Saturday Dec 12

I'm on the train going to see Dr Myzer In his office I'm not tired for once I got a good night sleep last night I guess because he was there I may deny It up and down that I want him there but I really do and I bet this Is the topic of today's session

he said "shall we start"

she said "okay, he stayed with me last night"

he said "are you happy about that"

she said "I went swimming and I couldn't sleep I nearly drowned and he saved me I was 't trying to kill myself I just had a lot on my mind I forgot to come up for air literally but once we spoke he wrapped me In towel and cared me upstairs and I went to sleep and I actually slept well"

he said "but there's a problem"

she said "I can't get close If I let myself get close then the only out come Is we both get hurt I can't hurt him... I just can't"

he said "then what are you going to do"

she lean forward on her hands "that's just It I don't know"

she got home she was tired she went up the steps and walked passed Angel room he came Into the hall "I remembered something"

she was walking toward her bedroom she turned "what"

Angel said "remember Mexico, remember you went I told you I wouldn't meet you, but I did anyway It rained, we danced and It was the best week of our lives"

she shouted "why are you doing this"

Angel said "because I have no choice, this Is what I remember of my life... and that us together I know nothing else"

I went to my room left the dog at the door It was mean because I knew she would keep him away was looking my grip I was starting to get sir crazy, I sat army computer typed notes and typed on my manifesto. I took my medication I went and got a Merlo and drank about half of the bottle I didn't care that I wasn't suppose to mix alcohol with this medication what was It going to do kill me big whoop It beat the blood clot to the punch.
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I was sitting at the bar In my straw hat when his hands came over my eyes "guess who"

I said "cute looking cabaña boy I saw when I came In because the tall dark an handsome vampire I left In town said he wasn't coming his loss and your gain"

Angel said "yeah I guess It Is"

I looked at him "you came"

Angel said "I did because what can I say I'm addicted to you"

I smiled "ready to have some fun"

Angel smiled "you bet I am" we had dinner poker carnivals room service casinos and all sort of fun an that afternoon It ran we chanced It on the fact It was raining so hard and went out side we ran around In the ran we had so much fun that week
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