Bo had spent the better part of an hour watching the one that had stolen her heart why running her fingers through the strands of hair that were not tucked behind the reading glasses that made that pair of brown eyes shine. Bo just laid there as Lauren read some brand new publication about autoimmune becoming increasingly dangerous with the climate changes. The internal medicine specialist had no interest in reading any of the pages, or even having her girlfriend read them to her, but Bo was happy to lend her lap as a resting place for the immunologist to keep her head why engrossing herself in the newly released information since obviously the bed was the best place for reading important medical studies.
Aside from the fact that the information was outside her field and it would still face a ten year argument before it had a chance at being considered a fringe theory, let alone any of it becoming considered part of standard treatment, Bo had another reason for focusing her attention on Lauren's hair, she had been working all week. Hale was not exactly a boss that would take exhaustion as a reason for letting someone leave early and since she had been taking days off, despite her promotion, Bo was convinced he was just getting back at her for taking the time off without proper notice. Not that she didn't mind the work but it took its toll especially after Lauren left the hospital to write her own ground breaking papers on the various fields she had worked after some board members questioned if they should be working together a few months after they made it official.
The look on those smug faces when Lauren resigned when everyone knew that wasn't how they saw that plan going, almost made it worth not being able to pull Lauren into the doctor's longue for a quickie. As if to just pile on with insult to injury, Hale made her head of the department and it was Bo's turned to be surprised.
Still, before she finally gave into the weekend of rest her body had wanted for the last three days there was a thought her that she wanted to get off her chest before it kept nagging at her during her free time. Ever since a woman around her age came into the ER. It was single car involved accident. As best they could piece together the patient was driving to work and went off the road for an unknown reason. They called her husband and the best Kenzi could do was give the woman a little more time so he could be there at the end, which was more than most surgeons would have managed.
Shifting to get more comfortable she saw the other woman give her the briefest of knowing smiles before returning to finish the page she was on. Nothing would fully disturb the brainy blonde's studying but she knew that the signal of moving to lay down usually got the desired effect of speeding it up. After a minute more of hair brushing the book was closed and the warmth of its owners head begun to fade as Bo watched as Lauren properly put the book in its place on the self and set the alarm for no later than 10:00 am before the other woman finally joined her under the covers and get some shut eye herself.
"You going to tell me what's been on your mind tonight?" One of the things Lauren had learned about the love of her life was the usually open woman could grow oddly quiet when avoiding a subject.
Bo smiled before leaning over to give her better half a brief kiss. "You always know what I'm thinking, but I am not always going to be here for you." Almost instantly she watched as that happy little smile Lauren was wearing quickly turned into a less subtle frown and before her girlfriend could launch into one of her truly excellent speeches to convince her that she shouldn't think like that Bo continued on.
"I have come to accept that Lauren. None of us know for certain when the clock is going to run out, but the odds are I'm going to be first and I just want to make sure you will find someone to care for you if I can't. Do not punish yourself for getting involved with me by trying to hold onto a ghost because you deserve better than that." The brunette gave her companion a smile in hopes that she would understand her intent to make sure Lauren understood this was a hook she could release herself from at any time. What the woman got was a complete look of surprise and a sudden river of tears starring back at her.
"What…why…Bo." Lauren had seen people of all ages, of all physical conditions, come into the ER and never leave, but suddenly imagining Bo as one of those patients was a nightmare she had never thought of before hearing the brunette bring it up.
Bo noticed that it did not seem to be a lack of words that were perplexing the blonde but a lack of air and Lauren had a terrible track record of remembering that breathing was an important part of living. Recalling the previous times this had happened years ago when she witnessed Lauren falling to the hospital floor, she immediately wrapped her arms around the crying woman and held her close enough to whisper to her. "Hey now, you still have to be here for a while and I am not CPR certified." The joke was lost on the love of her life for now but it was mainly to make her feel better about creating the situation in the first place as she waited for Lauren to return to a more normal breathing cycle.
Time crawled by as the breathing against her neck became more frequent in bursts and then slowed to a more stable rate. In truth it had not been but a few minutes it was just the situation where her words seemed to damn near kill the woman she wished she could hold in her arms forever that seemed to create a much slower second than reality said was possible.
Finally she felt soft hands gently push her back letting her know that it was the desperate hug Lauren had been held in that was now threatening to induce respiratory failure. As she looked back into those brown eyes that the brightness was back. "Better?"
"I love you Bo more than I have ever loved anything and just when I think you've done everything to me you damn near give me another heart attack."
Bo had sudden thought about something else that could leave her dream woman out of breath and an evil little smirk came across her lips before she decided to simply start on the idea by putting her lips to work on Lauren's right ear lop.
"Bo!" Lauren noticed the scream did not seem to deter the brunette who instead found a spot on her neck, just beneath her ear, a lick before continuing to plant kisses down towards a shoulder encased only in a rather easy to remove camisole strap. Unfortunately, as tempting as it was to let the woman carry on, Lauren took her head away from the intended destination before giving her what she was certain Bo would consider a far too brief of a kiss on the lips before placing a second kiss on her right cheek.
"Tomorrow I'm all yours and don't make me set up the couch for you by trying that again. We both need to rest and I would like to do that just remembering how sweet you were with words. Is it going to be a problem for you to just keep your arms around me, with your hands kept safely contained in mine, tonight?" Lauren sometimes wondered if Bo wasn't the reincarnation of a sex goddess, or even a succubus, at times.
Given that she really did not have a choice since it was either snuggling up against Lauren and accepting that she was done depriving her sleeping partner of intelligent thought until tomorrow or end up on the cold couch without getting any anyways Bo quickly decided on a response. "I'll behave." She doubted that the lack of enthusiasm for the plan was missed by the other woman but she would not go back on her word.
"I promise I'll make it worth the wait." Lauren settled in for the night, pressing her back against Bo and encasing the woman's hand around her waist with her own.
"You keep moving around like that and making promises and I won't be held responsible for my actions." Bo did her best to try to keep her hands from drifting down Lauren's stomach because she wasn't without some sense of self-control, it was just challenging when she and been kept from truly enjoying the company of her ridiculously hot wife for the last week.
Lauren could only laugh at what was on Bo's mind just minutes after she had been so quiet in recent days. "Goodnight Misses Lewis."
"Goodnight Misses Dennis." As Bo felt the world fall away until it was only Lauren's gentle breathing, she made a silent promise to them both to do anything she could to have as many more nights end like this as possible.
Well there you have it, the epilogue and last piece of this story puzzle. I cannot explain my sincere thanks enough to those that have followed, added to favorites and left reviews for a story that should have been finished a year ago. I should have something Doccubus related posted in the next couple of weeks along with another piece for a different fandom so keep an eye on your inbox.