I'm Pregnant – Peter

Lucian could only stare at the male doctor sitting in front of her, her mouth hanging down from what he'd just told her. It wasn't possible. She can't be pregnant.

"Are you sure that I'm really pregnant?" Lucian ask once more, making sure she wasn't imagining this all.

"Yes." The doctor nods his head. "I'll say it in a simpler way. Miss Caelum, you are one month pregnant. It's a bit hard to understand if I were to say it in this world's time, since the random change of day changes randomly."

"Oh no." Lucian sigh weakly as she covers her face with her hands. She felt her stomach twisting at the thought of her begin pregnant. She knew who impregnate her and she can't blame him. She took part in it too.

"Miss Caelum?" The male doctor blinks and gets up from his chair, making his way to Lucian's side. "Are you alright?" He lightly pats her shoulder.

"Y-Yeah." Lucian nods her head weakly. "I'm just surprised, that's all."

"Do not worry. I will help you through your pregnancy." The doctor begins to rub her back, trying to soothe her as much as he can. "I know you are too young to be a mother. If you want, we can do an abortion."

"No!" Lucian cries out. There's no way she could do that to an innocent life that hasn't even come out to this world. That's just cruel.

Yeah, she may have killed faceless people during while she is in Wonderland, but she had good reasons in killing them. They were hurting her friends and family.

"No…" Lucian sigh and slumps against the sofa she was sitting on. "I can't do that…"

"I understand." The doctor smiles. He won't push his patience if they don't want to. But seeing the fear in Lucian's eyes, he just thought that it might do her some good if she was to do an abortion. "Seeing as you want to keep the baby, then we will proceed with taking cautious steps to make sure that you deliver the child healthy into this world."

"…." Lucian bit her lower lip. How will she tell this to the Prime Minister of the Heart Castle? They aren't even together.

The only man she had sex with in this world is Peter White. It wasn't out of their love for each other.

No.

They never had those between them.

It happened during the event that was being held in the Heart Castle. Every Role Holders were invited. Of course Black and White had to drag Lucian with them when she told them that she wasn't interested. She didn't want to go because she had developed a little feeling for Peter. She didn't know when it happened but she knew she couldn't keep her feelings for him forever and wait for him to accept her.

Because she knew that he was still waiting for Alice to return. Everyone knew that Alice wasn't going to return to Wonderland ever, but none dared to say it. Most of them moved on, but not Peter.

So Lucian decided to push off her feelings for Peter. But whenever she see him, her heart would raise up. She hated that she liked him. She didn't want to make Peter fall for her when he still loves Alice.

Lucian didn't want to be selfish.

So she ignores the pain inside her whenever she meets Peter. Her little love for him would soon go away. At least that's what she thought until she went to the ball in the Heart Castle.

She wanted to leave the ball and be in a quitter place, and that's what she was about to do, but Ace caught her before she could step out of the door.

Not wanting to make her best friend sad, she stayed a little longer.

Ace being Ace, gave her something to drink when he saw that she wasn't enjoying the party. He didn't tell her what the drink is when she asked him what she was holding in her hand. All he said to her was the drink is delicious and enjoy the night. He didn't know that Lucian is weak with alcohol when he gave her that drink that looks like fruit punch.

Having drank one full glass of strong alcohol was all it took for Lucian to feel all tipsy. She went to look for Black and White but they were nowhere to be found in the ballroom. So she decided to sneak out of the room without the Role Holders knowing.

She wanted to get some fresh air but ended up getting lost in the huge castle. However she did found a room that happens to be open. She walked inside and headed to the balcony. She never knew that she entered Peter's room.

She enjoyed the fresh air hitting her face as she gazed up to the night sky, not hearing the footsteps of someone entering the room. She was still tipsy and all. She thought that she could catch one of the stars in the night sky and reaches her hand out, leaning forward on the railings.

However she was yanked back by someone. She felt something hard and warm on her back and when she looked up she saw Peter glaring at her. He had his arms wrap around her body. She only looked at him with half open eyes.

