Tuesday Dec 15

I was headed to therapy this morning me and Angel spent the rest of the day together just talking and being together I know I'm getting close and part of me doesn't care. I go Into the therapist office he said "are you ready for your session for today"

she nods "yeah"

he said "do you wanna talk about yesterday"

she smiled "yeah I do, I know I said I didn't wanna fall In love with him again but he has that power on me when I look Into his eye and I see him I see the man I fell In love with but better then that I see a light hearted man that has no pain there anymore and I love that... but then I'm scared If I touch It I can break It that Image of him In the back of my head years of pain when I'm gone I'm so confused but I know I want him but I can't promise him a future that Is what we want"

he said "have you ever thought that he might just wanna be with you for what ever time you have left, If that what he wants he cares about you not him... talk to him"

she nodded

Buffy went home she was sitting In her room In a chair he came In she said "come here"

I bottle all my hurt Inside,
I guess I'm living a lie.
Inside my mind each day I die

he came over sitting on the edge of her bed "yes"

she said "I'm dieing, you know this and your still her which Is just like you to stay but for me It males me feel like I'm betraying you by letting you fall In love with me again"

he said "but did you ever think that I fell out of love with you"

she said "you kind of made that clear when you broke up with me"

what can bring me back to life?
A simple word, a gesture
someone to say you're beautiful
Come find this buried treasure
with eyes lead to a pot of gold.

he said "I just said that so that you wouldn't push It any further at the time I need to shut you down so that I could leave, do you think that seeing you wasn't killing me wanting to be with you and knew I couldn't I swear I almost broke down and begged for you to come back to me the next time I saw you and every time after that only when I left did It get easier for me... when you came to LA and we argued about Faith that wasn't me yelling at you that was me yelling at you because I was mad at me for giving my humanity back Instead of staying with you I was venting on you some of that anger on you because I was hurting and you telling me about Riley only made me angry I never would have hit you If I hadn't been spun In the head"

Who's there to save the hero
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help
Who's there to save the hero

she smiled "thank you for telling me this... I'm tired so tired"

he said "rest" he picked her up out of the chair and moved her to the bed kissing her forehead and then her cheek and then her hand and coming back placing his hands on both sided of her face and kissing her oh so tenderly on the lips she fell sleep moments later.

Who's there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.
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I woke up the sun was just setting creating a orange glow In my room It was beautiful sun set I turn towards the door only to find Angel sitting on my bed he was looking at me watching over me he had been sitting at the side of the bed looking at her he took on of his fingers and moved her hair out of her face she looked from his hand and In his face there was a passion In his eyes she sat up moving over and he laid next to her she looked In his eyes he ran his fingers over her face she closed her eyes as he placed hand on her cheek no words were need she pulled back he pulled her chin to his face with his finger they put there foreheads together she looked at him his lips met hers It was so tender

Are we ready
Are we ready ready
Are we ready
Are we ready ready

Ah ah ah ah..
Ah ah ah ah..

she slid down next to him and he stroked her face they kissed

My body feels like an Inferno
Like Imp In a race and I'm jumping the hurdle
Come closer we'll peruse It
Baby Just let go we can do It

she rolled him over and kissed him more Intensely ran her fingers down the front of his shirt then under It he pulled her up and she was straddled him

Baby I'm just hot for taking
Don't you wanna see my body naked
And I bet you like the way I shake It
And I hope that you can take It

as he sat up she pulled his shirt off and he pulled her hair down from the ponytail kissing

You're the perfect lover
I'm In love with all the things you do
So seductive when your touch me
I can't get enough of you

him touching him he pulled her shirt off she undid his pant

Your the best
Baby You got me obsessed
And I can't catch my breath
Baby I must confess you got me
Ah Ah Ah

he removed hers he laid her back on the bed he said "are your sure about this"

she said "honestly I don't care anymore I just wanna have some time with you where I don't have to worry about the aftermath and now there won't be" she captured his lips

When you come around
Got me so damn high
Can't come down
Every time you touch me there
You make me feel so hot

she rolled him onto his back

I love It
everything you do Is so seductive
You got everything that I want and then some
And I can't even front so listen
I know what your missing
Better hurry up
Cause time Is ticking
Tic Tock Tic Tock
Come and Get me while I'm hot

going Into her bed side drawer pulling out a scarf she wrapped It In her fingers and said "close your eyes"

You're the perfect lover
I'm In love with all the things you do
So seductive when your touch me
I can't get enough of you
Your the best
Baby You got me obsessed
And I can't catch my breath
Baby I must confess you got me
Ah Ah Ah
When you come around
Got me so damn high
Can't come down
Every time you touch me there
You make me feel so hot

he said "fine" she wrapped It around his eyes and had her way with his body

Let me drive you crazy
All night Cause we got so far to go
Let me drive you crazy
All night Cause we got so far to go

they rolled back and forth

Your the perfect lover
I'm In love with all the things you do
So seductive when your touch me
I can't get enough of you

In the hilt of passion he pulled her up to sit In his lap

Your the best
Baby You got me obsessed
And I can't catch my breath
Baby I must confess you got me
Ah Ah Ah
When you come around
Got me so damn high
Can't come down

he said "look at me" she did they reached their climax and she leaned back and let the feeling go through her

Every time you touch me there
You make me feel so hot

we drifted off to sleep I was so tired I would take my pills In the morning I didn't wanna break this moment