Chapter 11:Uncontrollable Urges

Sorry it's been so long. I have been so busy, just got back from New York and all. A little longer than I expected, but I am back and with another chapter. I do plan on posting a new Farcry fanfiction, I just have to find the time and all. Hope this chapter makes sense, like I said, I have the uncontrollable tendency to rush things because i'm always so busy. I will be posting fan art as soon as I can fix my laptop and find the time to draw up a couple of sketches. ;D

Chapter 11: Uncontrollable Urges

Mirabella POV

"Bella." The familiar voice cooed my name, it echoed through my ears like sirens alarming to my half sleeping form. My eyelids split apart with a crust, my hand supporting the side of my face, my body on its side in the dirt. Ahead of me on the other side of the cage was a black pair of combat boots. "Bella? You fucking awake." The voice continued, I sucked in a heap of air and jumped up to sit up, wincing at the slight pain in my stomach. "Haha, I knew you weren't dead." It was Vaas, I looked to my side to find him crouching on the other side of the cage. "Good morning! Did you sleep well? Sleepy head."

"Vaas?" I wiped my eyes to make sure I was seeing him in this happy state.

"Yes, it's me. What were you expecting some other Vaas?"

"Perhaps..." I answered lowly, he chuckled reaching a hand out between the bars, I backed away before his hand could reach my cheek, his smile faltered.

"Something wrong?" I chose not to answer, he wouldn't like it if I did. "Forgive me."

"You told me not to."

"I've been thinking and I take back what I said. I never meant any of it Bella. Do you still love me?"

"Vaas, I will always love-"

"Good, today is a big day for you Bella." He stood up and reached into his pocket pulling out the keys to the cage and opening it and holding it for me to leave through. I kept on the ground and stared at him with uncertainty. He opening his arms for me I come back to him, but why? Why should I give him anything? He hurt me, so I should hurt him not run back to him. I stood up and walked out of the cage to stand in front of him, dirt all over me from sleeping it.

"I just want you to know Vaas I may still love you, but you hurt me bad. I don't think it will be that easy to get me back."

"Who said I wanted you back?" He lowered his hands, slamming the cage door shut and walking on towards the path, I was assumed he wanted me to follow him, so I did. I caught up with him, walking at his side as he took long prideful strides across the camp.

"Where are we going?" He looked over at me with a suggestive glance.

"I am going to make you a pirate." I stopped in my tracks, where he kept walking until he noticed I wasn't following. He stopped and looked over his shoulder at me, the pirates around watching the scene from afar.

"Is there a problem, Bella?"

"Yes, I am no pirate Vaas."

"Then what are you?"

"You know what I am."

"A whore?" He turned and looked at me, taking slow steps towards me. "A cunt? A bitch? What would you like to be called?" I stifled back the tears that were soon to come, as before, I was getting good at that. Not showing fear was a good way to keep him from enjoying my pain. "On this island being a woman is far from what men will see you as. You must gain respect, show them strength and independence." He patted my shoulder once he was at a close distance. "Your good at that." He turned and then continued to walk toward a large building with no pirates near it.

"I am not going to be a pirate!" I stated defiantly, he stopped again. "I am not going to kill, or cause hurt and suffering. That is what had turned this island into hell, the people on it, people like you." He sighed, sure enough I was making a scene.

"People you love... Is that what you are saying? All of us use to be some part of this island hermosa. It is that you must learn how to accept this before you are eaten alive by the very thing you love. Now, I don't have all fucking day! Do you want to go back to your little cage?"

"No..." He nodded his head with a keen grin.

"That's my girl... Come on." He started walking on again, I followed after hesitantly. When we entered the small building it was a large shower house. Shower heads lined the walls on both sides and a slab in the middle to separate them. Vaas stood by the door, glancing out of it every so often. I observe while he is busy. The shower heads had mold between the nozzles, the tiles the same, and hair was clumped at the bottom drains, I cringed at the sight. Vaas looked over at me and chuckled as he watched me look around.

"Would you like me to take one with you?" I looked over my shoulder at him, that would be nice, just so I didn't feel so alone, but it was just another trick, it would be wrong after everything he has done to me.

"No... I'm fine."

"Then hurry the fuck up and take a shower, staring at it isn't going to clean anything up."

"Don't you teach any of your men hygiene and presentation."

"Why do you think I have showers here?"

"They don't seem to be using any of them now."

"Would you like me to make them? Then you don't have to take a shower alone."

"I'm not exactly taking one alone if your standing there staring at me."

"I'm a lot better than some guy with STD Bella."

"Who said we were having sex?"

"You would like that wouldn't you? I never mentioned sex." I was silent, why did I mention sex in the first place? He shook his head chortling menacingly. "Take a fucking shower hermosa, I'm not looking." He stared out the door again, I'm assuming he was keeping guard. Ironic especially after threatening to order his men to take a shower while I was in here.

