To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 05/06/2007
Subject: Happy Birthday
Dear Jon,
It's your birthday today. Happy birthday, brother! I bought a cake, and blew the candles on your behalf, just like I did last year. I sent you the gift last year, though. I'm keeping it this year. I am going to give it to you when you come back, because you are coming back. Please come back.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 09/06/2007
Subject: Memories
Dear Jon,
There is a boy in my English class. He keeps trying to talk to me. I don't want to talk to him. I don't want to talk to anyone. I want to talk to you. Remember how we used to stay up all night talking and laughing? How we would make blanket forts and tell each other scary stories and then laugh at how stupid they were? Because I do. I remember those days like they were yesterday. And I remember how you would always stay with me in the fort even though Robb and Theon teased you for it. You have always been my best brother. I want those days back. I want my best brother back. I want my best friend back. Please come back.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 15/06/2007
Subject: Sleepless
Dear Jon,
Bran asked Meera out. You remember her, don't you? She's Jojen's big sister. Bran's into older women, who would have thought?
I'm having nightmares again. Father took my sleeping pills. He said that I'd get addicted. Mother keeps giving me sad looks. I still haven't talked to her. Ms. Brienne says I should. Ms. Brienne also says that I'm depressed, which is ridiculous. I'm not depressed. I am not. I just don't feel like smiling when you could be hurting somewhere out there. Just because I don't feel like smiling doesn't mean I'm depressed.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 19/06/2007
Subject: Summertime Sadness
Dear Jon,
My nightmares are getting worse. Last night, I woke Sansa up. Or maybe she was up already. I don't know. She came to check on me. She was worried, I think. Today, I convinced Father to let me have the pills again. Ms. Brienne doesn't want me to take the pills. She thinks I would do something stupid. She is a nice woman, Ms. Brienne. I think I would have liked her had she not been my therapist.
I'm improving in my fencing. Master Forel says that I'm channeling my anger through my sabre against my opponents. I think I am.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 25/06/2007
Subject: Numb
Dear Jon,
I talked to Mother today. She cried, and she hugged me. I should feel bad, shouldn't I? But I don't. Father hugged me too. It was a pure chick flick moment. You know how I hate those. But lately, I'm like a walking chick flick myself. You did that to me. I should blame you. I don't. I just want you to come back.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 30/06/2007
Subject: Hospital For Souls
Dear Jon,
I'm in the hospital. I took one too many pills. They said I overdosed. I didn't mean to, I swear. I just wanted to sleep without seeing awful things happening to you and hearing your screams. Father and Sansa are with me right now. Mother was here earlier. She was crying. She's at home taking care of Bran and Rickon now. Sansa is crying too. Her face is all red. Father looks sad. Robb is coming home tomorrow. I haven't talked to him in two months.
I hate this hospital. I've been here for a day, and I hate it. I think they are going to put me on suicide watch. I told them that I was just trying to sleep. I just wanted to sleep. They wouldn't believe me. I wish you were here. You would have believed me. You have always believed me. I wish you would come home.
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A/N: To the lovely anon who left me a review, no, Jon is not dead. Also, for some strange reason, Jon and Arya's full email addresses won't show up no matter how many times I edit it. So, there's that. And I just wanted to let you guys know that every read, every follow, every favourite, and every review means a lot to me. Thank you! xx