Jade

AHHHHHHHHHHH! I sit up straight in my bed. There is sweat on my back and I'm breathing heavy. That was the worst nightmare of the week. This time i saw him and i couldn't do anything to stop it. I did it. I couldn't stop myself. I am a monster. I killed him. I killed him. I can never forgive myself. I killed him. I am a monster. It was my fault. My fault. What have I done? I killed him. It was me. It was me. The look on his face. His blood orange eyes pleading. I killed him. It was a dream Jade. Just a dream. I killed him. It was just a dream.

It was the future

All I ever wanted was to be his. Nothing more. Nothing less. Is that too much to ask? Why me? What did I ever do? I'm just Jade. I'm Jade. Jade.

"Jade" his voice is deep and rich. His voice is a cascade, beautiful and dangerous.

Oh no. Oh no. Not Asher. I hate him so much. I will admit, he is good looking. I mean who doesn't notice his gorgeous face or the way his eyes sparkle with happiness when he sees me or when he runs his hands through his dark brown hair when he's frustrated or wh- NO. No no no no no. He's not Dave. They aren't the same and to be honest Dave looks better. Who does he think he is anyway? He thinks he can just walk in a take my heart with him when he leaves but he's wrong right? Yes. He's wrong. He walked into my room. He looked breath taking as usual.

"Hi Asher" I mumbled

"Jade." he gave a bright smile.

"What?" I snapped at him

" Jade please. You said you'd try."

" Im sorry Da-Asher" he sighs and moves to stand next to me.

"Jade" he fumbled. Something was wrong. Very very wrong. Asher is as graceful as anyone and he doesn't under any circumstance fumble.

"Jade I...I" Huh?

"Jade I've been wanting to tell you something" Oh no

"Jade" he cleared his throat "Jade you are my life."

"Jade you aren't my world. But you're everything that makes my world good" This. Is. Not. Happening.

"Jade I haven't known you for long but.."

" Jade. My life was nothing before you. Without you I'm an empty void. Your laughter is music. Your eyes are priceless gems. Jade without you im nothing. I cherish every moment I spend together with you and when I'm not with I spend every moment thinking about you. Jade, darling, there is no simple way to put it, I love you."

I started to speak.

"No, it's fine. I know you don't feel the same way, but I have to say it. I know if in the end you had to choose between me and him you'll always choose him. I don't hold that against you. It's not your fault you're perfect." I started to stop him again but he cut me off again.

"And I know if it's the end of the world and I'm the only one you will still say no" This isn't supposed to happen. Im not supposed to feel sorry for him.

"Ash-"

"I love you, you know" He was pacing now. I felt so bad, because it was true.

"Jade Harley you are the best thing in the world. I hope you know that. I hope that one day your Dave will love you more than I do. I hope that you have a happy life with him because Jade I can't do this any more. Jade I'd do anything for you. I will love you till I die and if there is some kind of life after that I'll love you there too." I was speechless

"Goodbye Jade." With that he left just as quickly as he had come. What had just occurred? I couldn't leave him like this, no. I couldn't. I ran out to try and catch him...and I did. There were tears in his eyes. Asher does not cry.

"Asher?" I whispered. He didn't reply. He lay down outside on the grass. I went and lay down next to him. He pretended to not have noticed. We sat there in silence for a few minutes.

He suddenly sat up "Would you ever choose me?" his tone was flat. Would I? After everything? If Dave didn't exist would I love him? If I couldn't be with Dave could this be my only chance at love? Could I love him? Or more accurately, Did I love him?

"Was everything you said true?" I reply sitting up

"Yes"

"Then yes."

"Willyoumarryme?"

"Excuse me?"

"Nevermind."

"Say it"

"Will. You. Marry. Me?"

There was a few minutes of silence but it seemed like years.

"Yes." I replied barely audible. He took my face into his hands and kissed me. It was fire. Burning slowly. When we finally broke apart, i wasn't sure. I mean I did enjoy the kiss but it didn't feel right. It felt right with Dave but not Asher. Jade what have you done?