Moving On
Alright, I'm back. I don't know what I've been doing, but I've been away for too long. I saw Twilight today (I would have seen it Friday, but I was out of town and had no clue where the movie theatre was)-best movie ever. I was practically orgasming in my chair. Robert Pattinson is the hottest man alive, even his stubble was hot (if anyone noticed it). I thought I would faint with the suspense of them kissing. If you haven't seen it already, please go and see it, I plan to go again. And now, Moving On.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my ideas-stories included.
Begun: 11/23/08 Finished: 11/24/08
Chapter Nine:
E Pov
Previously: "Okay, Edward, you can do what you want as long as you're back here for school in September" He sighed and rubbed his face. I smirked. Now all I had to do was tell Bella
Moving On
A week later, I was getting ready to riding back to Forks with my mother. Carlisle had dropped off my car and showed his protest of my choice by leaving a note. It said everything he had told me, I crumbled it and through it out the window. "Mom, are you ready?" I asked her softly. She couldn't walk right and was currently in a wheel chair. She wore long sleeves to cover the bandages. Every time I looked at her I felt so guilty.
"I'm ready to go. I called our land lord and got my old apartment back. It can be just like old times, we can watch old movies and make brownies" She smiled and reached her hand out to me. I placed my face in her hand and nuzzled into her palm. "You need to shave, honey" She kissed my hair and patted my cheek. I grinned at her and grabbed her tote bag off the bed.
"I bet you're happy to get out of this place, hmm?" I asked her as I wheeled her through her the halls. "You have no idea how good it is" Elizabeth groaned. "What about you? You left maybe once and that was to get a burger for me" She smiled, showing off her teeth.
"I didn't want to leave you alone, it can get to be boring when all you have to do is stare at white walls all day and smell disinfectant. As soon as we're in Chicago, we can go to Guido's and get some pizza" I promised. "You remember that place?! I haven't been there in so long, they have the best tiramisu, and we should get some straight from the airport" She gasped, clasping her hands together. I chuckled and continued to the car.
I opened the passenger door and carefully lifted Elizabeth from the chair and into the car, buckling her up. I folded the chair and put it in the trunk with the rest of the bags. Now, all that was left to do was drive to Forks, tell Bella I would be gone for two months and I was sorry.
The ride to town was actually four hours instead of two; I drove the whole way at twenty-five miles per hour. I was too scared to go above thirty now. We reached Forks and my heart jumped into my throat. We were parked in front of Bella's house. "I'll be right back, Liz" I told my mother and got out of the car, locking the doors.
I walked up to the door and rang the bell. Not a minute later, Bella answered the door. "Edward!" She shrieked and threw herself onto me. She showered my face in kisses and I just squeezed her as tight as I could. "I was so worried about you, nobody would tell me what was happening" She cried into my neck. I kissed her hair and placed her back on the ground.
"I know Bella, that's my fault, I didn't want anyone to worry" I swallowed thickly. "What happened? I didn't hear from you for a week" She whispered, searching my eyes for an answer. My eyes darted around. They landed back on my Volvo. My mother was smiling out the window and waved at me. I gave a small smile back.
"Bella, something happened to Elizabeth, I was taking care of her and I didn't want any distractions at the moment-including my own family" I explained to her. "Oh my goodness, is she alright, can I see her?" She began to ramble on and said something about getting her coat to come with me. She turned around to grab it off the hook but I grabbed her arm.
"Bella, I'm not taking you to see her...that's not a very good idea at the moment. We're leaving, back to Chicago. I'll be back before school starts, I just can't promise when, I'll explain everything when I get back, please, just trust me" I kissed her fingers.
Tears welled in Bella's caramel eyes. My heart broke for causing those tears. "Is it something I did?" She croaked out. "What? No Bella, you did absolutely nothing to take part in this decision, this was my choice. I promise to come back to you, I don't plan on falling out of love with you for as long as we live, even in death I could never stop loving you" I took her face in my hands and told her this.
She nodded and hiccupped. I lifted her in my arms and kissed her softly on the lips. Then, I took her left hand and kissed the ring softly. She smiled and kissed me again. I placed her down once more and kissed her forehead. "I love you, Isabella" I told her and walked away.
