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Chapter 9: Memories
I woke up in a white bed that was in a white room. The whiteness of it all made me realize I was in the hospital wing. I tried to sit up, but I immediately was pushed back down.
"You have to stay laying down, Sam. We don't want you to injure your leg again." Richard said. Some of the other people around me came into focus; there was my mum, Richard, Ivy, Sybill, Severus, Minerva, and Poppy. Poppy started forcing me to drink something out of a goblet. I tried to stop her from forcing me, but she won and I had to drink the disgusting liquid.
"It'll help with the pain." Poppy said softly. There was a sadness in her eyes I only remember seeing after Moody's death.
"What happened?" I asked as Poppy pulled the drink away. What in the world was going on? Why am I in the hospital wing?
"What do you remember happening last?" my mum asked quietly.
"I remember going to my room after you guys gave me a truth potion. You came in," I said, pointing at my mum, "and said that I needed to come out of my room. I came out and Severus came into the living room. Mum, you left, and Severus gave me a potion to drink. After that, nothing." They looked stunned.
"Sam, Severus was under the imperious curse. Some Death Eaters broke in and when he was getting the truth serum antidote, cursed him. He brought you a sleeping potion so that the Death Eaters could take Matilda away from you." Minerva said.
"Matilda's taken? Captured?" I whispered in a hoarse voice. I couldn't stop the tears that were flowing down my cheeks in rivers. Matilda couldn't be with her stupid father, she couldn't be! That couldn't happen. Hogwarts was supposed to be safe!
"I'm sorry, Sam." Ivy said. She leaned down and gave me an awkward hug. The room seemed to swirl. Matilda couldn't have been taken by her father.
"What happened after I fell asleep?" I managed to ask through my sobs.
"They took you to your bed and went to get Matilda. Severus, however, was able to regain control and tried to attack them. There were two Death Eaters. One of them took Matilda, while the other one tortured Severus until you got up. Then he tortured both of you until some of us came to your room." Minerva whispered. She had tears going down her face.
"How did you get out from under the imperious curse?" I asked Severus. I didn't dare look at him. I'm not sure what I would've done to him. I don't blame him for Matilda's capture, but it is partially his fault.
"I'm afraid I do not know the answer to that question. However, there may have been something in your room that lifted the curse." He said in his usual lazy drawl. I looked up at his face. His face showed no emotion. Did he care for me so little that he would show no emotion when I was this hurt? The worst part of it is I'm still in love with him.
"It is okay, Samanthera. It's okay, baby." My mum choked out. She came by my side and started stroking my black curls. I looked up into her face to see tears sliding down her cheeks. If Samuel got angry, my girl would be the first one to go and we all knew that.
Minutes turned into hours, hours into days, and I was still in the hospital wing. Okay, I was only in there for thirteen and a half hours, but it seemed like years. After everyone left, I stared into space and wished that my baby girl Matilda was by my side. That she wasn't with her father. Maybe if I sleep I'll forget about everything. Sighing, I stood up from my couch and went to my room. I laid on my bed and cried until I had no tears left.
"Sam?" Ginny asked from the doorway to my room. Did I fall asleep? Looking at the clock, which said nine a.m., I realized I did. Sighing I stood up.
"When did you get here, Ginny?" I asked quietly. I couldn't seem to get my voice to be louder than a whisper.
"Last night. I wanted to get some work done. Professor McGonagall wants to see you in her office at ten. Is there anything I can do for you?" her eyes were filled with sadness and pain when I looked at her.
"What day is it?" I asked, surprising her.
"It's the 27th." She answered before closing the door. I headed to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I had large bags under my red eyes. My hair looked like a small tornado went through it. My skin had an unhealthy paleness to it and my usually smiling face had no emotion in it. I brushed my hair and changed my clothes before heading to breakfast. I could tell a lot of the students were surprised to see me. The other teachers, however, knew I wouldn't stay in that horrid hospital wing longer than I had to.
"Good morning Professor Lechen." Sybill said when I sat down next to her.
"Morning Sybill." I muttered. I ate slowly before heading towards Minerva's office. I got there with fifteen minutes to spare.
"Good thing I told Severus to come early." Minerva said as I walked in. She was sitting in her chair by her desk. "You and your family were always early." She was smiling as I walked into her office. Her smile wavered a bit when she looked up and say my face. It's probably just my beautiful red, baggy eyes and my unhealthy looking skin that she was looking at. My guess is the unhealthy skin is a side effect of a potion Poppy gave me. Otherwise, who knows how I got it.
