To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 07/08/2007
Subject: The lies we have been told
Dear Jon,
My brother, my best brother, it turns out that you were never my brother at all. Yesterday, I overheard Mother and Father talking. Father was telling her that you are Aunt Lyanna's son. You are my cousin, Jon. Your father is apparently Rhaegar Targaryen. You remember him, don't you? He was the son of the mayor. Your mother, my aunt, ran away with him. You know what happened to them, don't you? Rhaegar died in a car accident and Aunt Lyanna died of fever. It's all lies, Jon, everything we have been told, and they are all lies. Rhaegar's accident was no accident. Aunt Lyanna died giving birth to you, and Rhaegar's accident was no accident. Father did not say who it might have been, but I heard him mentioning Robert Baratheon's name. Uncle Robert, Jon! I'm glad he is dead if he was the reason your parents died too. They say he was in love with Aunt Lyanna. Sansa would have claimed it a tragic love story. But….Is this really what love is? If it is, I don't ever want to experience it. Except, I fear that I have already felt it. I love you, you know that? You may not be my brother by blood, but you are still my soulmate, still my other half. Please come back soon. I expect Mother would be all over you when you do. I heard her scream at Father, you know? She cried and screamed at him. If I weren't the only one at home, I suspect everybody else would have heard her. She blames Father for making her a terrible mother. Before you say anything, those were her words, not mine, although I'm inclined to agree with her. She should have loved you, Jon, whether you were Father's son or Aunt Lyanna's, she should have loved you. How could she not love you? How can anyone not love you? You're the best man I know. Please come home. Come home to me.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 15/08/2007
Subject: Families old and new
Dear Jon,
Today, Father told everyone that you are our cousin. They told us that you are Aunt Lyanna and Rhaegar Targaryen's son. We were all mad. Oh, not at you, never at you. But at Father for lying to us. You have another family too, you know? You have an Aunt and a half brother who lives in India. Father is going to try to get in touch with them. They don't know about you, you see, and they deserve to know. I wish we all had known it earlier. Maybe then you wouldn't have left and I would still have you here, with me.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 25/08/2007
Subject: Things that could be
Dear Jon,
I told Ms. Brienne that you are my cousin. She asked me if this changes the way I think about you. It doesn't, does it? You are still my brother. I think. Oh, Jon. I do not know what to think. I do not look at you the same way I look at Robb. My touch doesn't linger on his skin the same way it used to do to yours. Nor does he give me butterfly kisses on my neck. Looking back on it, he does not make my heart ache the same way you do. Not Robb, not Bran, and not even Rickon. It keeps me up all night, Jon. And when I do fall asleep, nightmares plague me. I'm not taking the pills again, though. My mind seems to do things its own way. I wouldn't trust myself not to have a repeat of last time.
All this wondering, thinking, this feeling, Jon, it hurts. It aches. It almost makes me wish that I had never found out that you are my cousin rather than my brother. Maybe then I wouldn't have taken notice of trivial things that seem like such grand gestures. It almost makes me wish. Almost. Still, a significantly large part of me is relieved, because the thoughts, the feelings, my mind seemed to have shut down are starting to unravel. I feel lighter, as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Should I tell Ms. Brienne? I do not know. I wish you would just come back already. My life seems emptier when you are not with me.
On a different note, Father is still trying to contact your Aunt. Her name is Daenerys. She is a zoologist in India. She is supposedly very beautiful, and very kind. I think I would like to meet her. I wouldn't mind meeting your half-brother too.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 30/08/2007
Subject: Love and other things
Dear Jon,
Father finally got in touch with Daenerys. He says she is very eager to meet you, and so is your half-brother. His name is Aegon. It's a pompous name, isn't it? Anyway, when Father told her that you are missing in action, she said that she would not give up on hoping. She would not give up on you. I like, no, love, her already.
I talked to Ms. Brienne about what I have been feeling. She says she is glad that I am not depending on the pills again. She also says that there is a possibility that I might be in love with you. But how can that be? You are my brother, or were, at least. I cannot fall in love with you. I told Ms. Brienne as much. She said, "The heart works in mysterious ways." Stupid heart. If being in love hurts this much, I do not want it. Besides, I doubt that I am in love with you. I love you, of course I do, but in love with you? Ms. Brienne is wrong. When you come back, you are telling her that she is wrong. You will come back, won't you? You have to come back.
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A/N: Thank you all for the lovely reviews! Every follow, favourite, read, and comment means the world to me.
Also, I've been watching The Borgias. Cesare and Lucrezia Borgia are my newest OTP. Those two are absolutely perfect for each other. Also, they remind me so much of Jon and Arya that I think they are what Jon and Arya would have been like if they had all stayed together.