B Pov
"I love you, Isabella"
And just like that, he was gone. I fell in the doorway, sobs wracking my body. I cried for what felt like hours, just lying in the threshold with tears racing down my face. I heard a car pull up in the drive way. "Bella, honey, what's wrong?" Charlie asked me urgently. "Edward...he...left" He sobbed, throwing my arms around his neck.
"He broke the engagement?! He left you for a week, comes back and breaks up with you?!" Charlie barked. I shook my head no. He misunderstood. "He loves me-he just left" I hiccupped. Charlie's shoulders relaxed and he helped me off the floor. "Go get some rest Bells" He sighed. I ran up to my room and closed the door. I fell asleep quickly.
Two weeks later
I hadn't heard anything from Edward in the past two weeks. The only thing I knew was that he was in Chicago with Elizabeth. Every night, I cursed her for taking him away. I visited the Cullen's often, just to spend time with Alice and the rest of them. But, my time with them was short, maybe about an hour or so. It seemed like every time I was there, they would ask me the same question which would end my visit-are you okay?
Then, I would say something like I had to cook dinner for Charlie or clean up at home. I felt empty, like there was nothing left in me to even care. This morning I woke up feeling sick. I ran into the bathroom and heaved into the porcelain bowl. I gasped for breath when I was done. Slowly, I picked myself up off the floor, my body was shaking.
Was this me beginning to die? I always said I would die without Edward, was it becoming true? Tears fell down my face and again, I crying over him. I crawled back into bed and cried myself to sleep-again. I knew I was pathetic, but it was like everywhere I turned, I would see something that would remind me of him. It didn't help that his family never stopped talking about him. I thought I would go crazy.
I woke up to a knock on the door. I peaked an eye open. "Hey Bells, this came in the mail for you" Jacob came into my room. I glanced at the digital clock on my night stand. It was two o'clock. Normally, I would wake up before ten, which I suppose I did when I first woke up. "Hey Jake" I winced, my voice was hoarse and my throat hurt. He placed the package on the stand and sat next to me.
"Are you alright?" He asked me. "I think I'm dying" I answered him honestly. His eyes widened with panic. "Why?" He finally uttered. "I feel so weak, and tired, I want to sleep all the time, and I feel sick. I think I'm going to die" I whispered, yawning at the end.
"Bella, you can't die!" Jake protested. "That's the way fate is, no use fighting it" I smiled serenely. "Would you at least see a doctor-for me" He pleaded. "Tomorrow, I'm tired" I mumbled, succumbing to the darkness that wanted to over take me.
My eyes slid closed and I turned on my side, facing towards the wall. I always slept on this side of the bed because Edward would climb through my window every night and sleep with me. Now, it was just out of habit.
I woke up again around five. Jake was gone by now and my mail was on the bed. It was a thin package. I unwrapped it and a note fell out. I opened it and immediately recognized Edward's neat handwriting. My throat closed up as I opened the note.
Hello Love,
I feel awful about leaving you; I think I should explain to you now. Three weeks ago, when I went to tell mother about our engagement, we had an accident. She was angry about it-which is why you couldn't see her when we were leaving. She didn't notice the car crossing the intersection and crashed. Now, she is currently paralyzed from the waist down-which I hope isn't permanent.
I decided to leave with her to Chicago so we could have time together. I hope this letter explains why I left. I hope you reply to this letter by email, there is no return address as I do not want anyone searching for me. Also, I'm in the midst of getting a new phone as mine was destroyed in the accident.
With all my love,
Edward.
I reread it over and over. His mother was paralyzed because she crashed. And all I could think about was myself. I felt horrible! But what about Elizabeth, she must have felt ten times than I did, she couldn't walk! And I had cursed her. I asked for forgiveness from God and opened the rest of the package.
There was a c.d. in there. The cover was designed by Edward, clearly by his signature in the corner. It was a small drawing of a swan made of crystal on a stand in a lake. The light was hitting it, causing a rainbow on the water it was reflecting in. It was beautiful and drawn by Edward, which made it even more special.
