Chapter 4

"You saw them in the layer tonight. Despicable, vicious, petty vile creatures."

"You're different. You're not like them Bill…you're not. You have a heart whether it beats or not. You can love. There wasn't one other vampire there that could say the same."

"Let's slip away back to Bon Temps right now. Let them devour each other and leave us alone."

"You know we can't do that. Stan is nutty as a fruit cake and I gave my word to Eric."

"If anything happens to you in that church I…"

"Don't say it. Don't even think it. I'll be in and out. Easy peesy."

"It's been a long night. Don't feel like you have to."

"Quit talking crazy."

"I just meant that I would be satisfied to simply hold you."

"Well I would not be satisfied. Not one bit."

"Then what do you want Sookie? Say it."

"I want you. Every which way. I just want you."

The kisses and love making that followed made the dreaming Sookie moan. Even dreaming of a moment in her past with Bill could arouse her beyond bearing. Never wanting to wake up she focused tightly on to the memory draining every last detail from her mind. Slowly the dream faded and she laid there just remembering.

Bill had been gone now for almost nine years and at first she had retreated from the world to recover from the hurt and betrayal, but after a few years she became active again regaining control of her life. As she told Bill in one of their conversations she always had thought to go to realtor school and sell homes for a living. In seven short months she graduated and was, now after a few years of hard work, a top selling agent in the area. Her job as an agent was what allowed her to meet Matthew and then later have her beautiful daughter Emily.

Remembering Night Dreamer's words of looking toward the blessing of her daughter when next she felt depressed Sookie couldn't help but get up and head over to her laptop hoping he had sent her a message. It had been two days since the last message and already Sookie was going through withdrawal. After receiving at least one message a night from him for the last year and half suddenly receiving no messages was something like torture to Sookie. Her heart dropped a little as she saw there was no new mail in her inbox. Sighing Sookie looked at her keyboard; just staring at it as if it had all the answers.

Her fingers and heart having a mind and will of their own began a new message to a man whom she had never meet, but whom she knew better than anyone. A man who seemed to reach into her very soul as no one other than Bill had ever been able to do.

Good evening.

You must still be working on the project your work has you committed to and I don't want to distract you from your work supposing that I could. I just needed to say hi and that I miss our nightly chats. I hope everything is going smoothly for you and I cannot wait to hear from you dear friend.

Your friend always

Sighing Sookie hit the send button and then opened up another window to check her accounts. Now that she was once again the head of the household everything fell to her. Keeping a roof over their heads and food on the table was a big job, but one Sookie took pride in as she knew she was doing a fairly good job of it. "Who needed a man anyways?" Sookie thought to herself only to have her heart jump out of her chest when she heard that you've got mail ding from her computer.

Beyond excited Sookie hurriedly changed windows back to her inbox to see a message from Night Dreamer waiting for her. Clicking the open button Sookie felt so much joy as she began to read.

Dear friend,

I am sorry it has taken me a few days to reconnect with you and even more sorry that this message will have to be brief for I am swamped with details dealing with this latest project. Yes you are a distraction from my work, but a very welcomed one. I always look forward to our conversations as you know and after this project I will make sure I never have to be pulled away again from our time together. I have missed our nightly chats as well. Just the thought of arriving home to a new message from you in my inbox is enough to have me racing recklessly home.

I hope you are doing better than the last time we communicated. I hope you have taken to heart my words that you are an amazing woman and deserve all the best life has to offer.

How is your daughter? How are your friends and family in your small town in the south? I hope everyone you care about is good.

I must go the meeting is about to start, but I will reconnect as soon as I am able. Stay safe and happy…always.

Your friend forever

Sookie smiled and began to write back. Humming as she wrote Sookie couldn't help but ask herself if she was falling in love. If she was falling in love with Night Dreamer as she suspected was it because of the man himself or the fact that he reminded her so much of Bill. Only with Bill had she felt this sense of ease with another person.

"Whose Bill mommy?"