Life became entirely focused upon soccer after that moment. Nothing else mattered to me, I didn't really have Olivia distracting me anymore. I may have been her pretend 'boyfriend' but we hardly ever saw each except for classes. It was better that way. Although, people noticed and thought our relationship had deteriorated but didn't dare say anything. The gossip mills were going crazy with talk of our 'relationship'. Didn't people have better things to talk about? The wonders of high school. I was glad that it was the final year and looking forward to college, away from all this- away from her.

I was on the field, practicing my ass off. I didn't want to be at all off for my game against Cornwall, it was the reason for all this - I didn't want to be the reason that we lost. I was sweating so much that my head was starting to itch from my stupid wig, it was uncomfortable and really starting to annoy me. It was so tempting to yank the thing off. I was in on the playing field though and although it was late afternoon, there were still some students milling around. I sat down on the grass and started stretching out.

My mind wandered off. I thought about Duke, he had become a good friend and I would miss him when I left. He and Sarah were still together and getting along like s house on fire. Sarah was so good for him. Toby had finally asked Eunice out, which surprised the whole school but I kinda got the feeling that he did and I had helped him to get his act together. They were cute together, Toby would tell a joke that no one would find funny, whilst Eunice would roar with laughter. Andrew, well he seemed to hiding something. He wasn't interested into girls, I got the feeling that he was gay but he must have been scared to admit it; I wanted to help him. I knew from personal experience that it was something that you had to come to by yourself, even with the support of friends it would be hard. All the other guys on the team, desperate to find girlfriends, keep their girlfriends and pass their senior year - whilst playing some hilarious, mostly silly pranks on people and immature antics.

I realised that I was going to miss them all. Even the flirtatious cheerleaders, who were funny and interesting when the weren't gossiping and talking about boyfriends or boys in general. I had come for soccer and my brother but I would leave with happy memories of many amazing friends. It hurt that underneath it all, I had deceived them. Would they still be friends with me if they knew I was girl? Or was Romeo just in the form of a guy?

My head hurt with all these jumbled thoughts and I was feeling tired of feeling sorry for myself. At the end of the day, it was completely my fault. It was so stupid. All to prove myself in some sport and keep my brothers ass out of trouble. I was going to kick his ass though when it was all over, after getting my ass handed to me when my mom and dad find out - which I'm sure they will because my luck was wearing thin. I wasn't going to back down though, just a week till the game and then I could see Justin's smile fade away when he was beaten. It seemed like an insignificant win, against all the losses that I was going to experience.

"Hey." A voice said behind me.

Danielle sat down on the grass opposite me. I was surprised. Olivia's friends didn't really talk to me, as if they knew that the silence between Olivia and I was my fault, so obviously they were on her side.

"How can I help you?" I asked wearily.

"You going to the party tonight?"

It was the pre-game party, it was a big event, at someone's house. Everyone was going and people had been talking all day about, it bored me but the team wouldn't let me not come and threatened to drag me there if I didn't go. I nodded at Danielle, still curious for what she was doing here though.

"Olivia seems, I don't know. She's withdrawn into herself." Danielle said slowly, looking down at the grass and pulling the blades absentmindedly. "She won't talk to me about it. It's worrying me. Do you have any idea?"

"I don't know." I said truthfully, I had no idea what was going on with Olivia.

I thought that she would be alright, it had been a couple of weeks but she still seemed colder then usual and obviously she wasn't even being open to her friends. There seriously was something wrong, no one should block out their friends. I was worried now.

"Well, maybe you should talk to her." Danielle suggested.

I nearly laughed out loud at that. If Olivia was capable of hating anybody it would be me. She couldn't even stand sitting next to me in class at all. I doubted whether she would talk to me alone, and start divulging her feelings.

"Sure." I said offhandedly, I would try.

"Thanks."

Danielle left, leaving me with even more jumbled and unnerving thoughts. I had no idea how I was going to confront Olivia. What was I supposed to say? I couldn't say sorry again, it was worthless and I would be sounding like a broken record. What did she need to hear? Even though I hardened myself for feeling anything that I felt before, I found myself sad, at her recent unhappiness and the fact that it was all my fault made it worse. I was dreading the party even more now, along with the drunk teenagers, I would have to deal with drama.