I got a review again with so much hatred towards me. I don't know if it's the same person who suggested me to stop writing but I think it is as it says Anonymous, considering I marked him/her in the block users. It was such a terrible and wrong opinion that I had to delete it I mean he/she could not even figure out why I was writing this fic from everyone's point of view which I think a brainless and insensitive human being or something similar to that can think of. He found it confusing which made me to think if he/she is still breastfeeding. And the most important thing is he/she didn't get the plot of the story I mean is he/she that stupid , I mean what is the summery for? Besides he/she used many offensive words to describe all this. The only thing I am trying hard to express is if anyone finds something wrong with any story please say it in a polite manner , suggest things don't go posting harsh and abusive language. I am not trying to teach love here but I don't think a single horrible story can lead any person to judge the author's capability.

And for the others please don't post reviews like that at least for this fic as there are many people waiting for the next chapters so your reviews mean a lot to me and if you all start sending such flames I wont be able to continue this story and remove it instead.

REALIZATION

Misaki rechecked his packing all the time avoiding any chance of conversation with Akihiko.

Akihiko can fell his purple eyes cool over a dull, harsh black. He clenches his jaws and stead his gaze further, the swelling of sundry emotions in him is scaring him and he knows vividly that misaki is the source of every single one. Misaki eyes usami from the corner of his eyes and quickly turns his head. He swallows hard and takes a sharp breathe, a force fake smile gracing his lips. He touches the small gift for Akihiko kept safely in his bag and hesitates to give it to the targeted person. He feels awkward and disheartened. Deciding to leave it on the table downstairs he picks up the luggage and heads for the door.

'usagi san I am leaving'

Without giving any coherent response, usami keeps on smoking creating a gauzy veil around him to serve the purpose of hiding his mourned face. Misaki stares unseeingly at the floor. From his peripheral vision he sees Usami and flinches at the sight, feeling the bite of terror gnaw at his bones. Getting tired and impatient as well as frustrated Misaki departs. Akihiko can feel his stomach burning with pent up hostility

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I saw him leave hoping against hope that he will again return through that door. I seek for another smoke to make a futile attempt of exhaling all the misery in me. But the pain is too deep. I decide to sip on a hot coffee and get some work done. I need to distract myself form this messy situation. Heading downstairs I notice a small box wrapped in colorful paper on the table. Judging by its look, it seems like a present. Is that haruhiko again trying to piss me off? I picked it up and misaki's handwriting on it made me curious to find out what is inside. I opened the wrapper nearly tore it in haste.

A bear. Holding a heart. Is this it what I am thinking it is? A sharp realization strikes me, compelling me to regain all my sanity. What have I been doing? Thinking of myself only and never considering once for misaki's feelings. That boy whom I love so much , whom I fear to lose at any cost, who cares for me , who was planning to give me this lovely present to express his feelings , to make me happy. Even if I want to I cant never let go of misaki , I cant stop myself to feel deserted and lost if misaki goes away from me and to think that it was who allowed all this things to happen in the first place. I have to make it up to him. I will make sure he will have his best christmas this year. I rush to the phone and call misaki. He picks it up after a while.

'Misaki , where are you?'

'Usagi san? I am on my way to station off course.'

'Stop there and come back'

'Huh? What are you saying? I can't do that.'

'Just listen to me or else I will follow you to the station and if you leave early I will chase you to Hokkaido and then I will bring you back to me where you always belong.'

I know its short, next chapter Junjou Egoist and terrorist, I am even thinking of writing a scene between Hiroki and Miyagi.

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