She had changed her mind. She thought she had been sure when she decided that she would spend time with Will but the more she pictured him touching her the more she felt sick to her stomach. She couldn't do it and that's when she knew that Will and her were truly over. She had to let him go. She wanted Derek and that was the end of it. JJ sighed as she walked toward the front door. It had been a couple weeks since the break in and the case was pretty much dead. With no witnesses or prints the cops really had nothing to go on. They suggested that she just got a dog, changed her security system. It was probably bad luck the cops claim and JJ had no choice but to agree this time around. It still just did not feel right to her and she could tell that Derek had his suspicions as well but he had yet to say anything to her about what he thought of the situation. She called to let him know her decision and while she could tell he did not agree with her telling Will alone she convinced him that it was in everybody's best interest that way. She said that she was basically choosing him over the father of her child and that while he cheated on her she did the same to him and even though she and Morgan had feelings for one another it did not make it better. He begrudgingly accepted but told her to call him as soon as her and Will's conversation was over so he could come over and show her why she chose him.
"I don't like it." She could hear the frown in his voice as he spoke,
"You don't have to like it." Her response was quick and somewhat playful though she knew he was very serious.
"JJ… That's not even funny. There's something…" His voice tapered off.
"What?" She was curious. He seemed like he wanted to say something for a while but every time he was about to say it, he changed his mind at the last second.
"Never mind. It's not important. So how do you plan to break the news?" He sounded genuinely curious about what she was going to say. When she called him the night she got back from the cabin she could sense his nervousness sprinkled with a little hope that he was going to get positive news. She teased him for a little talking about everything except what he really wanted to talk about knowing that it would drive him crazy. By the end of the conversation she had him basically whining to put him out of his misery. She also could remember how happy he was when she told him she was choosing him, them.
"I haven't actually thought it out yet but I'm sure I'll figure it out. The sooner the better right? Because the longer I drag this out the worst it will get." She sighed in frustration wishing she could just avoid this whole thing but JJ knew she couldn't hide from this. She had to face it head on and accept the repercussions for her part in why this all fell apart.
"I just don't understand why you don't want me there. We both played a part in all of this, there's no reason for you to face his wrath alone. You don't have to be the martyr in all of this."
JJ could feel her temper flare at the insinuation that she was trying to take all the punishment for this. "That's not what I'm doing. I don't understand why you're finding this so hard to understand. Will is the father of my child!" Derek winced at the reminder. It almost felt like a slap in the face, almost as if she was trying to hurt him by flaunting in his face the one thing that Will truly had over him when it came to JJ. He was the father of her child, her son, their son. That wasn't a bond he could magic away and unfortunately for Derek because that would always be shared between them, Will will always be in the picture in some shape or form. The rational part of him knew that wasn't what JJ was doing but the jealous part of Morgan couldn't help but let that thought fly to the front of his thoughts. "Derek, Will is Henry's dad and before all of this drama, Will and I were happy. He made me feel loved and when it was going great between us I couldn't imagine spending my life with anyone else."
"JJ…" Derek did not want to hear about how happy JJ and Will were together. He knew she seemed sure that she was ready to pursue something with him; he just couldn't completely ignore that niggling voice in the back of his head whispering that she still might change her mind. Derek had a reputation and while he did not partake in his man-whorish ways anymore, it was still a part of him and he knew that it was a question mark in JJ's mind.
"No Derek let me finish. I know you and I know that a part of you is scared that while talking to Will, I'll be reminded of what we had shared and instead of following through on the break up, I change my mind and end up choosing him over you. Trust me when I say that I'm in this baby and I'm not going anywhere. I'm in this with you all the way. I know that you're not proud of the things you used to do before, but that's who you were and it has nothing to do with what we are now. Trust me please. As far as Will is concerned, he deserves more from me than to have the man I cheated on him with sit next to me and hold my hand while I tell him I'm leaving him for that same man. That's below the belt and a slap in the face. He deserves better than that and you know this to be true. You would wish that the same courtesy be given to you if you were in Will's position." JJ quieted after that waiting to hear what Morgan would say.
That's one of the things that she believes she truly loves about Derek is the fact that when she feels like she has something to say, he listens to her without interruption and really takes to heart what her opinions are. She waited patiently on the phone as she allowed Derek to continue processing what she said and either agree or continue to disagree. While she already knew that nothing he said would dissuade her from her decisions, it would be the first of their relationship roadblocks if he were to continue to disagree with her. While he may have played a part in the end of this relationship, it was still her relationship with Will and Derek should not be involved there.
