Author's Note: Hey guys! Not too much going on in this chapter. But there's some family interaction here and a little fluff. I seem to be incredibly good at writing fluff so…it somehow makes its way into each chapter. Anyways, I hope you enjoy the chapter and remember to review.

True Rayanne Adaire

Chapter Twelve

Dean

The next morning, Cas and I woke to the sound of someone knocking on the door. Yawning, Cas called out for them to come in and sat up. I sat up beside him, not at all happy with being woken up at six in the morning on a summer day. Sam, Gabe, and Lucifer walked in and sat down, giving us identical eye rolls when we glared at them.

"Why are you in our room at six in the morning? Some people do sleep you know." Cas demanded, glaring as Lucifer laughed.

Sam nodded, leaning heavily against Gabe's side. "We're wondering the same thing. Luci dragged us out of bed and in here."

Lucifer smirked, rolling his eyes at us. "We're going to talk about what happened. And we're going to decide what to do about it because obviously we can't leave it up to anyone official to protect us."

Cas yawned, throwing himself back against the bed. "And we couldn't have done this later? You know, when it's actually acceptable to be awake."

"No. Because I'm awake now. I may be sleeping later."

Gabe looked like he wanted to throw something. Instead, he wrapped an arm around Sam and rested his cheek against the top of his head.

"Can we just get it on with? I'm exhausted. Sam couldn't sleep last night which meant I couldn't either. I'd like to sleep a little." Gabe demanded, glaring at Lucifer.

"All right. First off, we've gotta talk about the fact that both John Winchester and Balthazar are lurking about. Which means everyone in this room is in danger. And by danger I mean if we're found we're fucked. We've all seen what John's capable of but Sam and Dean have no idea what Balthazar is capable of."

I gulped, looking around. "Actually, I sort of haven't told you everything about John. There's more you guys should know about him…" I said, sharing a meaningful look with Cas.

"Dean, are you sure you want to tell them? You barely got through telling me." Cas said, putting a hand on my arm.

I nodded. "Yeah, they need to know. Besides, I have you here. I'll get through it."

"Okay."

Lucifer glanced between us. "What do you mean?"

Cas tightened his arms around my waist. "John…he's schizophrenic. Thinks he sees demons and…other fictional bullshit everywhere. That part you know. You know he beat the shit out of me. That he kidnapped me. What no one…besides Cas…knows is what really happened during that year he had me." I paused, looking into Cas' blue eyes before I could continue. "I was only eight years old. Terrified. He…he forced me to kill people. A lot of them. Said he'd kill me if I didn't. And he would have. He'd have killed me in a heartbeat. John's capable of murder. Flat out murder."

Sam's eyes were wide. "You…you said you didn't remember anything." He whispered.

"I didn't want to tell anyone. I only told Cas when the nightmares started up again and it got to be too much for me to handle on my own. You can't tell anyone else. That information doesn't leave this room. As far as the police go, John committed those murders."

Everyone shook their heads, agreeing that they weren't going to tell anyone. It was a long few minutes before Lucifer spoke again, his voice slightly hesitant.

"Now that we know that, you guys need to know what Balthazar is like. What he's capable of. I'll tell you what I know but Gabe and Cas will eventually have to take over. I…Balthazar was afraid of me. He wouldn't do much to me. No matter how hard I tried to keep him away from them."

Cas nodded, leaning against me heavily. This was hard for him. Balthazar was still a touchy subject for him. He still had nightmares nearly every night about his older brother and I wasn't sure I wanted him to have to go through it all again but I knew he'd insist on doing it.

"Maybe we shouldn't do this." Sam said, giving Gabe a small glance. Gabe was white-faced, shaking, and honestly looked as though he was going to be sick.

"Me too. I…Cas still has nightmares. I don't want him to have to go through that again. Besides, I've heard everything Cas has to say about Balthazar."

Sam nods, flashing me a grateful smile. "So have I. Gabe and I talked about it. Balthazar is dangerous. We get that."

Lucifer frowns, looking uncertainly between his two brothers. I can see it then, how close they are. It's hard to tell sometimes because they're so different, but at times like this it's obvious. They're triplets, closer than even Sam and I, and the look Lucifer gives each of them is enough to make me smile. He'd die for them. It's obvious by the look on his face that he would die to protect them. I look around at each of them and a warmth settles in my stomach as I realize that I'd do the same. I'd die for them as well. All of them.