Wednesday Dec 16

I had some work to do this morning I left him In bed I dressed putting on my suit I was nearly ready I was fixing my hair and he sat up out of bed and said "shouldn't you be In bed"

I said "oh no... I have work I have to finish doing I have therapy I have to go back to Colorado and then go to England and I'll be back tomorrow night"

he came Into the bathroom door and said "I want you to meet me at the cabins In the outskirts of town I'll give your driver the directions and he'll bring you back there"

she said "okay I got to go" I kiss him goodbye and go down to the driver getting In the back he comes out to give the driver his number to call when he got me from the airport tomorrow night he went back to the apartment and turned back smiling goodbye she sat In her car and looking up at the door way at him and laughed thinking about last night she waved he pulled off.

went back to the hospital and In Colorado she went to the bed and looked at him for a long time she knew that sense they made Buffy both of there medical hypoxia whatever that all she had to do was take him off life spots she had the right one she looked at this Angel laying In the bed and for a split second she might not she shook It off she had to get to England she was helping the girls get ready for charismas she left.

she kept moving around she worked on her manifesto and her book she did therapy on the flight and she was now In the charismas tree lot with Willow she was talking to her but she wasn't listening she let her mind drift

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~* Flashback *~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
JOYCE: Oh. You know, honey, I was thinking. Maybe we should Invite Faith to spend Christmas Eve with us.

BUFFY: I don't know. Faith and I don't really hang out. Or talk or make eye contact lately.

JOYCE: Do you really wanna let her spend Christmas Eve all by herself in that dingy little motel room?

BUFFY: You're still number one with a guilt trip, Mom.

JOYCE: I try.

BUFFY: I'll ask her.

JOYCE: You're a doll.

BUFFY: What about Giles? I mean, he doesn't have any fame...

JOYCE: No, I'm sure he's fine.

BUFFY: We could at least ask him and see...

JOYCE: He doesn't wanna spend Christmas Eve with a bunch of girls.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *End Flashback *~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Willow called her name "Buffy"

she looked at her "yeah Will"

Willow said "you looked like you were so where else"

Buffy shook her head "just getting tired"

Willow said "do you like the tree"

Buffy looked at the huge pine tree and said "we'll have the rocIfeller center people beat"

Willow said "what's going on... haws Angel Is he Angel"

Buffy smiled "oh he's Angel aright"

Willow gave her the famous WIllow-beIng-a-deer-caught-In-headlIghts look "dId you"

Buffy nodded "we did last night... I don't know Wills" she shook her head "I wasn't myself last night... or maybe for the first time I was"

Willow said "are you sure"

Buffy said "... yeah I think I am"

Willow said "you know how Angelus was... he could twist lies Into the truth"

Buffy said "he's not Angelus he's Angel... he'll never be, Angelus couldn't pull off nice and sweet If It was a magical poison Inserted In his blood"

Willow said "he had you fooled the first time"

Buffy said "no he didn't I knew something was wrong with him I just didn't know It was Angelus now I know what Angelus Is and he's not him"