STRUCK GOLD IN SOME IDEAS, I HAVE TO GIVE CREDIT TO SOMEONE WHO ROLE PLAYED WITH ME AS THE SANE!KARKAT HERE.
BE KARKAT VANTAS
You're not sure if you're awake or asleep-
You're not sure about anything at all... You feel no pain, you might be dead? You don't know, you're standing on a black floor... in a black room? You hear...
You hear screaming...? You think, you hear screaming... and then...
You see, what appears to be a reflection of yourself, but it's walking towards you...
He's... different...
His eyes are red... he's...
He's laughing... and.. muttering something under his breath... Finally he's close enough for you to see that..
He's not talking at all... he's not doing anything. He's standing and there and looking at you- And yet a voice-
It's sounds like your- his- voice... it's sounds like both of your voices-
But it's so... different...
HEH HEH...
...IT'S ALL KIND OF CLEAR NOW... HEH...
THE GAME, THE.. HEMOSPECTRUM...
IT'S ALL FUCKING CLEAR, YOU KNOW? I KNOW WHY THEY FUCKING CALLED ME THE CANCER..
IT'S *ALL* FUCKING CLEAR WHY.. THEY CALL IT CANCER. THEY CALL IT ALL CANCER. WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST? IN THE STORY THAT TEREZI TOLD ME, OF THE SUFFERER. HOW HE RELEASED HIS RAGE OUT..
HEHEH..
HE WENT FUCKING CANCEROUS...
THAT'S ALL YOU CAN SAY ON THE FUCKING MATTER... CANCEROUS...
AND...
I LIKE HOW THAT WORD RINGS...
IT JUST... RINGS...
AND IT FEELS SO... GOOD... JUST SAYING IT.. IT'S GREAT...
CANCEROUS...
The words stood out to you... 'Cancerous' 'Cancer'
After a moment or two of silence, a grin grew on the others face, insanity in his eyes. You could see it so easily... "Shut the fuck up..." You muttered, "You're just insane..."
The voices picked up again, echoing a little, whispering directly in your ear... screaming loudly next to you.. and laughing...
HEH HEH..
YOU DON'T FUCKING SEE ITDO YOU?
HAHA, YOU *DON'T*FUCKING SEE IT..
YOU NEED TO OPEN YOUR GOGDAMN EYES, AND ACTUALLY LOOK AT THE MATTER FOR WHAT IT REALLY FUCKING IS...
ALL THIS TIME, *WE* SHOULD HAVE BEEN AT THE TOP.
WE ARE... WE...
WE ARE THE HIGHEST OF THE HIGH,
WE CAN SEE WHAT HAPPEN IN THE FUCKING PAST,
WE CAN REMEMBER WHAT OTHERS CAN'T.. ALL THE MEMORIES AND SHIT THAT'S BEEN HAUNTING US FOR SWEEPS AND SWEEPS...
WE CAN REMEMBER.
You cringe this time, ears perking back a little... it's true... "It seems this torment has been fucking my mind up... the mere fact that I'm freaking out about that shit.. and now that I can talk to myself as another person..." You duck your head a little, trailing off in your mind.
Another moment of silence and then a soft whisper was right there in your head...
HEH HEH...
DO ME A FUCKING FAVOR...
...LET THE FUCKING MEMORIES RUN THROUGH YOUR MIND...
'Deny it kid.' A voice is suddenly heard in your head.
"HOW DID THIS EVEN HAPPEN?!" You yelp, "I THOUGHT I WAS GOOD, BUT NOW I AM TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT I AM THE REAL FUCKING THING BEHIND THIS MESS! IS THIS WHAT HAPPENED TO GAMZEE?!" You snap at your mirrored self, his crazy grin actually following every word and motion that you said.
Just saying that, it hits you like a god damn scream. It's loud, almost to the brink of making your ears bleed.
YOU DON'T NEED TO LET DENIAL STOP YOU FROM ACTUALLY SEEING THE TRUTH, FUCKER. THIS IS WHY YOU HATED YOURSELF SO MUCH. IT'S BECAUSE YOU HAD NO FUCKING CLUE AS TO WHAT WAS CAUSING THE ANGER AND RAGE, AND YET...
YOU DENIED WHAT IT WAS REALLY...
YOU CAN STOP BEING SUCH A FUCKING MORON, LET THE RAGE TAKE OVER YOU, YOU CAN FEEL THE BLISSFUL PEACE YOU'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR, FOR SO LONG.. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LET OUT THE RAGE THAT'S KEPT YOU LOCKED UP FOR SO LONG..
THOUGH HALF OF WHAT I'M SAYING DOESN'T MAKE SENSE... DOES IT?
"SHUT UP-! SHUT UP!" You shake your head, "SHUT THE FUCK UP ME!" You covered your ears...
Your mirrored self mimic'd your movements, but walked towards you. He laughed loudly, an eye twitching a little as he grabbed your hands. He began to scream again,
LISTEN TO YOURSELF FOR ONCE, AND LET IT JUST CONSUME THE DENIAL YOU'VE HELD UP.. IT'S A LOT EASIER AFTER YOU DO. YOU CAN FINALLY SEE EVERYTHING FOR WHAT IT REALLY IS...
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LET THAT VOICE... THAT.. WALL... BREAK.
LET THAT ONE LITTLE SOUND JUST MAKE YOU FINALLY RELAX AND ACCEPT IT... YOU WANT TO.. I KNOW YOU DO..
YOU KNOW HOW I KNOW?
IT'S BECAUSE I *AM* YOU...
Be Diamonds Droog
Poor kid... He's crashed on the floor, in glass...