Peter asked what she was trying to do and that she was stupid for leaning on the railings. She was about to fall over if he didn't get to her in time. All she gave him was a smile before looking back up to the night sky, saying that it was pretty.

Now Peter was a bit drunk too. He had a few glass to drink in the ballroom. He doesn't usually drink in the event but he decided to relax today and forget about everything.

Forget about Alice, forget about his broken heart, and forget about all his problems.

He was going to rest in his room when he saw a figure in his balcony. Apparently that figure happens to be Lucian. When he saw what she was trying to do he rushed to her and pulled her back. He didn't really care about her as much as the others do. But he didn't want to be responsible for her death when the Role Holders finds out that she fell off his balcony.

He didn't want to anger both the Jokers. He knew the two cares deeply for the silver-white haired woman in his arms. She smells delightful by the way, like cherry blossom during spring.

When she looked back at him with a beautiful smile on her face, it made him lose his breath for a moment. Her flush face and the way her eyes twinkles under the moonlight, and the way she looks at him was slowly turning him on.

Lucian wasn't fully thinking at that moment. She was enjoying being in the arms of the person she likes. She didn't really remember much of what she said to Peter that night, but, she did remember her body being slammed against the wall, the heated kiss Peter was giving her, his hot breath hitting her skin, his tongue roaming down her lips all the way down to her woman hood.

After their heated make out in the balcony she remember being thrown to the bed, Peter on top of her, kissing her everywhere he could. Her dress being torn off by Peter, the lust in his eyes was something that she remembered the most. She didn't know what got into him to ravage her body, but she didn't mind. She enjoyed it.

She also remembered something hard rubbing against her thighs and the groans coming from Peter. Then she found out what that hard thing is when he thrust inside her without any warning.

It hurt like hell and she wanted to push him off because he was ripping her inside. But Peter never made any attempt in removing himself out of her. He heard her cry out in pain, but he comforted her by saying loving words and that the pain will go away soon.

Well Peter was right. Because the pain soon went away and was replaced by pure pleasure. That night they went all out. She screamed his name, he did the same, she scratched his back and he loved it.

By the end of their love making, both were really tired and Peter wasn't thinking when he blurted out Alice's name in front of Lucian. She also remembered that one moment.

One thing Peter found out after that night was that he took her virginity away. And he felt guilty. However, it got them a bit closer, but there was still a barrier between them.

~…You and I…~

A few time changes after Lucian visited the doctor, she was invited by Vivaldi to have a tea party with her in the Heart Castle. Of course she had no choice but to go.

She didn't want to see Peter, but when she got to the Heart Castle he was the first one to greet her. After that night, the two of them never talked about it. Peter didn't force her, and neither did she.

"Hey." Lucian faked a smile upon seeing Peter in the gate.

"Her Majesty is already in the garden waiting for you." Peter said.

"Okay, thanks for telling me."

"Let's go."

When Lucian and Peter got to the garden, Vivaldi greeted her with a smile. She ordered Peter to leave as she wishes to have some quality time with Lucian alone.

Once Peter and the soldiers left, Vivaldi turns her attention back to Lucian who was fidgeting in her chair. Vivaldi knew she didn't have much time to talk to Lucian so she needed to do this quick.

She knew.

"Lucian." Vivaldi softly says her name.

"Yes?" Lucian looks up and sees a gentle expression on Vivaldi's face. Why was she looking at her like that? "What is it?"

"Tell me the truth. Are you pregnant?"

Vivaldi's words were like daggers hitting her chest. How did she know?

"W-What?"

"Don't be scared." Vivaldi continues on. "We saw you in town that day while we were having a little stroll. We know the clinic you went to. Now…are you pregnant?"

At that moment, Lucian bursts into tears. "Y-Yes." She nods her head, wiping the tears in her eyes. "I-I'm p-pregn-nant…"

"Oh sweetie." Vivaldi moves to her side and hugs Lucian in her arms. "There's no need to cry. We are sorry for asking you, we just want to know so we could help you."

"It's n-not that…" Lucian shakes her head. "I haven't told the father…and even if I wanted to I can't."

"The father…?" Vivaldi blinks and pulls away from Lucian. That one she didn't know yet...or does she? "Tell us, who is the father and why can't you tell him?"

