Decision

I had to think very fast now. Normally, that shouldn't be a problem, but now I couldn't see things clearly. Every fraction of a second that passed was a fraction too much. Edward wrapped his arms tighter around my waist. That wasn't helping either.
I had no time to think.

"Bella?" Jasper's soft voice came from behind me. I knew he were here, I felt it.

"Bella, you have to pick up the phone now." He said.
I thought one more second. Though the phone kept ringing.

"Bella…" I reached for the phone, though I didn't knew yet what to say to her.

"Wait." Edward stopped my hand.
Everybody watched his hand now, then they glanced at me.

"She don't have to do this." He said.
I saw them thinking about his words.
I didn't understand.

"Bella, he's right. You have a choice. You don't have to pick up the phone." Carlisle said.

"How can't I?

"You can just let it ring. You don't have to speak to Renée."
They were right. What would I tell her. She didn't even know about Renesmee.
But there was another voice in my head that told me she would freak out when I didn't pick up the phone. She would call Charlie and ask for an explanation. I knew how well Charlie could lie to her.
Wasn't there another way? Another possibility?
Was it the last time I had a chance then to talk to her?
She didn't even know she was a grandmother.
I reached for the phone.

"Hi mom." My voice sounded terrible in my ears, I knew she would think different about that.

"Hi Bella, how are things?" She was so happy to hear me.

"Well…" I didn't know where to begin. "Everything fine there too?"

"Yes, very well. Phil just won his fourth game in line." She must have heard the tremble in my voice. "Is there something you have to tell me Bells?"
I changed a look with Edward.

Do what you think is the best. His lips formed the words.

"Well, yes actually." I started. "We decided to go to Alaska for studying eventually."

"Oh, well that's good news. I'm happy you're completely healthy again. When are you leaving."
I changed another look.
His eyes told me what to say.

"In a week, maybe two." I managed to say.

"Oh no, I can't come to visit you before you leave. Phil has to leave the country for a game. Can you believe that? We are going to Europe."
I was so happy she reacted like that.

"Give me a call when you've arrived, will you?"
My voice broke, I was saying goodbye again. For the last time.
Should I give her a call.

"Bye mom," I said without any promises. "I love you."

"Love you to kid, greet Charlie for me."

"I will." That was a promise I could keep.

"Bye honey."

"Bye." She laid in.
I was frozen, frozen in time.

"Bella?" Edward took the phone out of my hands. "Are you alright?"
I turned around, buried my face in his chest. Sobbing again.

"I am. Everything's fine."
He rubbed my back and kissed my forehead.

"Are we leaving?" Jacob stood in the doorway.
He heard everything.

"We can't be leaving. We can't."

"You don't have to leave." Rosalie grumbled to him.
He made a face. Everybody knew he had no choice and we weren't leaving Renesmee behind.

"We are leaving," My voice was weak. "I'm sorry Jake. You knew this time would come."
He started trembling, he hadn't done that for a while.

"Alice, take Renesmee." Edward said casually. She took her gently in her arms.

"Go, Jake. Go thinking." Carlisle added.
There was a growl and then a silence.
Renesmee reached toward me and padded her palm against my cheek.

Is Jake mad at me? She asked.

"No, he's mad at himself."

Do we really have to leave, I like it here.

"Yes, we have. I'm sorry honey."

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