( Hi guys! I am sooo sorry for not updating for almost two months! When I realised how long it had been I was physically facepalming myself over and over. I wasn't to sure on how I should continue the story but I've tried my best. So here we go! Sorry for the short chapter Xxx )

Hated

( Damon's pov)

"Stupid fucking Mat" I thought over and over in my head as I ran at top speed back to my house. It was taking all it had in me to not find Mat and squish him like the bug he is. Once I was inside the house I slammed the door with all my strength making the frame of the door shake violently, but I didn't care.

My muscles tightened, my hands clenched so tightly had if I was human I would have screamed in pain. For so many years my heart hasn't felt anything but hate and anger. But now every emotion that I'd refused to let myself feel came down on me like a ton of bricks. Jealousy, sadness, hurt and even…love.

I didn't understand how beautiful, kind, sweet Bella would pick someone like Mat over me. My brain pounded against my skull, my hands pulled at my hair, and in my jealous rage I punched my fist through the glass window creating a giant hole.

I stared wide eyed at my glass covered hand in horror. " Of course she would pick someone like Mat over me. I'm a monster." I told myself in disgust shaking my head slowly.

I could feel the tears nipping at my eyes but I held them back as hard as I could. I honestly hated being a vampire even though I'd said time and time again that I'd rather die than be human.

Even though I knew that I probably shouldn't I was going to follow Bella on her date for two reasons, one I wasn't going to let Mat lay one finger on Bella unless she asked him to, and two I think that I may be falling in love with Bella Swan.

( Bella's pov)

I hated that this day had come. I hated that I was going on a date with Mat today. I hated that I never thought things through like a normal person. Lets just say that I hated myself period.

I was still confused after what happened last night but I also knew that Damon was right about everything.

" Bella! Hurry up! Your make-up won't do itself!" Elena shouted from her room. I smirked and threw on a pair of black joggers and a plain black t-shirt

When I walked into her room Jeremy was sitting on Elena's bed flipping through a sports magazine, with thousands of different brushes and little gadgets laying all over the place. Jeremy looked up from his magazine and smiled evilly at me making me feel a little bit more nervous.

" Should I be worried?" I asked unsurely. Jeremy snorted, got up and wrapped one arm around my shoulder in a brotherly way.

" Let's just say that you wouldn't recognise yourself when she's done with you." I snorted and slapped his arm playfully. And as if on cue Elena walked in carrying a basket full of different types of make-up.

Elena smiled enthusiastically at me and sat me down in front of her dressing table. " Don't worry Bella, Jeremy's just trying to scare you." Elena said as she pulled my hair into a tight pony tail. I laughed half-heartedly and Elena started on my make-up.

( Jeremy's pov)

I couldn't help but smile like a goof while Elena worked on Bella. Bella's face was just too priceless. Elena paid attention to every single detail of Bella's face before she started on the make-up. If only I had a video camera.

I wasn't too excited about Bella's date with Mat. Not that I had any feels towards Bella in a romantic way, I was just a little bit worried if he hurt her. I didn't like it when Bella or Elena was in any pain, emotionally or physically. But can you really blame me with all the trouble that has happened while Bella was away. Thank god there hadn't been anymore drama episodes lately.

Though something odd was going on with Damon and Bella. Elena hadn't noticed and I'm not too sure about Stefan, but I knew something was going on between them. I just wasn't sure what it was.

( Four hours later…)

After four long and boring hours Bella's make-up, hair and clothes were finally done. Her lips were red and shinny, around her eyes was brown eye shadow, her eye lashes were dark and extremely long, her hair was pulled into a neat bun with some strains of hair falling gently around her face. She looked like a completely different person…she looked like an angel.

" Are you sure about this Elena? I don't want to go looking like a fruit tart." Bella said as she looked at herself in the mirror. I laughed as I walked up to Bella and placed my hand gently on her shoulder.

" Awww Bells don't say that. You look better than a fruit tart." I laughed as she groaned and brushed my hand off of her.

" Your not helping" Elena sang as she put away some of the used make-up.

You could totally see how nervous Bella was no matter how hard she tried to hide it. Her hands were slightly shaking and you could faintly see tiny beads of sweat on her forehead. Elena sighed, picked up a piece of tissue and dabbed gently at Bella's forehead.

" Look Bella, you need to stop shaking before you bring the house down! I know it's a date and its natural to be nervous but its Mat and you didn't even want to go on the date in the first place, so what is there to be nervous about?" Elena said firmly as she walked Bella downstairs. Bella frowned to herself and sighed, shaking her head.

" I don't know what I'm so nervous about. I guess since I don't really want to go on the date. I must be worried in case Mat tries to pull something. Like, puts his arm around me during the movie, or tries to hold my hand or…or tries to kiss me or something." Bella screeched.

Me and Elena looked at each other worriedly of a moment and looked back at Bella. Elena put her arm around Bella comfortingly as I made sure Bella was standing steady enough.

" Bells if something like that happens, then you just have to let him down gently or… you can just call me and I'll come running with my shot gun heavy loaded." I joked. Bella laughed and put her free arm around my waist and hugged me tightly.

" Thanks Jer." Bella whispered softly to me.

" Your welcome Bells." I whispered back.

After that the door bell rang making us all jump in surprise. We all gave Bella one last hug before she went to answer the door.

" Hey Bella. Wow you look beautiful!" Mat said from outside.

"Thanks" Bella's lips turned into a small smile.

Just before Bella walked out of the door me and Elena both shouted "bye" and "have fun". The moment Bella was out the door silence filled the air. We both sat down wordlessly on the sofa and turned the T.V on. " Bella will be alright" a voice in my head shouted.

It was probably right… I hope.

( Alright there we go. Personally I thought it sucked but who cares. Again sorry for not updating sooner I don't really have an explanation for it. Oh yeah and compulsion does NOT work on Bella. Okay so I promise that I'll update sooner next time and I hope you enjoyed the chapter. Xxxx )