Well guys, I do not own anything from Twilight not Harry Potter. If I did, Bella and Jacob would've got together and so would've Harry and Hermione. Lol :3 But I do not take any credit from either.

Chapter Six

Living with Determination

After their delightful conversation about random things about her life, Hermione just wanted to go to bed and relieve everything. She went to her room, locked the door, and turned to her dresser. She brushed her long, black hair out from in front of her eyes and started to search through her dresser drawers to find something comfortable to wear to bed. She found a plain white tee shirt and a pair of a checkered pajama shorts. She grabbed a set of white polka bra and underwear along with a pair of cute ankle socks.

She walked into the bathroom connected with her room and locked the door and started undressing. Her dirty clothing went in one pile and she set her clean clothes on the shelf beside the shower. She grabbed two towels out of the linen closet and set them and the shelf above her clothes. She started the water and made sure it wasn't too cold nor too hot and jumped in.

She let the warm water cascade down her shoulders and back, relaxing the tense muscles in her back and letting her loosen up. She took her time, massaging her scalp with the cherry blossom scented shampoo and conditioner, and washing her body quite thoroughly to make sure she was clean. For good measure, she shaved her legs and her underarms too.

She turned off the water and jumped onto the fluffy rug outside the tub and immediately shivered from the clod air making contact with her wet body. She hurriedly grabbed a towel from the shelf and wrapped it around her body then took the other towel, flipped her hair so her head was towards the ground, wrapped the towel around her hair and twisted then flipped it back up.

She dried her body then put on the bra, then underwear, shorts, and tee shirt and socks. She yawned and walked back into her room and laid the covers back and immediately snuggled into the covers. She fell asleep almost immediately.

"...Ginny Weasley in your bed on our 6 month anniversary!" I screamed at him. He turned red and started stuttering.

"I-I-I di-didn't-" He stuttered.

"You didn't know? Of course not. I'm not important now am I? Only your fuck buddy's are. Tell me Harry, how long has this been going on and is Ginny the only one?" I asked him quietly. He said nothing at first then said in a whisper.

"For three months and Ginny isn't the only one." I stood there with my mouth open, in shock. I walked over to Harry and slapped her extra hard in the face. His head turned to the side and his face started turning a dark shade of red.

"Rot in hell, you deceiving bastard." I said quietly with tears streaming down my face. "If you would have waited, I was giving myself to you today for our 6 month anniversary. I guess it doesn't matter anymore." I said, watching as his facial expression turned into shock and sadness. I turned around, shaking my head and made my way out the door. I heard Harry whisper something..."

Why did it have to hurt so much to love somebody. All they do in the end is break your heart. Hermione rocked back and forward and her heels as she stared at the Great Hall doors. She didn't want to face her fears, she wanted to run. But she couldn't. It was so close to graduation, only 10 minutes in fact. And she was having nerves about her speech. And about Harry.

She still loved him, she wouldn't ever stop. She didn't like being in the room with him because he made her feel things she didn't want to and when he look at her with his emerald green eyes, she almost melted right then and there. She took a deep breathe and awaited for the headmistress to call her name.

"...And here is Ms. Hermione Granger presenting us with her speech." There was a bunch of applause and she walked in after everyone got quiet. She smoothed down her already skin tight, dark purple, mid-thigh length, lacy shoulder dress. She was also wearing knee high high heeled boots with her winter palace ring, her infinity bracelet set, her heart pendant necklace, and her black Coast Madison earrings. She was shaking inside and out. (A/N: This speech coming up is slightly altered from the one in Eclipse.) She cleared her throat and began.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Answers in my world were things like astronaut, president, or in my case, a princess. Here in this world, it may have been auror, or Minister of Magic, or Merlin! When we were ten, they asked again, and in my world, we answered, rock star, cowboy, or in my case, a gold medalist. In the magical world, it still may have been Auror, or be an Unspoken, or work in the Department of Mysteries. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how about this." Hermione paused and looked at everyone for a second before letting the anticipation grow. She finally said, "'Who the hell knows?'. This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, this is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love, a lot. Major in herbology, because there's no way to make a career out of that." Quite of few people laughed at this. "

Change your mind and change it again, because nothing is permanent. So, make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask what we wanna be, we won't have to guess. We'll know." Hermione smirked and everyone stood up and cheered. She saw Harry whistling and all of Gryffindor was cheering her on. She blushed and walked off the stage to be kissed by very familiar lips...

When Hermione arrived at the after party, she changed her lacy dress to a simple, light blue, no sleeve dress. It was also mid-thigh length and she also changed her jewelry. She changed her winter palace ring for a plain white diamond ring. She changed her heart pendant necklace to her musical note necklace. She changed her black Coast Madison earrings to simple, white diamond earrings. And lastly, she changed her infinity bracelet set to a plain and simple, sterling silver bracelet. She walked in and saw Harry onto of another girl. She had tears gather into her eyes. She thought he had changed when he had kissed her earlier but I guess things never change. She walked out and heard him call, "Hermione!.' but she didn't stop or listen. She ran and was never saw again.

Hermione woke with a sharp gasp and sweat covering her body. She breathed heavily inside and out. Does this mean her memories are returning in her dreams too. She never wanted to feel like she did in her dreams again. Ugh. Dreams can be emotionally painful.

She went to take another shower because she felt dirty and sweaty after her dream. When she got out, she let her hair air dry into perfect ringlets of curls. She picked out a simple outfit for the day that would be cute but comfortable. She had grabbed a red jumper that had 'Love' written across it and a pair of skinny jeans with cute black converses. She grabbed some jewelry at random and threw them on and walked down the hall with determination written across her face. She was determined to find everything out, for real and right now.

I know this isn't much but I felt like writing again but now I'm tired as shit. Excuse my french. :3 - I love this emoticon right here. Describes me perfectly. And if you want to know, Draco gets with Luna - Just a preview of tomorrow's chapter. I am writing again tomorrow so be here!