"Because I don't want to be a burden to him."

"Why would you think that he would do that? We are sure that he'll be delighted to hear that he'll be a father."

"He won't." More tears came running down Lucian's face. There's no way Peter is going to accept her and their baby. He's freaking in love with Alice, not with Lucian.

"Who is the father?" Vivaldi asked. "Tell us, and we will punish him if he doesn't accept you and the baby. If it's Blood, we will kill him."

"No." Lucian shakes her head in distress. "It's not Blood."

"Then the Jokers?"

"Noo…it's Peter."

"!" Vivaldi gaps quietly, her eyes slightly wide open. She knew Peter is hardcore in love with Alice. All the Role Holders knew that fact. "W-what?"

"It was an accident." Lucian said. "I know he doesn't love me and I can accept that. That's why I don't want to tell him. I'm past my one month pregnancy. The doctor asked if I wanted to do an abortion and I said no. I can't take an innocent life away, especially if it's my child. I haven't told the others yet, but I'm sure Black and White are close to finding out. I've been throwing up, and White found me one day in the bathroom."

"Well…if you don't want to tell that man then it's okay. We know what he is. But do not worry, we will help you in everything we can with your pregnancy. We will support you. And we are sure that Jokers would do the same too."

After that the two women stayed in the garden a little longer, but Vivaldi had to leave for her duties. Lucian asked her if she could stay in the garden a little longer, and Vivaldi let her and even told her that a room have been prepared for her in the castle in case she decides to stay for the night.

Away from Lucian's hearing and eyesight range, Vivaldi looks up and sees Peter leaning against a light post with a grim expression on his face. "We don't know about you…but at least talk to her."

"You knew all along?" Peter lifts his red eyes towards Vivaldi. He heard everything because he was ordered by Vivaldi to wait in that spot. He didn't ask her the reason why and waited there for half an hour.

"I knew what happened the next day after the party." Vivaldi said. "Both you and Lucian acted quite odd. One of the maid saw Lucian walk into your room. And when you told us that you were retiring for the night during that party. It wasn't hard to figure it out. You were drunk that night and so was Lucian. I had to make sure that you really are the father of the child Lucian is carrying when we saw her in town. We had to hear it come out of her mouth. We were right all along." She crosses her arms and sigh.

"You heard everything. She doesn't want an abortion and will raise the baby by herself. She will not tell you because you know the answer to that already. However, you are still the father. You do not have to be with Lucian because I know you still love Alice. Take responsibility with your actions is all I ask."

With that Vivaldi walks away but not before sending a glare to Peter, a look that says that she will not hesitate to behead him if he hurts Lucian.

Peter sigh before walking towards Lucian who was lost in her little world. She didn't hear him, until he touched her by the shoulder. Her eyes were a bit red from her early cry.

"Would you like to take a little walk with me?" Peter ask.

"Huh?"

"Come." He pulls her up to her feet. "We'll walk for a few minutes only."

Lucian said nothing as she was drag towards the maze with Peter still holding her left wrist. Feeling uncomfortable by him holding her hand, she pulls her hand but only to be caught back by Peter. He didn't look back as he intertwines his fingers with Lucian's.

"…" Lucian blinks and looks at Peter. He never look back.

When they were inside the maze, Peter finally stop. He turns his body to Lucian and looks at her straight in the eyes. "Is there something that you are not telling me?" He ask.

Lucian looks down and pulls her hand out of Peter's grip. "N-no."

He can't find out.

But he already knows.

"Lucian." Peter takes a step forward but this only made Lucian step back.

"It's already late." Lucian said, hoping to change the subject. "I have to go home."

"It's only the afternoon." Peter said and he takes another step forward.

The next thing that happened is the once orange sky changes into night.

"Oh…now it's night time." Peter said unfazed by the sudden change of the sky.

"I…I really have to go home." Lucian said, trying to avoid Peter's gaze. She can feel him staring at her.

Seeing as she wasn't going to listen to him, he decided to do something else. He suddenly grabs her and pulls her to him, and their lips touches.

