"Derek let me in." She would not be denied as she took in the injuries that Derek tried to hide from them. JJ could remember the feelings that eloped her as she listened to Hotch shout for Morgan to come back out of that burning building. As fear gripped her she quickly glanced about her teammates, all knowing that Morgan was not going to come out of that building unless he had those girls with him. JJ cursed him for a second, upset at his recklessness; his inability to not risk his life, even if it means he could save another. At the same time she admired his resolve, his willingness to put all concern and fear for himself aside, if it means he could save just one. She felt the sting of tears as she watched the warehouse engulf itself in flames. No one moved, no one said a word as they watched the dark smoke rise in the darkening sky. Where was he? He was running out of time and JJ felt like she was losing more than just a friend. This moment, they way she felt, was more intense than any emotion that she felt before, and it made her wonder for a quick second if her feelings for Morgan ran deeper than she expected.

Two weeks, two weeks they worked this case and it was like the unsub, now unsubs were always ahead of them. It just didn't seem right or fair that people like them seem to get away with stuff like this. She wished that this nightmare would just end but it seemed like it was never-ending. It seemed like every killer they put away, another would just appear in his or her place. It wasn't fair; there was only so much they could do. They were a fortunate team, that none of them had truly been taken away because of this job. They nearly lost Elle a couple years ago and even Gideon had to take a step back from all of this. The feeling that this job left you with was one that could destroy one's soul. It made her glad that her teammates have found that person that they could depend on to take them away from this darkness. She thought she found that person too, but she was apparently wrong. Will and her did not work out the way that she thought that they would. Even worst than her was that Morgan had no one, no one that the team knew of. Though he slowed down from the one-night stands, he seemed not to have found that person he could settle down with for a while.

It made her all that much more worried for him because in so many ways Morgan was perfect for this job because he already seemed to have it built into his system that commitments that would result in a family was dangerous in his kind of work. If Hotch and Hailey's failed marriage taught Morgan anything, it was that the BAU really is your life; it doesn't share. Watching Morgan charge into that fire made JJ angry, furious at him. Why couldn't he put himself first just once? Why did he feel like he has to be the hero all the time or die trying? He was so selfish! JJ couldn't believe it, how could he expect her to be with him if he kept risking his life like this? Oh yes, they had talked about this, more like an argument that could let the cat out of the bag.

Flashback: 4 Days ago:

Her and Morgan have been doing a pretty good job so far pretending that what happened between them did not exist or was not affecting how they were performing at work. JJ knew however that it was getting harder every day that went by and she was sure that this was building to something momentous. JJ had no idea how right she had been. She was in one of the back offices working through her notes before her next news conference when she heard the door to the office she was in open and close. At first she thought it was Hotch but when she heard nothing coming from the person that entered the room she raised her head and wished immediately that she pretended that she had continued to ignore this person.

Morgan stared at her and cocked his head a little when he noticed the fear in her eyes. JJ seemed as if she was looking for an escape route but she would not escape; not this time. Since the night they shared, JJ had been running the show and she refused to let them get the chance to talk about this. She knew that he wanted her; it was obvious from the way he looked at her that this was not a game to him and he was tired of JJ brushing him off every time he approached her. They were alone now and he was going to make her face this. She couldn't keep dangling this in front of his face. Why couldn't she just tell him she either didn't want him or that she was willing to admit that something more happened between them that night. He had her trapped and they were going to have this out. He wished they were somewhere more private but JJ's evasive skills were unmatched and to be honest if Morgan had not happened by this office, the avoidance dance would have continued all the same.

JJ sighed as she realized that she was trap. She damned all deities that she knew for putting her in this position. Was it really so hard to get some peace? Then again JJ had managed to avoid Morgan all case and the peace she thought she would have received had not been forthcoming. As much as she wanted to escape him she felt oddly calm and relaxed in his presence. It was different from when she came face to face with Will. She was on edge and every move he made toward her made her skin crawl. She was quickly out of love with Will and she knew that their time was coming to an end. However all those feelings didn't mean that she wanted to be dealing with this right now. She looked at Derek and she figured that the situation that they found themselves in right now was kind of her fault. They could be having this conversation somewhere much more private but she has been evading him to the best of her ability and to be honest she is surprised that Morgan allowed this to carry on for so long.

She walked around the desk and stood against it as she waited for Morgan to start but she could see that he was at a loss for words like she was. This couldn't work unless someone was willing to step up. In a way JJ felt like she had to do it, she owed it to Morgan considering that she stopped him every time he was willing to take the initiative in this. "Derek…" She watched as his eyes snapped up from the floor to connect with hers. God he was gorgeous; his eyes holding so much warmth, his jaw set as he tamped down his frustration and desire for her. "Derek I'm sorry ab…"

Derek cut her off, "Don't! Don't apologize for what happened because I am not sorry. As much as I have told myself that nothing could come of what happened between us it is all I can think about. It's something that I want to happen again and again. I can't handle you apologizing for something that I think we both want. Why should we?" Morgan sounded pained and confused in a way that JJ haven't heard since the moment he came to her announcing that Hotch put him in charge of the team. She wished she could comfort him, but she needed time to process his words. He admitted that he wanted her; it was what she wanted to hear coming from him but at the same time it made this situation more complicated. Also did he say that she wanted this too? That kind of made her angry, not because he was saying something untrue but because it was obvious to him that somewhere in her she wanted this as much as he did. This is why she did not want to have this conversation because she knew that Morgan would push her on this.