"So I just take one? What about my clothes?"

"Take one and put on the same clothes."

"Then I will just get dirty again." He groaned with annoyance, his hands moved up to massage his temples.

"Your so fucking stubborn." I smirked thinking I could dig the knife in further.

"That's what you like about me?" He sighed angrily.

"I never said I liked anything about you."

"My body?"

"That's an exception from your personality. In reality, I think you're a fucking bitch." I frowned almost immediately, this was reality, wasn't it? I was still in disbelief from all the things he has done to me.

"Why?" He glared at me, his hands slowly sliding down from his temples. He then moved them to brush the stubbles of hair on his chin.

"Take a shower Bella." He answered huskily, I took in a deep breath and turned my back to him.

"Look away."

"I am." I grabbed the bottom of the tank top and slowly pulled it from my body, when I stretched my arms above my head to pull it from my torso, I felt a sharp pain in my abdominal and winced falling on my knees into the tile. "You okay Bella?"

"I'm fine..." I could feel his eyes on me, I threw the shirt to the side and lazily pushed myself up to my feet. "Look the other way." I stated again, gaining a short giggle from him. I looked down at my stomach, the bandages were worn and covered in dirt. I could have just gone and put my shirt back on, but my stomach was in to much pain to do that. I might have opened one of the stitches by incident. I used my hands to cup my breasts and cover them from Vaas. I turned to find Vaas staring at me, he knew exactly what I was going to say. He came over with slow intimidating strides without looking at my poorly covered breasts once. He crouched down so his face was at my stomach level, he grabbed an end of the large wrap and peeled it for my stomach, throwing it carelessly to the side. The bandages disappearance revealed the battered and mingled cuts and wounds from before, my tattoo on the other side of my stomach looked in mint condition and for that I was thankful. He glanced at the fine piece of artwork for a moment before looking over at the open stitches of wounds I had gained in the woods the other day.

"Shit hermosa, this doesn't look so good."

"You don't think I already know that?" His eyes found mine in an instant, they were strict and stone, I looked down at the dirty tile trying to keep from looking at the green gems for his eyes.

"Bella look at me." My head instinctively moved back to his voice and my eyes found his again.

"On a scale from one to ten, how bad does it hurt?"

"Six."

"Do you think it's infected?" His hands stayed at my waist, his thumbs massaging the undisturbed areas on the sides of my stomach. It made me feel uncomfortable and warm all at once.

"No..."

"Okay." He nodded his head in agreement. He stood up gliding his hands up to my shoulders and resting them there. He opened his mouth as though he was about to say something sincere, but he shook the thought off. He then looked over at the shower beside mine, an even grin revealed, one he was trying to suppress, but could not. He walked past me and crouched down on his left knee starting to untie his shoes. I turned and looked at him with complete confusion.

"What are you doing?"

"I smell Hermana, I think I'm going to take a shower to."

"What if someone comes in?"

"They won't when I am in here, trust me. I always take a shower alone because they are to afraid to barge in on my free time."

"Vaas, do you have to take a shower on this side?" I was referring to the showers on the other side that he could use, on the other side of the tile slab that separated the showers on either wall of the building.

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Because I want to."

"I'm not taking a shower then." I crossed my arms tightly over my breasts and shook my head. He chuckled finally untying his boots and throwing them to the side negligently... pulling his socks off and throwing them over by his shoes, he stood up and stared at me.

"You must have been treated like a princess when you were at your little dance recital."

"It's not a dance recital, it's a dance company and no... I had to provide for myself."

"Hmm well you are acting like a bitchzilla, just take a shower Amanti." He then turned his back to me, reaching for the bottom of his shirt pulling it from his body. I gulped at the mere sight of his back, I had seen it before, but it wasn't the scars that caught my eyes this time, it was the muscles, he had muscles in his back, it was so se- No! I looked away when I heard his belt buckle I peeked over from the corner of my eyes and saw his pants drop along with his boxers. I shivered, should I continue undressing? It would be wrong to shower with him, despite the fact I have already given myself to him. That was long ago though, I have changed both mentally and physically. He turned to face me, I was still in his boxers, he shook his head and moved to the shower head beside the one I was standing by. I couldn't think straight, my eyes were my mistake, finding his erect member I quickly looked away. He was horny, really horny, like harder than expected horny and he had gotten bigger by about an inch... Was that even possible.

