If I told you that I go to the school where Mr. Holland's Opus was filmed 17 years ago, would you believe me?
(It's my all time favorite movie. I say that seriously and not like teenage girls "oMg have you seen (insert romcom flick here)?! IT'S MY ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIE."
It is a great movie. I love it so much.)
ANYWAY. I read back through this story and realized that I'm so OOC it makes me want to cry. Neither Karkat NOR Dave would actually think about Terezi in such a sexual way and only that way. Sure, they have the occasional dirty thought; because adolescent boys, human or not, will always have some sort of thought run through their head about a girl they like; but their reactions were totally wrong. Dave would have shrugged it off, after maybe dwelling a little. And Karkat, well... he would most likely flip out on himself (AUGH WHY THE FUCK ARE THESE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD), calm down, and then blush madly as he silently agrees with himself. I was portraying them as sex mongers, and much more "mature" than they actually are supposed to be in this timeframe. My profound apologies, and I will try to revise this with grace, but no guarantees.
Also the update was so adorable. Just... "SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY BEAUTIFUL." made me cry. Not like snot everywhere mascara=alice cooper type deal, but a sincere cry. I ship these two so hard it's not healthy, and yet I still have hope even though Dave3Terezi is now canon.
Dave3Terezi is now canon. That took me by surprise. I was thinking that KarTezDave was one of those ships that could never be determined because it would start a shipping war, but I guess I just ship it so hard that I thought everyone else did too.
A note for those expressing concern over various aspects of things included in last updates AN:
It was a mild "accident", but I didn't get the drivers info. He drove away before I even got to the sidewalk. It was nothing major, I was just limping for a few days.
I might take more breaks, but things are settling down now. I got my schedule revised, and I'm learning my way around. Hopefully that means more updates in the near future, but I also see things getting crazy as my band prepares for the coming year. I will try to write, I promise.
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God I really want to tell you how this ends, or at least how I have it planned to end.
Hint: It will tie into the update slightly.
-z/S
P.S. It's a new record. This AN is 2438 characters long.
Karkat Vantas.
She had fallen asleep again. That was something you had noticed lately, is that when she got really emotional, her body seemed to react by shutting down. It was a little confusing at times, when she was yelling at you, she would just start yawning.
You had always noticed little things about her, like when she was embarrassed, she chewed on her lip. Or when she was thinking about something personal, her eyes would widen. Or when something was wrong that she didn't want to talk about, she would wear her dragon cosplay hood down, covering her face. Or how adorable her voice sounds when she's whispering, and how you can tell that she's lying by the little glint in her eyes...
Now that you think about it, you know Terezi better than anyone else. The only other person you could think of that would pay that close attention would be Dave... but he's out of the picture now, or at least for a little bit.
She's yours, at least for now. You should talk to her about what happened, but you know she needs her sleep.
Your spine is starting to cramp, and she's starting to fall off of you anyway, so you lay her down on the pillows. She's still clinging to those scalemates, or scalemate, for the Terezi one had fallen off the bed.
She was so adorable, clinging to a tiny dragon you in her sleep. A faint blush had spread to her cheeks, and her tears had dried. Her glasses were askew, and probably pretty uncomfortable, so you reach over and carefully take them off her face. Her hair falls in her eyes. You're dying to brush it out of the way.
Scratch that, not adorable.
Beautiful.
It was the first time you had thought about her that way in months. Not sexy, beautiful. Innocent, or as innocent as she could be. Your head gradually leans to one side, watching her. She's a graceful sleeper, barely moving. She does mumble, but it's intelligible anyway. You carefully stand up, preparing for sleep.
You haven't slept well in months. It was always the horrorterrors. They would come at you, rearing their ugly tentacles and preparing to feast on you and possibly what was left of your friends, you always wake up trembling and sometimes screaming. You take off your shirt, for you had grown accustomed to sleeping in the (or nearly) nude. You grab a pair of pajama pants and change into them, thinking it would be pretty awkward to wake up next to your trembling, naked matesprit. You climb into bed, wrapping your arms around Terezi's waist. She's facing you, breathing softly into your neck. One arm unwraps from the tiny dragon and rests on your chest. A faint blush crawls up into your face, but you snuggle closer, trying to be slightly intimate but keep a modest distance. It's hard to do. You eventually doze off to the sound of her breath.
It has 12 eyes of fire. A mouth, no, a trap of fangs gnashing fiercely, spewing cherry red slobber all over everything. It whispers to you. "karkat... what if I were the thing you held dearest... what would you do... would you cull me, karkat? would you MURDER ME. IF I LOVED YOU FOR THE MUTANT FREAK YOU ARE, YOU WOULD CULL ME BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I AM.
I AM THIS, KARKAT. YOU SICK FUCKER, LOVING ME LIKE THIS, I'M A FREAK LIKE YOU.
WeBElOnGtOgeTHeR
OPEN THE DOOR LIKE THE FUCKING ABERRATION YOU ARE
KilLyOuRsElF
dude open the door I know you're in there I can fucking hear you
You awaken with a twitch. There's a pounding on the door.
"Yo asshole open up. You're being difficult as all fucking hell."
You roll out of bed, hitting the floor with a thud and a moan. The image of the horrible monster is fresh in your mind. Your face is burning and your breathing is heavy. Standing up, you open the door.
Great, it's Sir Shadesalot. He looks at you, and then past you to look at the sleeping figure in your bed. His face flushes.
"Well shit, you could have just told me you were busy. I just needed to talk to you, nothing important. Didn't need to fucking stop, well... fucking. God damn."
You turn bright red. "I just fucking woke up from a horrorterror, you ignorant chutehole! The only reason she's in my bed is because she was fucking crying in my bed when I walked in! Now get your head out of your ass and start talking or I swear to fucking god I'll-"
You hear shifting behind you, and quickly step out of the room and close the door. No reason to wake her up because humans are perverted shitholes.
"I was just going to tell you that I need to talk to Terezi for a little, but I'll have to wait anyway seeing as how she's asleep... just tell her that I want to talk to her when she wakes up, alright?"
You narrow your eyes. You don't exactly trust him, but it's the least you can do.
"Fine."
"Good. See ya around." He takes his leave, hands in his overly douchey pockets. You go back into your respiteblock, and crawl back into bed. She's still sleeping peacefully. Smiling, you reach up and brush the hair out of her face, and lean forward to kiss her forehead. A tiny smile plays upon her lips at that. You snuggle back down into the pillows, getting as close to her as you can. Closing your eyes, you listen to her steady breathing and match it to your own, before you slowly drift back into a deep sleep.