"Derek I can't do this with you right now. I can't. It is not as simple as a "I want you and you want me." There are other people involved and I can't make a decision about this right now." She squeezed the bridge of her nose as she felt the development of a headache.

She jumped when she heard Morgan say, "Bullshit! I can't believe this. In actuality JJ it is that simple. It's either you agree or not that what happened between us was just the start of something more. We can figure out everything else after that. You have to decide whether or not you want to pursue something with me. It's a simple yes or no JJ. Come on I'm not asking for a lifelong commitment right now, just a sign of where you want this thing to go." His voice softened towards the end and JJ could feel the pain he was under. Why was she making this so hard? She knew that it was pretty simple, but was she willing to give him the answer he wanted, the one she wanted so desperately to tell him. This was too much, too big for her to swallow right now. The guilt she felt from the first night was eating away at her right now and she was beginning to feel sick. How could she say yes to this if she was wracked with so much guilt? What was she holding on to from her previous relationship? What was she so afraid of?

She was saved from answering his questions when Hotch poked his head in the office and said, "Is everything okay in here? We heard Morgan shouting and we were wondering what's going on with you two?" When Hotch was receiving no answers from either of his two agents, he stepped fully into the office and tried to read their body language. Whatever they were talking about it was important and it was clearly putting a strain on their relationship. "Whatever is going on; Fix it because it is interfering with not only how you two work but the rest of the team. I will not allow this to carry on, do you both understand?" He waited for them to nod in agreement before he continued, "We're ready to give our profile. Let's go." He watched as Morgan gave a glare slash longing look toward JJ before heading out of the office. He glanced to see JJ staring intensely at the tops of her shoes. Hotch shook his head before leaving to give her a moment.

End of Flashback:

Morgan was right. It was not that hard. The initial question was simple; it was everything else that made this complicated. She could go the easy way and say no, try to make her relationship with Will work but she knew that was not what her heart wanted. She was prepared to let Morgan go, but after watching him being dragged out made her realize that letting him go might possibly kill her. She couldn't survive a life without him. She watched as the paramedics took him away and she felt herself get sick from the fear and the relief she felt. She could barely remember throwing up at the scene and feeling Emily and Elle holding her up. She remembered them trying to comfort her as they headed toward the hospital to be with Morgan. She was so relieved when the Doctor told them that he was okay, just some cuts and bruises with a couple of burns here and there. She held back her tears of joy when the doctor told them that Morgan was complaining about going home. It's because of all of this that she found herself in front of the door to his hotel room, demanding him to let her in. She brushed by him as he opened the door slightly wider.

She watched him as he sighed before sinking down on the edge of his bed. He looked broken and weak but she did not feel sympathy. She felt rage at his stupidity, she felt angered that he tried to hide his pain so that he could leave the hospital so early, hell for running into the fucking burning building in the first place. She tried to breathe; she tried to control her temper so that her words would come out without any emotional inflection. She did not want him to know how much his actions today truly affected her. She did not want to give him another reason to add to why they should be together because she was pissed, so freaking mad that she kind of wanted to smack him. She walked toward him and she almost liked the fear that was in his eyes as she came closer. She sighed a little before speaking, "Wow Morgan, I never knew you could be so fucking selfish!" JJ was not one to curse, so to see him jump in surprise didn't bother her. "You're hurt and here you are trying to act like a tough guy by telling everyone you're fine. Morgan these are worst than you let on. Why can't you for once just admit that you're hurting? How many times do you have to risk your life before you realize that you're not alone and that you don't have to be the strong one all the time?"

"I mean, come on, would it have killed you to accept the fact that you're less than a 100%? I can't believe you! How can you expect us to be together if you're unwilling to trust anyone with the truth? I will not subject my son and I to your self-destructive ways. We need someone we can count on. Someone we know that will be there and will make the right decisions when it comes to his life. I can not be the kind of woman that wonders whether the man she loves took another risk with his life like you did or not. I can accept that it might always be in your nature to try and save people but I will not accept your unwillingness to take care of yourself after the fact so you can uphold some tough guy reputation. As much as I have to make a choice Morgan, so do you. You need to decide Morgan because I will not tolerate this, not for one instance." She walked toward him, seeing the sadness and rage building in his eyes. She did not let him get a word in and she liked it that way. She grabbed his cheeks and roughly kissed him, letting him feel all the feelings that he brought about in her.

She could feel the nature of the kiss changing to one much more passionate and desirable, but she could not let it get that far. Morgan left her in a state of disarray and she would do the same to him. She allowed him to pull her down to his lap, his desire for her clear for her to feel. He wanted her and she wanted him, but he would have to wait, he would have to feel this too. She felt bad about what she was about to do, but if she didn't then all she said would have been for naught. She squeezed his waist with her thighs slightly, making him break the kiss to gasp in pain. She rose from his lap and backed away from him. He looked at her in anger and surprise but she only returned his look with a small smile before heading to the door. She turned back seeing a look of hope on his face but she only shook her head before throwing him a bag of ice and walking out of the room leaving Derek alone for the rest of the night.