For Kili his new job was nerve-wracking. He was stuck everyday in the office with the most handsome man he had ever seen. His hair was like gold, and his eyes we an unusual shade of blue, a very vibrant colour but always cold towards him. The last four weeks were a living hell. He loved the job, he loved the challenge it posed to him, but his boss was a different story. He was cold and official, he was demanding. More demanding than any other person Kili had worked for in the past. He did not mind the long working hours. He did not mind getting first hand practice at things he was learning about, but he did mind the cold stiff atmosphere in the office. He was used to joking and laughing, he was used to working with Bilbo in his restaurant where it was all light mood every day. He felt a huge temptation to try to make this man's cold face show any other emotion. But he knew he needed this job. He loved Bilbo but working in the restaurant was just a mid stop in his life. This job would pay his collage bills and pay off the loan he got from Bilbo. This job would give him the most valuable job experience possible. Working in Erebor inc was like a mile stone in anyone's career, and his physical attraction to his boss could only ruin any possible career. He heard about the last secretary who tried to molest him, and that's why he was hired. A man instead of a woman. He didn't care, he was in the best office in the city and he would hold onto the job. Every day was like a new test, and eating dinner with him and staying late was yet another test. He wondered how long he would be kept at work, and what other boring tasks he would get. He would manage fine with them all in the morning, he never had a problem doing his tasks on time. Working here was challenging, but Kili had the IQ to back it up. He tried to focus on what was going on, on the eating and on the job. The job. He kept reminding himself. He promised himself to keep this job.
"I need to finish the report on Helifax, you may go home." His boss finally told him. Clearly he had no more ideas what task to give him.
"I can prepare the initial report." The boy offered.
"Fine. But if you do it wrong you're going to have to write it again." Fili told him trying not to show irritation the boy wanted to stay longer.
He went back into his office and gave the boy a part of the files. He sat back down onto his chair knowing there was no chance in hell he could focus on work again. He pretended to be reading the files, but he was observing the boy the whole time. He was trying hard, he had the folder in his lap and he was typing really fast. The boy looked so cute, when we was sitting like that clearly focused on what he was writing. Fili just wanted to stop thinking about him, he wanted this person out of his life or in his bed immediately. The out part was easier done that the other scenario. But the other scenario was so tempting. Thinking about the boy, looking at him focused and so cute, Fili was tempted to fulfill his desire to stroke himself. He was hoping the boy would go after dinner, then he would just go home and satisfy himself. Suddenly the boy stopped for a moment and clearly he was reading. Then he smiled widely, and made two or three corrections and transferred the file to his boss's computer. He got up and went to report to his boss. Fili briefly glanced at the file feeling surprised, it was very well written, but he couldn't fully focus. The boy was standing there at the doorway waiting for his reaction, and Fili regretted making that threat, now he had to immediately tell the boy his opinion. "I'll read it in the morning. You may go home." Fili told him. But the boy didn't move. Kili was transfixed with the first real emotion he saw in this man. He stood there like an idiot, not being able to move his eyes away from his boss's eyes. He saw tiredness, he saw irritation, he saw desire, but he also saw coldness at the same time. He suddenly felt out of place, he suddenly felt anxiety hit him hard. This was not something he was ready to deal with. He wanted a job without any complications, he could control his own emotions, he could keep his hands to himself. He wanted to pay his college fees and he wanted to pay back Bilbo. Kili desperately tried to focus on what was important to him.
Fili could see the play of emotions in the boy's eyes, a wide variety starting from the need for acceptance, curiosity, intellect and finally fear. Fili saw the conflict on the boy's face, as if he was tempted to stay longer, but pushed to run away at the same time.
"You'd better leave." He told the boy, feeling the need to get rid of him immediately. If he waited any longer he would be tempted to act on the urges he felt deep inside. Kili saw those blue eyes go darker and more serious. The insensitivity of that gaze made him shiver. Those words spoken so callously were a message Kili knew how to interpret. Either he left and never would be approached like this again, or he could stay. He could stay, and he could get what he really wanted risking losing his job at the same time. He breathed in deeply, and weighed his options. An affair with his boss no matter how delightful was a huge risk. But the shivers coming down his spine were telling him it was one chance in a lifetime. He never felt this kind of attraction ever before, and he had a feeling he would never feel this lust ever again.