wicksy chapter 3
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Chapter 3
Carol jumped to her feet, she looked angry, she took her drink from the table and walked over to Davids open arms "that was the most transparent bullshit I have ever had the misfortune of hearing" she whispered proceeding to pour the glass full of gin and tonic over his head.
"Carol" he managed to splutter "Carol, the cancers gone now its just me and you!" He yelled the words.
Wrong words!
Carol spun round, a grin spread across her face "so that's why your back?" She said these words freely, this man clearly didn't love her.
"I didn't mean it like that Carol!" Yelled David watching her walk away, he was use to this now, women walking away...
"Fuck sake" he grumbled
The thought of living without Carol made his stomach clench painfully "I fucking love you woman don't you understand!" He yelled, his voice seemed to eco, at least that's how it sounded to him "Carol, don't walk away" he sobbed, tears began to form in his deep dark eyes.
"Take a few minutes mate" advised Mick placing his hand on Davids shoulder "give her time"
David nodded and wiped his tears away, sniffing them away he tried to look like he didn't care "I love her" he muttered dropping to the knees, placing his head in his hands "what more can I do!"
Mick as always was sympathetic "come upstairs mate, we can talk" he said with a smile, Mick and David didn't know each other from Adam, but in Davids eyes that wasn't a bad thing.
He would normally be happy to have a chat with Mick, or anyone but not tonight, tonight he had to win Carol back, he raced after her, grabbing her, stopping her "I should have paid more attention, I wasn't trying to hide, nothing I seem to say ever comes out right, I don't want to push you away" he cried breaking down again.
"Please don't push me away! Not again! I won't let you!" He was now back on his knees, begging her.
But all she did was look down at him, like he was nothing, a stray flea bitten hound would probably get more attention.
"David, your not wanted here" uttered Carol, no emotion could be heard as these words spilled out "just go" she said slowly turning and walking away.
"Carol!" Yelled David "we could have something! I want to try! I won't fuck it up this time" his voice could be heard in the heavens above, he really did want to try, he couldn't live without her, he knew that she knew that, maybe she was just playing him or perhaps she really had lost all sense of reality.
Of course the second thought here was spinning around David's brain, it gave him hope.
"Let's start again! One step at a time!" He croaked, he tears were blinding him, he was choking on his own tears.
In his mind he was trying to convince himself that love was there, he knew on his part it was, it was like having a terminal illness, you try to convince people there is hope when really there is no hope, you just have to make the best of things.
Was this one of those situations? He asked himself.
The night dragged on, David walked the streets, even though he had somewhere to go, he wasn't ready to sleep, lying in bed would make his brain work overtime, he knew trying to sleep would frustrate him, he didn't want to sleep, he was to tired to sleep.
He thought back to his childhood when his mum would go out of an evening, he would often wonder when she would return, sometimes she never did and he was left alone to fend for himself, these memories hurt, they cut like a knife, a sharpened sward penetrating every internal organ he had, of course he didn't want to hate his mum.
"We all make mistakes" he muttered to himself shoving his hands into his pockets.
"Mine are just bigger than other peoples" he continued talking to himself as he realised how crazy he sounded.
He found a nice quiet spot on Walford common, he felt uneasy, he knew something terrible had happened here, Lucy, his half brothers daughter was found dead here, he took a moment to take in the surroundings, could she have been killed here? Or was the body just dragged and dumped here? He sat for a moment thinking how easy it would be to kill someone...
Everyone in this world is capable, we can stand in the kitchen holding a sharp knife, looking at the person stood before us, we know we could stab them, the right point of entry would kill them instantly, someone standing waiting for a train could easily be pushed onto the tracks into the path of a moving train.
He sat there, his mind wondering, these are scenarios that could happen to any of us at any time, he hugged himself.
"I just want Carol to love me" he sobbed, the tears, the hurt, the betrayal from years gone by started to hit him, they hit him hard, how many more times can he fuck up?
He hated himself, he needed to stop hiding and have the guts to be himself, to show Carol nothing could ever get in there way, to stand up and really show his true colours, one thing was for sure, he wasn't going to give up.
He pulled out his phone
*I won't push you away, I love you xxx* he was blinded by tears writing this, his heart was beating ten to the dozen when he pressed send...
Standing up, he walked towards the road, the common seemed to stretch on forever, he had a blank vacant look in his eyes "I don't want to push you away" he muttered as he walked on, looking up at the sky, he silently prayed, to his mum, she wasn't the best mother in the world, but she was still his mum.
"I don't know what to do mum" he said looking up at the sky, he was praying for an answer, a sign! Anything! "Mum!" He cried "your never there for me!" He yelled hitting the air.
Suddenly he felt a chill run down his spine, spinning round his eyes scanned the deserted common, at least he thought it was deserted until now "who's there?" He muttered glancing round, he could hear breathing, heavy breathing.
"Is someone there?" He called feeling a little spooked, he held his breath for a moment, long enough to hear the sound of approaching footsteps from behind him.
He casually turned and saw a shadow, the outline of a person soon came into view.
"Who are you?" He quizzed the mysterious character stood just a few feet before him.
The figure didn't answer, it began to move slowly forwards towards him, David could hear the leaves crunching under the persons feet.
He quickly turned away and began speed walking, his walk soon broke into a run, he high tailed it as fast as he could back to the square, stopping for a second or two to catch his breath now and then, he didn't look back...
Once back in the square he headed for the gardens, he was surprised at how fit he actually was, he took a small bottle of whisky from his inside pocket and took a few swigs.
"Fuck it" he muttered "I'm going to win Carol back and I'm going to do it now"
He bravely walked to Carols house, standing outside starting to feel the effect of the whisky he burst into song...
Can't believe we're standing here...
Saying that we're leaving...
While holding back the tears...
I remember everything we've shared...
Through all the years...
Why does it have to end this way...
Is this the bitter pill...
That we have to take...
And now we've come this far...
Is this the price we pay...
Can we win it back again...
So don't walk away...
We can save our love...
If we just keep the faith...
Let's turn the tide...
Before it's too late...
Don't let it go...
Don't walk away...
"DAVID! What in the name of the lord are you doing!" Wailed Carol her head poking out of her bedroom window.
"I'm doing the great fucking northern run! What does it look like I'm doing!" Shouted David closing his eyes and continuing...
Some times we don't see our eye to eye...
And in the past, we may have danced a little out of time...
And after all the different roads we've walked together...
Let's make it right...
Let's start tonight...
So don't walk away...
We can save our love...
If we just keep the faith...
Let's turn the tide...
Before it's too late...
Don't let it go...
Don't walk away...
All it takes is understanding...
The answer's right there in our hearts...
We can reach a new horizon...
If we keep the hope alive...
So don't walk away...
We can save our love...
If we just keep the faith...
Let's turn the tide...
Before it's too late...
Don't let it go...
Don't walk away...
He finished his performance, not noticing he had managed to hold Carols attention for so long, this only became apparent when he opened his eyes and he saw her stood before him, tears filling her eyes.
He gave her his puppy dog look "its just you and me darling" he started "its always going to be you and me, it always has been" he held his arms open, his face held a begging expression "come back to me Carol" he sobbed.
Carol took a few steps forward "David" she uttered...
Wow... So what will Carols decision be?
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