Tohru bit her lip and glanced back at Yuki who stood behind her on her grandfather's porch. He smiled at her and gave her hand a reassuring squeeze, letting her know it'd be okay. She could only smile weakly in return. She didn't want to tell her grandfather she was pregnant. She really didn't want to, yet she had to. He deserved to know she had a child along the way at the very least. After all, she had already gone through the process without his consent, and he was her legal guardian. She took a deep breath and knocked softly on the door hoping he wouldn't be angry at her.
Within seconds after she knocked the door opened and Tohru came face to face with her aunt. She couldn't help but subconsciously let out a sigh of relief when she saw that it wasn't her grandpa. An hour, a minute, even a second longer without seeing her grandpa would help her calm down. It would be nice to have the chance to breathe and catch her breath. At the moment, it was like she was choking, being suffocated by nothing other than her own anxiety. Tohru stared blankly at her for a minute before bowing and greeting her.
"Hello Tohru-san, what do you need?" her aunt asked.
"Umm… Is grandpa home at the moment?" Tohru asked meekly.
"Oh yes… Now I remember… He's been expecting you…" she mumbled and stepped away from the door to allow Tohru to enter. Tohru bowed again before walking inside and removing her shoes. Yuki hesitated before following after her. He had already offered to go with her so she wouldn't be so scared; now was not the time to get nervous. He felt the need to go with her to help her explain her situation since he had a pretty big role in her pregnancy. Mimicking Tohru's politeness and respect, Yuki bowed to her aunt as well. For the first time, her aunt seemed to notice Yuki was even there. She blushed slightly at him before looking away and leading them to the living room where Tohru's grandpa was seated in an armchair.
"Kyoko! How are you? Come come, have a seat with your friend!" her grandpa urged her over as he set down his cup of tea.
She nodded and took the seat on the couch across from him. He was acting so friendly and open; Tohru could only pray that his mood wouldn't change after he heard her news. Tohru had given him no hints or suggestions whatsoever when she had called her grandpa to tell him she was going to come over. She had been overly vague; luckily her grandfather was free and agreed to let her come. The little courage she had gained from Yuki had completely vanished when she looked at her grandpa. Yuki sat down beside her and greeted her grandfather calmly. Her grandfather exchanged a few words with Yuki while Tohru worked on calming her nerves.
"Now that you have caught your breath Kyoko-san, what is it that you want to discuss with me?"
"Umm… grandpa… I went to the doctor a few months ago… and… umm…" Tohru struggled to say that she was pregnant.
Yuki turned towards her waiting for her to say something. He could see the beads of sweat trailing down her face. She looked like a nervous wreck; he would have told the old man for her, but it wasn't in his position to tell him of her important news. Her grandpa stared at her, his forehead wrinkling out of worry. After all, she had just stopped after she told him she had gone to the doctor. He had no idea what she was going to tell him. It almost looked like she was going to tell him she had some fatal disease from the fearful look on her face. Tohru avoided the pairs of eyes from the two men in the room. She couldn't get the words out her mouth.
"Tohru, do you have something wrong with you?" her grandpa asked in a concerned voice.
"Oh no! I'm pregnant!" Tohru cried. Her eyes widened along with her grandpa's. She clasped her hand over her mouth in horror. That was not how she was supposed to tell him. She was supposed to slowly lead up to her news not blurt it out like that. Tohru had even come up with a whole plan last night when she was supposedly sleeping. All those lines she had come up with obviously weren't needed now. Peeking up at her grandpa she got the hint at how taken aback he was by how large his eyes were. He practically looked like he just had a heart attack.
"Umm… Well… You see… It's not what you think… I didn't get pregnant because I had s-se-sex… for f-fun…" Tohru stuttered a bright shade of red painted over her cheeks.
