunk and some doing things that are too indecent for me too even think out loud.
It made me feel uncomfortable I spun around with intent to enter back in the house maybe find Ed or Eddy and hang out with them. When I came face to face with the curvy blonde girl from the party after the first football game.
"Didn't think I would see you again, doll." she smirked
She was pretty and had curvy in all the right place. She was wearing a red strapless dress that had a plunged neckline not to mention the dress came down only half way down her thighs. The dress barely covered anything and it made me blush and unable to say anything to her.
Her two friends that were on either side of her chorused. "Aww. His shy." They all chortled and whispered to each other. I stood there shuffling my feet until the blonde girl grabbed one of my left arm and the other two went for my right one. "Doll, why don't you stay with us for a bit?" The blonde girl demanded with smirk pressing her chest onto my arm. While the other two made puppy eyes and pressed their boobs together to make them appear bigger.
I blushed and tried to muster a responds but they dragged me to a bench by the pool, shooed away a couple and sat me down with them before I could say anything.
The complimented everything about me from my outfit to the gap in my front teeth and the blonde one even begged me to tell some of my jokes saying that her two friends would die if they hear them. 'Die? Perhaps of boredom.' Even so I told my jokes and they all laughed hardily. Then the blonde girl asked.
"You and Daniel. Are good friends, aren't you doll-face?"
"Um...yeah I suppose so." I answered shyly.
"Then you would know if he has anyone special." 'Anyone special?'
"I...I don't know. I don't think so." 'But I don't know, do I? He could.'
"Mmmm. I see. So what's his type?"
"Umm...I...I don't know we don't really talk about that."
The blond girl was unimpressed by my answers and getting impatient with me. "Okay, then what do you guys usually talk about?" 'What do we usually talk about? Looking back now I realize that usually I do most of the talking in all our conversation he normally asks me a few questions and I just go off talking.'
"Well...um usually he just listens to me talk about...um anything I fancy."
The brunette girl immediately to my right hissed. "Yeah, right! Why the hell won't you tell us anything?"
I just looked at her shocked unable to form any words. The red-head girl next to her turned to the blonde girl. "Why the hell did you think he would help us? He probably is just chasing around poor Daniel and not really his friend."
Before the blond could answer I argued. "I do not! He is too my friend. In fact if anyone is chasing anyone it him chasing me!" 'What the hell did I just say?'
After my strong declaration the girls let go of my arms. The brunette next to me maintained. "Your about as interesting as a blade of grass. Chase you, please. If anything he is trying to run away from you."
The red head next to her added. "Just because he is nice to you doesn't mean his your friend. He is probably just trying to get something out of you just like we were. Because none of us would have looked at you if it didn't seem that you were friends with Daniel. But a loser like you could never be friends with someone like Daniel."
I was shaking by now a part of me felt like they were right and all I wanted to do was leave. I stood up but the blonde girl blocked my way. She smirked." Girls, girls. Don't be so mean. I think I know why doll face here doesn't want to cooperate with us. You like him don't you?"
My faced dropped I tired to escape but they blocked me again cackling loudly and drawing unwanted attention.
"Oh, please. Do you really think you have a chance with him?" the brunette jerked.
The red head didn't wait for me to reply and interjected. "The only reason he would hang out with the likes of you is because of pity. You could never be his friend let alone his boyfriend. Disgusting!"
"Oh, my dear sweet doll face why would he pick you when he could have any of us? I think its best if you go on back to whatever hole you crawled from." The blonde sneered.
My eyes were becoming watery and I couldn't move. I wanted to but I couldn't.
"Whats the matter? You gonna say something to us." Snarled the red head.
I looked at my feet and sniffed. "Yo-your...wron-" Before I could even finish they were all up on me making me step back. All bellowing at the same time different nasty comments.
"Your nothing but a charity case." (Brunette.)
"You won't drag Daniel down with your sinful ways." (Red-Head)
"Faggat!" (Brunette)
"AIDS Kills Fags Dead!" (Red-Head)
"Your nothing but a loser, doll."(Blonde)
"God made Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve."(Red-Head)
"Your sick piece of shit." (Brunette.)
"Your an abomination to God."(Red-Head)
"You don't belong here or anywhere really, sweet cheeks."(Blonde)
"Ewww! He touched us what if we get his gay disease?"(Red-Head)
"Why don't you just do us a favor and kill yourself." (Brunette)
With each statement I took a slight step back as if each sentence was a punch to the face and stomach. I didn't want to cry in front of them but I was doing a less than stellar job in holding back the tears. My eyes were sting and I tired to blink away the urge to cry but I was fighting a uphill battle.
The blonde girl put her hands up to shush the other two and they felt silence. She stepped closer to me and I coiled back in fear like a loser. She brought her lips to my ear and sneered.
"You poor, poor thing I feel so sorry for you. No matter how hard you try or how long you wait he will never like you. Your are nothing but a lonely-ugly-broken-little-pathetic doll. And now-"
The next thing I knew I was in the water and as I surfaced I heard her finish her sentence. "your all wet!"
The brunette commented."He looks like a drowning mutt."
And the red-head wasn't far behind with at comment of her own. "There is not enough chlorine in that pool to wash away that filth."
I looked around and I could see some people laughing loudly others whispering to each other but I couldn't hear anything. It was as if I went completely numb. In a flash Daniel was there making his way between the three girls and reach his arm out to me but I didn't take it I just stared at him with hurt eyes. Guessing I wasn't going to take his hand he grabbed me and helped me out of the pool. He covered me in his letter-man jacket and said a few words to the girls and we walked out the backyard directly to the front yard.
I felt cold and shivered like crazy. That was the only thing I noticed until a stream of "Double D" pulled me out of my numbness. I was at home in the bathroom and Ed was trying to get me out of my wet clothes and into the warm bath he had drawn. After the bath Eddy had make me some tea and they left after telling me to go get some rest.
I didn't. I put Daniel's jacket in the dryer on low and relived the horrors of the night. The truth is that I am gay. I tired to be like everyone else and be straight but I'm not. Once I even had a crush on Kevin...I could just imagined how that would have turned out. Probably with me in a full body cast and no teeth. The gay guy with a crush on his bully. That would have flied nicely.
Bully. Bulling. Yea, it has always happen. However, never has it been because of my sexual orientation. I know those girls are nothing but Bigots but part of me can't help but agree with them on some points. I am pathetic and lonely and sick and nothing more than an abomination that could never deserve someone like Daniel. I mean just look at me not only I'm I ugly but a guy. No luscious curves. No soft hands or big breast.
'Beep Beep' The dryer was finish. I took out the jacket and smelled it still had trace of Daniel on it. I put it on and went upstairs. I laid on my bed trying not to think about what happen. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Did the guys hear what they said? Did Daniel? Does he know? Is that why he just dropped us off at my place and left? Soon tears are free falling from my eyes. Now he won't want anything to do with me. Will the guys still want to be friends with me? The gay. Why? Why did this happen? I shouldn't have gone to that party. Why did I go? 'For Daniel.' Why do I have to like him? Everything is ruin. I hug my knees tightly and eventually fall asleep.