Chapter 20.2
What is wrong with me? It's as if that illness has taken control over me, it feels like it's possessing me to do what it wants. However I try to fight it, it always wins.
Tamli, forgive me, I think.Forgive me for what I've done to you during the time that this virus has taken control of me.
Although my words may seem nice, my heart aches for him. The first few nights while we were separated, I had trouble sleeping. Yet, when I think about it, I still do even though Tamli and I are together now.
Tamli, please hear my cries, I shriek as I begin to feel alone, a feeling that I almost never get but yet I'm terrified of.
Tears begin to create in my eyes at the thought of Tamli abandoning me to run off with Saphira and Eragon. Just their names sends me into a fury of rage. They caused most of the problems that happened to him. If he hadn't been in Yazuac then he wouldn't had discovered the ancient language here, but no he goes and tags along with Eragon and finds out that he can control magic. Magic that rivals that of our own.
Tamli get back here now! I roar as I think of all that Eragon and Saphira had done to him.
He was mine, mine to protect and shield from harm, but yet those two think that he is merely a lost soul. If I ever see them again . . . No I must control myself. It's that type of behavior that has gotten me into trouble both here and back on our world. I am Tamli's light, chosen to shield him from darkness and evil. That is what Guardians do, it is our job.
A sudden flash of light nearly blinds me.
So you understand? Vanor asks.
I do, please release me from this. Please, just let me see my human partner! I cry.
Very well Guardian, Vanor hums as I am released from his magic.
I open my eyes and stagger to my feet.
Where is Tamli? I ask.
Fighting a war, young one, Vanor answers.
A war! I scream. Tamli can't, no I won't let him fight. Show me the way!
I thought you might say that, now there is some dragon armor over in the far west corner of the room for you to put on, Vanor says as my eyes blaze with a determination to find and save my master before it's too late.