Derek's sigh was her warning that he was ready to speak. "I understand what you're saying and while I still don't feel too comfortable about all of this I will follow your lead on this one. He is the father of your child and it should be a conversation that the two of you have in private. I'm sorry if I made it seem that I was trying to force my way into the situation, I just did not want you to take all the responsibility because I am just as much of a guilty party as you are."
JJ sighed in relief and she nodded her head in understanding though Derek could not see it. "I know and you have no idea how much I appreciate your willingness to share in the pain but you don't have to worry. I'm fine with the repercussions because in the end I'm not really breaking up with Will because I'm in love with you, it's because I'm no longer in love with Will."
Derek felt a sloppy grin cover his face at her words, "Say that again."
JJ frowned at the odd request. "That I'm no longer in love with Will?"
"No, what you said before that." JJ smiled at that. She was well aware what she said and she found it cute that he was asking her to say it more than once; he was such a spoiled brat sometimes, always getting what he wanted.
"That I'm in love with you." He could hear the smile in her voice.
"You better be, you'd be foolish to not be in love with a man that is total package." His tone had teasing flare to it.
She liked that the conversation had taken on a lighter tone. She was done talking about Will and wanted to focus on her future with Derek. "That's you're response, that I better be in love with you? I'm gonna hang up."
"Wait, no, don't hang up!" Derek pouted playfully.
"Well…? Give me a reason to stay."
"I have a six-pack, well it's closer to eight but who's really counting after 6?"
JJ rolled her eyes at that. "Really? That's the best you could come up with?"
"No, it was just that beginning. I'm charming, good-looking, smart, caring, great in bed…"
JJ couldn't help but laugh at that statement. "Great in bed?"
"You're telling me that statement is false? Answer very carefully now." His tone was playfully serious and JJ loved that they could tease each other so easily. This is what it should be like when two people were supposed to be together. "Great isn't quite adequate enough to describe your prowess in the bedroom. You're mind-blowingly good. If there was God of Sex it would be you."
"Well thank you and well said beautiful. Almost had me thinking I was going to have to cut you off."
She snorted at that, "Like you could go that long without wanting me."
"Well hello there Ms. Jareau's ego. It's been a while, but it's nice to see you're still kicking."
JJ laughed at that before speaking, "Behave!" She wanted to talk to Derek for the rest of the night but she couldn't stop the yawn that slipped out her mouth.
"You're tired baby, you should get some rest."
"But I don't wanna." She playfully whined.
Derek chuckled in response. "I don't want you to either but you need to and more importantly you need to rest before waking up and preparing for your talk with Will."
She groaned at the thought. "I know. Alright, I guess that's everything then."
"Wait!"
"What?'
"What are you wearing?" JJ laughed at Derek's seductive tone.
"Shut up. I'm hanging up. I love you." She never grew tired of saying that.
"I love you too. JJ?" Her heart warmed by his declaration of love.
"Yea?"
"Call me after Will leaves and I'll come over and remind you why you chose me." He said softly with a hint of playfulness to veil for promises he had just made.
"I will. Night."
"Good night."
She smoothed her hands down her jeans, her palms sweaty. She was more nervous than she had ever been in her life. She had called Will and asked him to come over so they could talk about what was going to happen next. JJ couldn't help but cringe when she heard the hopeful tone in Will's voice when he said that he would be right over. She knew that he wanted for the both of them to get back together but she knew that after everything that her and Morgan shared that it would be a cruelty rather than a kindness to try and stay with Will in a sham of a relationship. They both would cheat again and eventually they would grow to resent each other worst than they were before and it would hurt Henry the worst and JJ couldn't live with herself if that happened. She was willing to agree to any kind of visitation that Will ask for because she would never stop her child from having a relationship with his father. While Will had been absent lately, the times he spent with Henry produced quite a bond between the two of them.
She nearly dropped the glass of water she was sipping on when the doorbell rang. She rested the glass on the counter before taking a deep breath and smoothing her hands down her jeans once more. She was wearing a black camisole under the white zip-up hoodie sweater. She checked her self in the mirror once more before she opened the door. Will stood there looking better than he has in a while wearing the crooked smile that made her fall in love with him. Shit, this was going to be harder than she thought. "Hey Will. Come in."
He nodded in return before walking in. She flinched as he turned toward her and leaned in to kiss her. He noticed and quickly shifted to her cheek. "Sorry, old habits." His apologetic drawl murmured out.
"It's fine." She closed the door before leading him in the living room. She sat down on the far end of the couch and Will moved to sit next to her but she shrunk away and Will got the impression that this conversation wasn't going to go well. He moved back to the chair across the room and tried to be patient but he couldn't take it much longer. He was starting to get angry.
"What's going on JJ?"
