The pain in my chest multiplied hundredfold. Love? Love? Love? Ok, I had not heard her right. I'm hearing things. Love?! I hadn't even thought of that. I just knew that I really cared about Olivia and I knew that I was extremely attracted to every single part of her.
"You love me?" I asked uncertainly.
Olivia looked at me.
"It doesn't matter does it." Olivia said, she had tears in her eyes and it seemed like she was trying hard not to let them fall. "You want to break up because you want to be Becki."
"What!?" I yelled, that had really come out of nowhere.
"Don't even try lie to me." Olivia said angrily. "I see how you look at her and sure as hell see and know what she wants from you."
"I don't want Becki." I through gritted teeth.
I didn't really want her, she was just a distraction. That was it. I was sure of it.
"Then, if it isn't Becki, why are we breaking up?" Olivia asked. "I thought we were good. Happy. I mean these two weeks have been the best two weeks ever and that has got all to do with you. It's got to do with us."
It had been my happiest two weeks too but it was all based from deception and lying.
"We can't be together because I'm not being totally honest about who I am." I said truthfully.
Olivia frowned. I think that caught her off guard because she was probably expecting the usual excuses.
"What does that even mean?"
"It means that I can't be with you." I said. "I'm sorry."
"You're sorry?" Olivia said, frowning. "You're breaking up with me because your incapable of being fucking honest?!"
I was taken aback by her swearing, she rarely did and I knew that when she did, she was seriously angry. I didn't help me at all, not because of Olivia's ire but because it totally turned me on when she was angry, her eyes were like fiery blue flames.
I looked at her once more and then walked past her into the restaurant. The guys yelled when the saw and started fooling around. Duke was smiling, looking very happy with Sarah sitting next to him.
"Hey, Sebastian. Took your time." Duke said.
"I had to deal with something." I said with a quick false smile.
"Are you going to introduce me?" Sarah asked beside Duke with a smile.
"Oh yeah, this is Sebastian Hastings." Duke said, looking at me with a smile and then looked back at Sarah, his eyes literally sparkling. "This is Sarah Cooper."
The way they looked at each other, made it seem like they'd been together for years, not a couple of years. I could tell they already loved one another. It made me happy to see Duke like this, he deserved it. I took Sarah's outstretched hand and we shared a smile.
"It's nice to meet you." Sarah said.
"And you." I said. "Did you enjoy the match?"
"It was good, you're all a great team." Sarah said. "Especially the way you and Duke play together, that assist you did was amazing."
"You noticed that?" I said with a smile, looking at Duke smugly who rolled his eyes in return.
"It wasn't that much of an assist." Duke stated grudgingly.
"It was a total assist." I said with a smile.
I noticed Olivia had come back and sat down with her friends. They were crowded around her. I couldn't see her but the way they kept giving me dirty looks, told me that they knew. I felt ashamed. It had to be done though, didn't it? I just couldn't keep lying to her.
Duke was frowning, looking between me and Olivia table. God, I didn't need a lecture. Before he asked me anything I headed towards the exit, ignoring the calls from my friends.
The night was cold and just dampened my mood. I didn't feel like going back to my dorm, Duke would come back and start asking questions. I fished my phone, scanning through my contacts. Kia's name stood out.
"Hey." Her soft voice answered.
"Hey." My voice sounding weary.
"What's up Vi?" Kia asked, sounding worried.
"I fucked up." I said, slowly walking towards her house. "I'm fucked up."
"Where are you?" Kia asked, I heard her rustling about.
"Walking towards your house." I said. "I'm at 57th and Row."
"Wait there, don't move." Kia said. "I'm coming."
Kia hung up. I leaned against a tree, looking around in the dark. I was alone. I yanked off my wig, it felt good as my hair tumbled down. I brushed it back. As I did it, an image of Olivia appeared in mind. She would had this way of brushing her hair back that was just completely sexy. Olivia was just the essence of sexiness and beauty... And she said she loved me. I had treated her so badly, I lied to her and then turned away from her with no explanation, I was a jerk for leading her on. She deserved way better then this and me.
I was so distracted in my thoughts that I hadn't noticed Kia's car pull up, until I heard her car door open. I looked over. Kia was standing there, looking worried.
"Can we go back to yours?" I asked.
"Sure." Kia answered, as I sat in the passenger seat.
I didn't say anything else on the ride to her house, Kia was silent beside me. I loved that about her, she knew when to talk and when to just let me stew. Olivia knew that too. I inwardly groaned. I had to stop thinking about her. Everything I thought about, I brought back to Olivia.
I followed Kia into the house when we arrived and in her room. It was so girly, so Kia. I laid down on the bed, staring up the ceiling. I felt as the bed sank beside me when Kia did the same. It was quite for a few minutes.
"You want to talk about it?" Kia whispered.
"Sebastian and Olivia broke up." I said.
"You broke up with Olivia?" Kia sounded shocked as she looked at me.
"I didn't, Sebastian did." I asserted. "I couldn't keep lying to her, it just isn't right. This is about soccer, not some blonde."
I said it disparagingly, like I was convincing myself not to like her but it just made me hate myself more.
"She isn't just some blond though, is she?" Kia said, as if reading my thoughts.
"Well, she is now." I said, I looked at Kia.
I always found Kia beautiful, it was a different beauty to Olivia. She was completely different. I looked down at body. I looked away, biting my tongue, literally. My hormones were all over the place. I glanced back at Kia who was frowning. Before I could rationalise my actions, I was kissing her.