Chapter 3
I have found peace in being alone. I have also found profound happiness while with another. Your grandmother is right, but she is also wrong. We are all made with the need to connect with others. We all have a desire to find another person to spend our lives with…to share all we are with. It is understandable that you sought this. If you jumped too soon it is nothing that we have all not done. Taking a chance on love is something you should never regret. Look at the good that came of it.
Your talent of reading another's mind is a part of you. It is unfortunate, but it is reality that if you choose a relationship with a person whom you can read their minds that it will be inevitable that you will hear their thoughts. Perhaps it would be in your best interest to seek those whom you cannot read, but we cannot help who we fall in love with.
I feel as if you know me better than anyone else, and you know that what I am about to say is meant with the best of intentions. You're a strong woman, a devoted mother, and I know a loyal and amazing friend, but you need to stop seeking love and let it come to you. That is what I believe your grandmother meant. Love and being in love is amazing, but it is not the only worthwhile thing in this world. Look to your daughter and the love you share when next you feel depressed. See the truly amazing gift that has been given you when you look at her.
As you know I lost my wife and children long ago, and there is not a day that passes that I do not miss them. To see my daughter smile up at me or to hold my son's tiny little hand in mine again is a bliss I will never again experience. Though I loved my wife as you loved your husband it is our relationships with our children that truly define us. Love between two individuals is a miracle, but often love is not equal and sometimes sadly it fades. The love between a parent and a child though will remain forever.
I do believe in a love that last forever between two people. This sadly does not happen often and can be taken from us without warning so we must enjoy it while we have it and count the blessing we do have.
I am happy that you are starting to see you can be happy again for no one else I know deserves happiness as much as you. I urge you to grab onto whatever happiness can be found in this life for life is often short.
It pains me but I will be unavailable for the next few nights as work has me committed to a project I cannot get out of. You will never know how much our nightly conversations mean to me. Just thinking of our conversations puts a smile on my face. You have given my life meaning once again and I must thank you for that dear friend.
As soon as I am able I will reconnect with you. Be safe and happy…always.
Bill tapped the send button ending the conversation for dawn was quickly approaching. Usually Sookie and he would talk back and forth for hours, but with this latest project One Hope had him committed to he had not be getting home until really late cutting his time with Sookie to almost nothing. This would have to change since he found he could not tolerate less time with Sookie in any way. He had apologized to Sookie often these last few days for his not being as available as before and she had said not to worry, but he did worry. Sookie was going through a rough time and he planned on being there for her as much as he could.
Sighing, for he felt something big was about to happen in his life and soon, Bill pushed the commands on his control unit located by his bed effectively locking up his apartment. Settling down on his very comfortable bed Bill fought the disappointment he felt as his heart ached for Sookie to be there right beside him and for him knowing it was not possible.