It was a rainy summer morning, and Akahana feel asleep curled up next to Natsu in the bed that he and Lucy used to share. 'Pore thing' he thought 'she has been having a lot of nightmares lately, I wonder..' he thought slowly sliding out of bed so that he didn't disturb Akahana 's sleep. 'it can't' he thought 'Lucy gave her life to stop Collen and his evil scheme. 'Lucy' he thought it has been a year since that fateful battle, and not a second goes by that he doesn't yearns for her touch and the sweet sound of her voice. Today is the day that he will visit her grave first time since her passing.

"Daddy?" Akahana mumbled tiredly rubbing sleep from her eyes. Natsu smiled she is the only person left worth living for. 'She is my whole world' Natsu thought sitting back on the bed.

"Yes sweetie" Natsu said moving a small strand of pink hair from her face, looking into her soft blue eyes, always pains Natsu, pains him to the point that he hardly finds himself looking her in the eye's anymore. 'It has been a year he should be over Lucy by now' he thought 'Shouldn't he?' he wondered, shaking the thought out of his head.

"I am going over to Mr. and Mrs. Fullbuster's today right to play with Cameron?" Akahana asked sitting up in the bed.

"Yes" Natsu said getting out of bed "We are going over soon so it be best that you get ready" Natsu stated before leaving his daughter alone. He then walked into the beautiful kitchen with sky blue walls and beautiful granite countertops, the ones that Lucy picked out the day they moved in here. Natsu went to the white cabinets and picked up some rice to make rice balls for breakfast. He them put a pot of water to boil on the stove; once the water was boiling he poured the bag of rice into the pot and waited for it to cook.

"What smells good?" Akahana chirped walking into the kitchen with the sweet scent of rice hitting her like a soft summer's breeze.

"Breakfast, eat up" Natsu said dishing out the rice evenly between them, one thing he learned is that Akahana has quite the appetite just like he does. All of a sudden there was a knock on the door.

"I'll get it" Akahana said jumping out of her seat. She was so excited for company, because usually it was just her and her father, and that relationship was lonely, all her father ever does is work. She partly believed that was his escape, his way of dealing with the pain of losing her mother.

"No Akahana, I will get it, be back in a second," Natsu said getting up out of his chair and strolling over to the door, he turned the brass knob opening the door to revile, Julvia and Gray.

"Thank you for coming to watch Akahana for me" Natsu said gratefully, he then stepped asaid ushering them in followed by a cute 6 year old boy with blue hair and the deepest blue eyes.

"No problem, we are glad to help" Julvia said walking through the doorway "Arent we gray?" Julvia asked.

"Of course" Gray mumbled under his breath 'that's Gray for you' Natsu thought closing the door behind Gray. Julvia shot Gray a warning glance, that conveyed the message, behave.
"have a seat make yourself at home let me grab something from my room and I will be on my way" Natsu smiled leaving the family alone in the living room.

"There here," Natsu told Akahana when he passed through the kitchen to get to his bedroom. He wanted to hurry out the door in fear he might cry, like when he used to visit Lisanna's grave around 15 years ago.

"Really?" Akahana said excitedly bolting out her chair and into the living room, this caused Natsu to laugh a little bit 'I wonder where she gets all this energy from' Natsu wondered as he grabbed an umbrella from his closet. 'Obviously not from Lucy' He said to himself.

'Good-bye sweet pea" Natsu said once back in the living room, pulling his daughter in for a hug. What's that he sniffed smelling the sweet scent of cinnamon. "Are you wearing your mother's perfume by chance?" Natsu asked putting Akahana back down on the ground.

"Daddy good-bye" Akahana said dismissing the topic and shooing Natsu out the door into the pouring rain. Natsu laughed as he shut the door behind him. 'She is in good hands' he assured as he walked down the street to the graveyard, a bouquet of flowers in his left arm umbrella in his right. 'let's do this' he thought, mustering up the courage to enter the grave yard, which ricked of dirt and decay.

"here we go" Natsu said opening the gate and walking into the dimly lit graveyard due to the fact that the sun was hiding behind rain. It didn't take too long for Natsu to find Lucy's grave, and when he did tears flooded from his eyes like a dam that just gave way and he just fell to his knees. "I am sorry Lucy, for I don't know if I have the right words to say for words were always your specialty, but I can give it my best shoot, so forgive me if I do poorly. I miss you Lucy every single waking moment I wish you were here with me by my side. I wish you could see how much our daughter has grown in just the short time you were away, too see how much she is like you, in fact I caught her wearing your perfume this morning, the one you loved, and wore every day. But my deepest wish is that I hope to be reunited with you soon, for without you my purpose in this world is gone and my vow to you broken, like my heart. I can't bare the thought of losing you, so often I imagine you lying in bed next to me, or you opening open the door and coming home. I keep wishing that the past year was just some twisted nightmare, one that I would wake from very shortly, but no." Natsu choked from tears.

"That was beautiful Natsu" Lisanna said kneeling there next to Natsu. He looked up shocked to see her here, he was about to speak. He wanted to ask why she came, but the words could never come out. "It's okay Natsu" Lisanna said sweetly putting a hand on Natsu's back to ground him from completely losing himself in grief. "Hush its okay" Lisanna told Natsu, and like that they just sat there and cried for hours, until sadness was replaced by anger, and anger replaced by helplessness, which in turned was replaced by the understanding that in order to keep her memory alive, and not to make her death in vein he had to protect Akahana with every ounce of being in his body.

"Are you hungry?" Lisanna asked when she heard the groumble of his stumach complaining, that it was hungry. The rain was still coming down harder then before, turning the dirt around Lucy's grave into mud, they have been sitting there for about an hour now, red hot tears streaming down there face.

Natsu looked up into Lisanna's blue eyes, red from tears. Lisanna didn't really know Lucy that much, but the tears were for Natsu. 'is this what Natsu felt years ago when he thought I had died?'Lisanna wondered, making herself feel even more guilty.

"have you ever known me to not be hungry?"he asked Lisanna trying to lighten the mood for his own sake. Through tears Lisanna laughed before suggesting

"Why don't we go and get something to eat no point in dwelling on the past" Natsu was hungry, but at the same time he didn't want to leave. He also didn't want to acknowladge that she was gone, but at the same time he knew that Lucy was gone and that he should move on, at least start moving on.

"okay he agreed slowley getting back up on his feet, which were tingeling from falling asleep. "I hope I will be reunited with you soon my love" Natsu said a few more tears streaming down his cheek.

"It's all okay" Lisanna said giving Natsu the courage he needed to continue.

'Fare well Lucy' Natsu thought turning around and slowly walking towards the gate with Lisanna next to him, which he was grateful for the support. 'farewell he said to himself one last thought before walking away from the graveyard. 'farewell my love'.

Note from the Author,

What do you think did it touch the feels?, I would love to know so please review, and tell me what you think