"!" Lucian's eyes slowly widen at the smooth lips on hers.

The two stayed like that for a few seconds with Peter deepening the kiss by slipping his tongue inside Lucian's mouth. He never closed his eyes, he kept watch of Lucian's expression as he kisses her.

Lucian couldn't keep her eyes open so she closes them. Even when she pulls away from him to get some air he would kiss her back immediately.

"Ah…" Lucian moans quietly under their kiss, her legs turning into jelly at the heated kiss they share. Peter supported her by wrapping his arms around her waist and shoulders.

When he thinks that he got her full attention, he finally pulls away but slowly. A string of saliva was the only thing that connected them. Lucian was breathing hard as she opens her eyes and looks at Peter. He leans down and licks her side lips before kissing the tip of her nose.

"I just wanted to hear the words come out of your mouth." Peter whispers to Lucian. "I know you're pregnant with my child. I also know that you aren't planning to tell me. I know what you're thinking. You don't want to tell me because you think that I still love Alice."

"…" Tears started forming in Lucian's eyes as she looks down. This is why she didn't want to tell Peter.

"Yes…I do still love Alice."

Lucian can already feel her heart shattering into million pieces. He didn't have to tell her. She knew. She knew that from the beginning.

"But it doesn't mean that I can't learn to move on and love a new person." Peter wipes that tears from Lucian's eyes with his thumb.

What is he saying now?

"Do you remember what you told me before we…before we had sex?"

"…No."

"You told me that I can tell you anything and that you'll listen to me. Just don't look sad all the time when I look at you. Well, will you listen to me?"

"…" Lucian nods her head and raises her head up. "I'll listen…"

"After that night…I…I don't know. I couldn't stop thinking about you. Ever since then I started comparing you to Alice. You're different from her. You don't hit me like she did when she was here. You don't try to push me away, you try your best in talking to me even when I was rude to you before. You smile at me, you accepted me for being a weirdo. You didn't look at me with a disgust look when you found out that I was obsess with Alice. You just smiled at me. You told me that there was nothing wrong with having an obsession, and that my obsession was another way of showing that I truly cared for Alice. Even after all those things you did, I ignored you until that night."

"…" Lucian could only stare at Peter. Does he mean what she is thinking right now?

"What I'm saying is…Lucian, give me a chance."

"!" That was all it took for Lucian to be in tears.

"I'll learn to love you as best as I can. It's going to be hard for me, but if you're with me I know I can move on. I know that I won't be the perfect partner nor will I be the perfect father for our child, but I'll try to do my best. If you just give me a chance…that's all I am asking. Lucian, I like you. And if you like me back then I'll-"

Peter never got to finish what he wanted to say as he was cut off by Lucian kissing him on the lips. There were tears running down her face as she kisses Peter.

Yes, she'll accept him. She'll accept him and give him a chance because she likes him too.

When she pulls away from Peter she wraps her arms around his neck and buries her face on the side of his neck. "Yes, yes. I like you too."

Peter's eyes fell halfway as he embraces Lucian back. "Thank you, Lucian." He kisses her cheek and her forehead as they embrace together under the nightsky. The stars and the moon are their witnesses for their love for one another.

There were also a few who witnessed the two. Three figure stood out in the balcony facing the garden, watching Peter and Lucian in the maze.

"Thank you for coming here both of you." Vivaldi smiles and looks back her shoulder.

Behind her stood Black and White.

"We just want to make sure that Lucian finds happiness with Peter." White said and he looks back to the maze.

"Well, if the rabbit didn't do anything today, I would have thrown him in my jail and kill him afterward." Black crossed his arms, his eye staring down at the two in the maze. "Clown and I knew that Lucian was pregnant with that bastard's child."

"How?" Vivaldi ask.

"We look into Lucian's mind." White answers. "I have to admit, I wanted to rip Peter's head off after seeing that night in Lucian's mind. But I'll forgive him."

"Heh." Black smiles with a smug look. "He better be prepare when he talks to us. I ain't gonna let him off the hook that easily. I'll give him something to remind himself not to ever hurt Lucian in the future."

~…You and I…~