"Will…" JJ finally looked up and paused when she took in his face. Where did they go wrong? What did she do to make herself so undesirable to him? Would the same thing happen between her and Morgan? No. He wouldn't hurt her like that.
He frowned; she couldn't possibly be this stupid. Did she actually think that she could leave him? He gave up everything for her! His job, his whole life in New Orleans, and now she was going to have the audacity to try and leave him. This fucking bitch! Will tried to calm himself down and wait. "Just spit out, please." He was barely able to hide the edge to his voice, but JJ was a profiler and she could tell he was getting upset.
JJ took a deep breath before pushing forward. "We need to end this relationship Will. We're not making each other happy anymore. All we do is fight and their getting worst and now Henry's starting to notice. We can't keep going on like this because we're only going to resent each other and end up hurting Henry the most. I'm not in love with you anymore, but I'll always care and I hope that we can be adults about this and maintain a decent relationship for our son's sake."
At this Will lost it. "BULLSHIT! You think I believe this shit. You're leaving me because we don't make each other happy anymore. Bull shit. I have never taken you for a liar JJ. Who is he?" He was on his feet by this point and JJ could tell that Will was pissed. For a second she felt a flash of fear sweep through her before she grounded her teeth and stood as well.
"Don't think you can come into my home and make demands of me when you have been sticking your dick in every slut that opens her legs for you! I have put up with your drinking, your cursing, your late nights fucking whores and I am sick and tired of it. I don't owe you shit. I thought we could be mature and civil about this for our son but I was obviously wrong. You need to leave Will. This is over!" She continued to stare at him as she tried to cool her anger down. She didn't know where that came from but she knew it needed to be said.
Will felt his control slipping even more before he responded. "No! This is my fucking house too. Have you been fucking him here? In our bed? When it start, huh? Does he know you scream like a whore when you're in heat? You'll open your legs for another cock soon! Who is it? Is it Morgan? Of course. A big black one like him should be able to cure your jungle fever!" JJ snapped at that and slapped Will as hard as she could across the face. He was shocked; he couldn't believe she slapped him.
"FUCK YOU! Get the fuck out now!" She was breathing heavily. She couldn't believe he said that to her.
Will had enough at that point; he reached and grabbed JJ tightly, forcing her back onto the couch. "You fucking bitch! I'll make you pay for that."
JJ felt like the wind got knocked out of her when he pushed her back. She immediately tried to struggle back but Will had her pinned and he had weight, strength and leverage against her. "Will, get off of me!" JJ genuinely felt scared of him for the first time in her life.
He shook her roughly, squeezing her arms tighter making her eyes burn with tears from the pain. "Shut up! How dare you fucking tell me you're going to leave me for some other man! We have a son and we're going to be together. You better get fucking use to it! You fucking whore! You must've forgotten what is like when I used to spread you open." Will's eyes started to get manic when JJ started to scream struggle against him.
"Will stop it now!" She started crying as he forced his hips between her legs. "Please! Stop. No!" She wiggled one of her hands free and reached around the table for the glass coaster that was resting on it. When she could feel it she grabbed it and immediately slammed it against the side of Will's head. He gasped in pain and loosened his hold on her. She immediately threw her hips and flipped him off of her before running to grab and her gun. She returned to still find Will rolling on the ground. "You're to never come near me or my son again. Do you understand?" She didn't wait for him to answer before continuing. "Now get the fuck out!" He glared at her before slowing rising and walking toward the front door.
He stopped before walking and turned back to see her still point her gun at him. He glared before saying, "You're no better than me. This isn't fucking over. Henry's my son. I'll never be out of your lives. I will fight for custody and just like me you committed adultery. I don't even care if I win or not, I will drag your relationship through the mud, I'll ruin your careers and you'll end up seeing that you were lucky I took kind enough to waste my time on you. You'll come back." He turned and walked out, satisfied when her eyes widened in fear.
"Will, wait!" That was faster than he thought. He turned back around to face her. She threw the ring at him before continuing. "I don't give a fuck what you try to do. I'm through with you. We are over!" She then slammed the door and waited till she could her his car drive off before she put down her gun. She locked her door and put on the alarm before going into her room and changing from her jeans to a pair of Morgan's sweat pants. She quickly sent Morgan a text to come over before she climbed into her bed and began to cry.
A/N: Hey guys, I know it's been a while. The Muse had completely left me. I'm sorry to all of those who had to wait so long for this chapter. I want to send out my appreciation to those who have sent me messages to ask if I was still writing letting me know that people hadn't completely abandon the story. I also appreciate all of those who have read and liked this story. Hopefully now that the muse is back, I can finish both this and Welcome to Paradise and write other fics for the JJ/Morgan fans out there. Appreciate all reviews. Special shout out to foxyfeline.
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