The title written in calligraphy across the top was Crystal Swan. I giggled at the title and opened it up. The booklet that came inside had the cover on it. I opened it up and saw right on the first page a picture of myself and Edward cuddled up on the couch. I remember when Alice took that picture; we were watching a movie when she snapped it, claiming it would be for her scrap book.
A tear slid down my cheek when I saw it. It was black and white except for the royal blue blanket we were under, our hair, and eyes. I smiled and read the dedication.
"This album is dedicated to my darling Bella; she is the inspiration for this music and the love of my life, for all eternity even into death"
I got up and placed the disc in my c.d. player and pressed play. I recognized the song playing immediately. It was the tune Edward would always hum for me when we would go to sleep.
He played it once for me on the piano, but he told me it wasn't finished. I closed my eyes and just let the music fill my mind. I opened the booklet again and read the page about the song. It was actually called Bella's lullaby with a picture of me sleeping in Edward's bed. It was clearly after we had made love. I was naked but my breasts weren't exposed. My arm was above my head, the engagement ring in full view.
Edward's hand was holding mine and I guess the other was taking the picture. I looked so...beautiful, even though my hair was an absolute mess and my cheeks were flushed. The song ended and I flipped the page in the book. This next song was so silly, it was named volatile and had a dizzying fast pace about it. The caption read:
There are no words to the piano solos because there are no words to express my love"
I giggled and listened to the rest of the song. It reminded me of every embarrassing moment I had experienced with Edward. I buried my head in my arms when I remembered all the falls I experienced. It was a truly funny song.
I fell asleep listening to it and woke up to a single guitar. Words started playing and I looked at the number. 12, I flipped to the page and read the title Never Think (Robert Pattinson made that song, think it except louder, he's a good singer if he didn't mumble). I read the lyrics ad listened to the song it was so...real. I stared at the picture that went with it. I had taken it. It was Edward smiling up at me from his bed, once again after we had made love. He was grinning crookedly at me, his hair the usual mess. My hand was in the picture, he was holding it, and his other arm was across his stomach.
I smiled and ran my hands down the picture of his abs and toned muscles, circling over his nipples with my thumb nail. I used to do that to him because I would marvel in the way his muscles would jump from my touch. I smiled softly at the memory. The second to last song of the album was called Que Sera Sera. It was the title of a song from an old Doris Day film that she song it in.
The feeling of the song was relaxed, like embracing emotions or life, ergo the title Que Sera Sera, which meant whatever will be, will be. The picture was taken again by Alice, of Edward and I just barely kissing. His lips were barely even pressed to mine, just touching. Our eyes were closed and my hands were in his hair. The picture was black and white.
The last song was named Agatha. It had a picture of a wood crib with pink bedding in it. The caption for it read:
"I hope to name our daughter this as to keep all those men who will be vying for her attention away" I snorted and shook my head. He was terrible, that is such a mean name. It was a cute song, a baby song really, maybe if the name was just a little easier on the ears, it would have been perfect.
The song faded out and I turned off my c.d. player. I walked to Emmett's room with my I-pod and hooked it up. He had a better computer since he was in college. I downloaded the album and put it into my I-tunes and had the entire thing on my I-pod within minutes. Next, I opened the internet and signed onto yahoo to begin my email to Edward.
Dear Edward,
I'm glad you sent this to me. The album was magnificent; I enjoyed it completely, even though I fell asleep on most of it. I'm happy you didn't leave because of me, or leave me at all, but I don't understand why you left. I think I might die without you, I can only hope you can come back to me by next month or sooner because I miss you so much it hurts.
Keep me updated on when the album comes out, I know you're going to be a star, I always knew you would be. I never knew you were such the artist, loved the cover...and the pictures of us inside it.
With my heart and soul,
Bella
P.S. We are so not naming our daughter Agatha as it is the ugliest name I have ever heard and I would never want to be so mean as to name someone that.
I pressed send and shut down. I suddenly felt a thousand times better than I had been.
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Okay, I'm done, hope everyone enjoyed, the title is changing to Chrystal Swan because I like that better. Please review and thank you.