"Bella? Just take a shower already, get this shit out of the way!" He snapped before turning the dial of the shower, he flew back when red spurted from the nozzles on the faucet. "Fuck!" He shouted angrily, looking down at the red that now covered his body, I couldn't suppress a small smile of amusement, until I realized that it was blood that came from the shower head and that meant someone had to be dead. "Damn, I always fucking tell them to keep the bodies away from the river! Fuck man!" He without a care walked back under the crimson, slamming his fist against the wall, the water turned clear almost immediately. "They will die for that little incident." He mumbled to himself as though I wasn't here, his hands starting to roam his body as brown water slid down the drain along with pinkish red from the earlier incident. I could really use a shower and he didn't seem to be bothered with me being here, then again he was a man.

I shrugged taking a deep breath before removing my hands and pulling down his boxers, throwing them to the side.

I hesitantly grabbed the dial hoping that clear water would come out. I turned it and my nightmares had come true, I should have moved out of the way, but Vaas bathing at a close proximity was still coursing through my mind. I didn't even think to move to the other side of the slab and take a shower on that side, Vaas would probably follow me anyways. The crimson spurted out as it did with the other, I yelped and scurried out of the way. Problem was it was in the wrong direction, my naked body met chest to chest with Vaas, his hand wrapping around my waist and holding me to him, peering down at me with a smirk. My breath hitched and my eyes widened, I was about to die right there from complete embarrassment.

My breasts pressed flat against his pecs, and his erect member brushing against my core. I froze, this wasn't what was supposed to happen. We stared into each others eyes for what felt like eternity until he forcefully grabbed my thighs and lifted my legs to wrap around his waist, pushing me against the tile slab and staring at my reaction with pure lust and greed.

"Is this to close for you Bella?" He practically whisper, I gulped my eyes blinking up a storm.

"V-Vaas..." I stuttered breathlessly, he bit the inside of his cheek.

"Yes?"

"P-Please can I take a shower in p-peace?"

"Your shower isn't working..." He dropped me onto my feet and then moved a hand to turn the dial on the shower of crimson turning it off, he kept a stone expression at me.

"I can a-always use a-another one..." He gave a smile as his eyebrows narrowed and a low giggle shot through his lips.

"Why are you so shy around me?"

"This is c-called b-being modest."

"Pirates aren't modest Bella."

"To b-bad I am no p-pirate." His smile fell as all the others had, except this time it was more sincere, it was out of sadness not anger or annoyance. He pressed his wet forehead to mine our noses nearly touching.

"You could have everything."

"I don't want everything."

"Then what do you want?" I paused, I don't know what his game was, but he had won, he had me. I got lost in his pearl like eyes, soft lips, his amazing features, like I had said before he wasn't that boy I had left years ago. I had mistakenly left to fulfill a stupid dream, he was man and I was woman in need of his warmth once again. Was it wrong though? At this point the fact that he was a murderer didn't scare me anymore.

"I don't know anymore..." He sighed heavily, my hands moved up to grasp his cheeks before he looked away, I caressed his skin with my thumbs softly, he closed his eyes and relishes in the moment. "I couldn't tell you if I loved you the first moment I saw you, or if it was the second or third or fourth. But I remember the first moment I looked at you..." His eyes opened, his lips parting, I was lost in the trance of him."Walking towards me and realized that somehow the rest of the world seemed to vanish when I was with you. That nothing else mattered when you were around." There was a deep silence as all we did was stare into each other's eyes, the silence was probably not reality because the shower beside us was still running. This particular closeness did not bother me this time, when I stared at him I didn't see the man I saw last night, on the verge of killing his own men in my name, or just because. I saw a kind-hearted person with the bravery and strength of a tiger, the Vaas I knew. He had definitely was affected by my presence, but not entirely and when I looked at him now, I saw the man I fell in love with. He looked down closing his eyes, his forehead resting on my lips.

"I can make you some breakfast if you're hungry."

"That would be nice." I tried to show a simple smile, but it came out to emotional.

"We can talk a little more then..."

"Can I take a shower now?"

"Will you take one with me?" He asked with a large grin on his face, I grinned brightly back and wrapped my arms entirely around his neck. I was changing because of his presence, this new him had a huge effect on me to.

"Yeah..." I moved up on my tippy toes and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, his tongue pressing between them. It felt a lot more like a real kiss than the lust filled aggressiveness our tongues had before. It was warm and his lips like silk, he moved me under the water. His hands venturing my body to scrub the dirt from my skin, careful enough to avoid my wounds. It was just a kiss that we shared and for that I was thankful, I don't think I was ready to go for a second time just yet. I was surprised he hadn't advanced any further and I didn't bother asking why he hadn't, we had finished with him turning the shower off and leaving my lips to get dressed. I soon did the same, slightly pained that we had to end it so quickly, immediately after we were dressed, he approached me and gently grabbed my hand walking me from the building without a care about what the other pirates would think. It was a drastic change in his personality, but for how long?