"I was wondering.. What is that tattoo anyways?"

Ever since the beach she's been curious to ask about that tattoo on his bicep. It was a blank circle with a dark outline. "You always told me you didn't want a tattoo."

Adam grinned as he adjusted himself in the bed. They were lying in bed and speaking to one another. It was rather late but they found themselves getting lost as they spoke.

Adam wore nothing but shorts and Becky sported a little more clothes, wearing shorts and a t-shirt.

"I got it my second year of college. I was drunk.." Becky made an expression to show she wasn't surprised and he let a small chuckle escape his lips, "Anyways, I was drunk and I liked this one girl but the feelings weren't returned. So, feeling sorry for myself I kept saying things like my heart has a empty hole in it and stuff like that."

"So you decided to get a circle on your arm because of her?" Now she made a face of surprise, as she never expected that to be the reason.

He shrugged, "I guess. My friends took me there as they were getting tattoos and they convinced me to get something. That's all I could think of so.. And I didn't bother covering it up because I ended up liking it. It kinda matches my wound."

Looking over she noticed how both the gun shot wound he endured during high school did resemble the tattoo.

His eyes focused on her and she found him staring. "What?"

It was now or never. They were to be in this room for the rest of the night. Whatever he said, she would have to deal with it.

"I still love you, you know?" That couldn't have come out any worse. "Maybe I'll put a little B in the circle… show that my heart isn't too empty anymore."

Becky looked away and crossed her legs. "Adam.."

She paused as she expected him to interrupt like her husband always would. She couldn't help the small grin as he was just waiting for her to continue, "I'm married."

"But are you happy?" He asked honestly. There were so many signs that she wasn't. She couldn't work her on her dreams in any sense; she was expected to be a housewife, which he knew she didn't love at the moment "All I care is about your happiness, Becks. I use to make you happy."

Her blue eyes wouldn't look away from his; she couldn't if she tried. No one really questioned her marriage, as her parents loved the man she was married to. And she would always put up a smile even after they've had an argument they were to settle.

"I know how you are when you're happy. You wouldn't even tolerate being this close to me if you were."

"Don't act like you know me, we didn't talk for so long, Adam!" She moved away and stood up, shaking her head. "I never stopped loving you, Adam, but you broke up with me and I wasn't going to wait forever."

He stood up as well and moved in front of her, "I know and I tried to move but I couldn't. I do regret breaking it off because I still want you but you're no longer available."

He was looking at her with a sad expression and she felt sad herself. She cupped his face and gently stroked his cheeks; "I can make you so much happier than he ever has. God, all I want is to kiss you and grab you and make love to you right on that bed but I can't and I hate that."

"Adam.." Becky didn't know what to say as she was having conflicting feelings. She knew in the pit of her heart that he was right-she wasn't happy. "I-I don't know."

His baby blue eyes glanced to her lips and he pulled away just the slightest, "Just tell me, is he any good in bed?" He teased, "Because that's one thing he should at least be doing right, since he can't do anything else correctly."

He knew bashing her husband wasn't going to help but he was being honest. Becky let out a small laugh and shook her head, "I don't know I mean he makes me moan, doesn't that count?"

"What? Has he never like, you know, made you cum before?"

"Adam! Stop!" She averted her gaze and moved to sit on the bed. "I don't know, maybe." She couldn't believe she was being sexually open with her ex about her husband.

In all honesty, she wasn't sure if he was good. She had only been with him and as they did share some sort of connection, he proved to be rather selfish under the sheets. He wouldn't go down on her and he would always want to be on top.

"Now you have to divorce him, that isn't right." He was on his knees in front of her and she made a face at the mention of divorce. "Why are you with him then?"

"Because I was in love with him." She answered quickly and she made a face of surprise at her own usage of words. Was not is. "I am, I mean."

Adam grinned and found he leaning forward to rest his forehead on hers. She didn't oppose as she let herself relax, shutting her eyes, and rested a single hand on his cheek. "You never fell out of love with me as I never fell out of love with you. We were forced to move on and we did so. I with sex and you with him."

"There's nothing that feels more right than this." Adam whispered all this to her and opened his eyes just the slightest, finding that Becky was staring at him. "I believe in faith and we ran into one another for a purpose. We're in this room for a purpose."

"What purpose is that?" She quickly asks as she finds herself clinging onto his every word. Trying to find an explanation for this desire she holds for him.

"To be selfish and do whatever the fuck we want." He spoke the raw truth and there was a silence that passed through them before they both leaned in to kiss at the exact moment.

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"Just know that I do love you and no matter what I'm always going to love you."

Adam looked right into her eyes as he said this. There was nothing more honest than those words.

They stood outside the restaurant as they were going to go their separate ways for the last time. Becky felt tears forming as she was always so emotional when it came to goodbyes.

"I will always love you, too. I know in my heart we're making the right choice." She reached up to run her finger along his bottom lip. "Don't let anything stop you, Adam. Do whatever you need to do to be happy."

They exchanged a small kiss before hugging once more.

Goodbyes were hard but they were harder when you knew it was really time to let the person go.

only a few chapters left for this mini story!