Blake POV:
I've missed the team for a long time, and when I saw Spencer at the coffee shop, I got so excited, but when I saw he was sad, I got very sad too. After he got shot in his neck, and after he reminded me of Ethan, I quit the job. It was too much. And it was too much to see him like this. We didn't talk much, when we walked over to the park nearby. I knew Spencer didn't want to talk in public, so I would ask him when we were in the park, where nobody else was. He looked older since I last saw him. I wondered his sleeping and eating habits. He looked so thin too. I knew when he got sad, he would stop eating and he wouldn't get enough sleep.
"Did you love her very much?" I asked, when we came to the park.
"Yes." He answered and looked down.
The girl must have been a really nice girl, since he loved her that much. Spencer didn't trust everybody; you had to earn his trust.
"Why did you love her?" I asked.
He looked up like it was a weird question.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"Why did you love her?" I repeated.
"I… She was… different."
"Different how?"
"She was not like everybody else. She liked books, old movies, Indian food and quotes. I could discuss math with her." He said.
"So she was smart?"
"Yes, she was very smart. So smart, that she could cheat on me for five months without me knowing anything, and I'm a profiler!" he said a bit angrily.
Spencer hated when he felt stupid. He wasn't stupid, but he suffered from low self-esteem sometimes.
"It's not your fault. How should you know? You work so much."
"I should have known. She changed. She went to the city more often, she didn't pick up her phone and her mood changed. I asked her if something was wrong, but every time she said no. I had a clue that something was wrong, but I never thought she would cheat on me. I loved her so much." He said.
It was typically Spencer, blaming himself for everything. If his mother had a bad time, he blamed himself. If someone on the team was in trouble or hurt, he blamed himself. He blamed himself for not being there or for not doing things well enough. He couldn't see that we all loved him, and everything wasn't his fault.
"It's not you, it's her. She was the one who cheated, not you." I said.
"Yes, but why did she cheat on me? Because I wasn't good enough?" he said and blamed himself again.
It started to rain, very much.
"I have to go!" Spencer said and started to walk.
"No, wait!"
He turned around and looked at me. He was already wet all over.
"James and I are having a BBQ party. Do you want to come?" I asked.
"I don't…."
"Bring rest of the team! It's on Friday!" I said and walked in the other direction.
I didn't want him to have a chance to say no. I wanted to see him and the team. It was such a long time ago, and I thought Spencer would be a nice date to my friend, Lily. Of course he wouldn't know it was a date, and I did also have to ask Lily over first.
While I was walking home, I wonder how I should get the BBQ party less awkward. I knew Spencer wouldn't be talking to Lily, because he was shy. And Lily was a bit shy too. I knew it would be a bit difficult, but it would be fun too.