You slide a hand teasingly around his waist and up his shirt but his hand stops you before you can have any fun.
"Not now, Keigo. I'm trying to study." He motions with his pencil the books scattered about. "I have a calculus test tomorrow."
You pout but pull your hand away. "Ore-sama is bored," you announce, bending forward and blowing on his ear. You're somewhat satisfied when he winces. You sit back down on the chair that's placed next to his. Placing your head on his shoulder, you close your eyes.
You know why he's refusing your attentions, why he's pretending to study when he could be fooling around with you. Oshitari said it last night and you…didn't say it back. You're not comfortable with saying I love you unless you really mean it. People always think Oshitari is the romantic, but that isn't to say you don't believe in love.
In fact, you like love and all its varying forms. You like falling in love, being in love, being loved. You don't like falling out of love so much, but you know it happens and you know you'll move on. With Yuushi, you're still in the falling in love category.
You know to keep other people interested, how to make others love you. But Oshitari Yuushi is a special case. You don't understand how you'll manage to keep him around. Don't understand why youwant to keep him around only that you do. You don't need him, of course. Atobe Keigo needs no one. Furthermore, you don't understand why he wants you. If you understood, maybe you could keep him addicted. You try and figure out what he likes about you, but you can't. Your Insight only shows that he loves you, but not what part of you. It's too much to think he might really love and accept all of you. But what if he does? What if he loves you that much?
"Mm, a few more problems and then I shall entertain you."
You keep your eyes closed and dig your chin slightly into his shoulder. Maybe you're trying to remind him of your presence, maybe you're just trying to make your connection that much more tangible. You don't know. But you do know that one reason the two of you work so well because of the mutual trust that you share.
And he doesn't know this, and you won't tell him, but you did say it to him. Once. A few weeks ago, when he slept over at your house for the first time. It was in a dream, but you think you may have said it out loud. Maybe it doesn't count, but you chose to believe it does. And it's the sort of mushy romantic story you know he'll delight in. Maybe that's why you did it.
You understand him, and he you. You continue to believe this until one day…
"Yuushi…are you telling me you can see without your glasses?"
Henceforth, you come to a conclusion: Just because you maybe lo- really like him, doesn't mean you understand him. And that's okay, too. Because he's not going anywhere. If only because both of you complement each other and shine a little more brightly for it. Oshitari is a tensai so you figure he already knows this. You won't tell him your epiphany; you assume he already knows about that, too. And he does know; which is why he kisses you on your charm point before the two of you fall onto his bed, the laughter sudden and carefree before fading into passion. Oshitari may be a tensai, but you were never one to be outdone. After all, it was you who had the insight to get sound proof rooms.