"She has a medical condition is what she means… Here are her doctor forms," Yuki explained calmly and clearly. He reached over to Tohru and took the manila out of her trembling hands and handed it to her grandfather. He flipped through the pages, no readable expression passing by his face. Tohru stared down at her skirt. She gripped the hem of her skirt nervously awaiting her grandfather's reaction. She wished she was as calm as Yuki appeared to be at the moment. Then again, it was probably easier to tell a stranger than your own family member about a pregnancy, but at the same time, talking to a stranger could be twice as nerve wrecking. Especially if one wanted to impress that stranger, but Tohru doubted Yuki had any feelings towards her so there was no point in wanting her grandpa to think highly of him.
Her grandfather looked so small and frail as he held the folder with hands almost as shaky as hers. As her grandfather looked through the medical forms and whatever other papers inside of the folder related to her pregnancy, Yuki spotted her aunt and her female cousin staring at them from the doorframe. He looked away from them with a half roll of his eyes. They thought they were hidden so well, but the truth was, he thought they were the worst eavesdroppers he had ever met. Even from his spot across the room from them he could hear them whispering. Tohru seemed to be the only one who was oblivious to their presence.
"What do you think they're here for?"
"I don't know… Maybe if you weren't talking to me we could've heard what Tohru blurted out."
"You don't think they're here because they're getting married or something, do you?"
"Ew mom… Why would any guy like him like her? Especially when I'm right here… Jeez…"
How they were regarding Tohru, their own blood and family, disgusted Yuki. He felt the need to talk to them about it but refrained himself from moving away from Tohru. She needed him here to give her support more than she needed him to defend her from her own family. Her grip around his fingers was tightening with each passing second. Yuki glanced at her, his grey eyes overflowing with concern. He wrapped his fingers around hers securely trying to calm her down, but all he managed to do was make her cheeks flush. As the two woman continued to converse with each other about ideas of why Yuki and Tohru were here, they missed every word exchanged between the threesome in the living room.
"So you must be the father of Tohru's only child then?" Tohru's grandpa said to Yuki once he set down the papers.
Yuki nodded nonchalantly. Tohru looked up and swallowed nervously expecting her grandfather to speak to her next, but he didn't. She cocked her head to the side curiously wondering why he wasn't talking to her. Maybe he didn't want to express his anger at her when Yuki was around. She gazed at Yuki then to her grandfather but they both seemed calm. Neither of them looked mad at her. Still, she was concerned. She wanted to know what her grandfather thought, but he continued to talk to Yuki instead.
"Will you be marrying my granddaughter then? Are you going to take responsibility of the child or are you going to leave them both to struggle on their own?" her grandfather demanded in the firmest voice she had ever heard him use.
Yuki opened his mouth to give an answer, but Tohru cut in before he could get a word out. She was so baffled and caught off guard by the question. Her grandfather wasn't supposed to ask something like that to Yuki. She couldn't let Yuki think he had that responsibility, not after he was being so helpful and supportive. There was no way Yuki would go that far with this. Surly he'd get tired of playing house with her if he did marry her. What would she do then? She was already so used to him being around and helping her. If he did marry her and assist her with the baby, that help would be something she'd expect and not be grateful for anymore. Then he'd get sick of it and abandon her. What would she do then? Tohru didn't want to find out what she'd do. She couldn't let him do any of the things her grandfather asked him of. It was going to be too much trouble for him, and it'd be too hard for her to ever let him go.
"No!" She blurted out suddenly.
Both Yuki and her grandfather stared at her oddly. Yuki blinked not understanding why she would respond for him. That wouldn't have been what he would have said if she had just given him the chance. Maybe he wasn't ready to get married now, maybe he wasn't ready to be a father, but that didn't mean she was prepared for either of those things. One day he would be ready for all of those responsibilities if she gave him the chance. Maybe it wasn't about how he felt but rather how she felt. It could always be that she didn't want him to be her husband and to support her. The worries flooding the two young parent's minds were so similar like a mirror image. All the while, her grandfather eyed her strangely urging her to explain her outburst.
"Umm… I mean I'll be fine on my own! Yuki-kun doesn't have to go to all that trouble!" Tohru mumbled glancing down at her feet. She was getting uncomfortable once again and after she was feeling a little better about being here. Everything was not going to plan. All she had managed to do was blurt out she was pregnant, no, and embarrass herself numerous times. Yuki smiled at her opening his mouth to tell her something, but once again he was cut off. This time it was Tohru's grandfather who decided to speak when Yuki had something to say. Obviously something didn't want him to say anything.
"Well… If that is what you want please call me if you need any money to support yourself and the child," her grandfather said with a half smile.
"Oh no! I couldn't ask you to do that! I'll work hard for money!" Tohru cried waving her hands in front of her face.
Yuki and her grandpa exchanged disapproving looks. Tohru gasped and bit the nails of both her hands. What had been so wrong about what she had just said? Did they both think she was incapable of working and caring for the baby? She knew she was young, she knew she was inexperienced, but she felt she could learn to be a good mother. But if they both doubted her capabilities, maybe she really wasn't cut out to be a mother. She'd have to try though. Besides, money didn't grow on trees no matter how much she wanted them to. Work was the only way to earn money so she could support the baby. Her grandfather had already done too much for her, she couldn't ask him to give her money. That would make her take advantage of her grandpa's kindness.
"Tohru-chan, you can't do that," her grandfather told her with a firm frown.
"Umm… Why not?" Tohru whispered nervously.
"You can't go to work and leave the child alone, can you now?" he asked slowly.
"Oh, if you want to work or something I can help you watch over the baby or whatever," Yuki offered even though he didn't like the idea of her working now that she was pregnant nor did he really want her to work when she had a baby. The moment of saying he'd help her for as long as she wanted him to, was gone. There was no point in saying that now and making her and himself embarrassed. This was good enough for now. He'd tell her someday that'd he'd be there for her until she found someone else to care for her and the baby. Until then, until someone could replace him as father he'd be there, and even if no one ever showed to take his place, he wouldn't mind helping her forever. She grinned at him placing her hands together ecstatically.
"Yay! Really? That would be wonderful Yuki-kun! …But I promise to move out and take care of things on my own so you don't have to go to all that trouble for long!" Tohru exclaimed the last part once she realized that she was depending on him again.
"Tohru, don't worry about that. You'll always have a permanent place to stay at Shigure's place, you know that right?" Yuki smiled at her. At least he had said that much, it was better than nothing at all. That way, at the least, she knew she was welcome back at any time. Actually, he kind of hoped that she wouldn't leave. Not only would the house return to its natural state as a disaster, but he, Shigure, and even Kyo had grown so used to her being around. It would be weird living there without her. It would be strange, and he'd miss her a lot. All of the three men would miss her if she left.
Tohru glanced down again bashfully and nodded hesitantly. She couldn't very well stay with them forever. For now, she needed to hear that it was okay that she was staying with them though. At least she knew that Yuki didn't mind her being there, but what about Shigure and Kyo when he came back? How would Shigure feel? Would he be annoyed if the baby cried at night? And Kyo, what would his feelings toward the whole pregnancy be? He hated Yuki, his reaction couldn't be good.
"Well, then that's settled," Tohru's grandpa smiled lacing his fingers together on top of his lap.
"Eh? That's it?"
"What else do you expect me to say? Get an abortion, I don't approve of you having a child now?" Her grandfather replied with a grin.
She just shook her head from side to side in refusal. She couldn't lose her only child. Besides, abortion was wrong. The embryo was alive; it'd grow into a living human. How could anyone manage to end a child's life like that? Then again, that was just her opinion. Tohru smiled, stood up, and bowed to her grandfather. Now she realized, the whole time she really didn't have anything to worry about. She was lucky to have such an understanding grandpa, and for that she'd be grateful. But now she was simply tired. Having worried so much about telling her grandpa Tohru had wasted all her energy tossing and turning in her bed last night. She was ready for a long nap as soon as she got home. Yuki stood up when he saw her rise, ready to help her walk if she was as tired as she appeared to be.
"Ready to go
home?"
"Yes… Let's go home…"