"We are going to be looking through some of your memories from the year I was headmaster." Severus said as he stood up from the chair he was sitting in on the other side of Minerva's desk.
"Why?" I asked, still not showing any emotion.
"We need to see them so that we can see what exactly was happening in Amycus Carrow's classes so he can be charged the right way. He was captured yesterday." Minerva said. Her smile was completely gone. I guessed she realized I wasn't in the mood for smiles.
"Okay. Where's the pensive?" I said. Minerva showed it to me and I put my wand up to my head. A long, silver string that was like air and water combined came out and I laid it in the pensive. "I may have put a few extra in there by accident." I said.
"That's fine. I'll be the one observing your memories." Severus said as he came to my side by the pensive. Nodding to each other, we jumped into the midst of my memories. We were in Minerva's office two and a half years ago. It was exactly how I remembered it. Right after Dumbledore's death.
"Voldemort is going to appoint me headmaster." Severus said. He was staring out the window. "The Carrows are going to be teaching next year. I would like you to be Amycus' apprentice so he doesn't hurt the children."
"If you're not trying to kill me, and it's actually for the children, than sure." I responded, smiling. He turned around and smirked at me.
"Very well. I will tell Amycus of her new apprentice." The scene changed. I was in the defense against the dark arts classroom with Amycus before the year started.
"Okay, brat. If you're going to be my apprentice, than you'll have to know how to defend yourself. Crucio!" Amycus yelled. I blocked it easily. Soon, we were dueling. I was hit with a spell that knocked me to the floor and caused me to scream. Pain filled my body. I could feel the scene change, but I was still on the floor of the classroom in pain.
"Now you try, Malfoy." an evil voice said. The pain stopped for a few moments before starting again. The scene changed again. I was at Hogsmeade with both Carrows. We were walking into Hogs Head.
"Why are you taking me here?" I asked quietly.
"Because we're the boss of you and we want you to meet our friend." Amycus said. He smiled evilly at his sister. "Hello, Samuel." The three of us sat down in a both where a young man was sitting.
"Hello, Carrows. Is this the person you wanted me to meet?" Samuel said. He had a beautiful smile and really good looks. As I talked to him, I realized he could be caring. Now a days, I know different. The scene changed for another time. I was in Severus' office.
"I'm sorry for the injuries that the Carrows gave you." Severus said. He was staring out the window again. It seemed to be something he liked to do.
"If I didn't want to get hurt, than I wouldn't have said yes to the job when you asked me." I replied.
"Are you sure you're all right?" Severus asked. He looked at me with caring eyes.
"Of course I am." I said, getting closer to him. I was smiling, even though what we were talking about was very serious.
"Good. I was worried that my student protector wasn't tough enough." He said as he pulled me into a hug. It was wonderful. The scene changed too soon. I found myself dueling Amycus during one of her classes. She hit me with a spell that caused cuts to form all over my body. The scene changed.
"I deserve this much!" Samuel yelled. We were in my old bedroom at Hogwarts. He had pinned me to my bed and had started to take off my clothes.
"Stop!" I screamed. The scene changed. I was in the hospital wing, laying on one of the white beds with another injury.
"Sam, did you know that you're pregnant?" Poppy asked with a concerned look in her eyes.
"What are you talking about?" I asked. The scene changed. It was a few minutes before Severus ran off and started the Battle of Hogwarts. We were in the defense against the dark arts classroom.
"Thank you for telling me the news. When the school year's over, I'm firing you so that they won't hurt you or your baby." Severus said. "Who's the father anyway?"
"Samuel." I muttered. "Please stay safe. I know that Harry will be here soon and Voldemort will attack. Just stay safe."
"I will." He said as he brought me in for a hug. The scene changed again. It was during the Battle of Hogwarts.
"Where is Severus?" I asked a rather confused Hermione. She quickly opened the Marauder's map and looked for him.
"His going into the shrieking shack. Why do you want to know?" she said. I started running to the wimping willow. It was busy attacking some Death Eaters, so I slipped right in. I got to the room where Severus and Voldemort were talking and sat outside it. Ron, Harry, and Hermione soon joined me. I could tell Nagini was about to attack. I jumped between Nagini and Severus. There was a sudden pain in my neck. Severus was laying by my side. Hermione came by me. I motioned to my bag and she grabbed the antidote. Everything went black as I heard screams.
"Did you find anything?" Minerva asked. We were out of the pensive and back in her present day office.
"Yes, Amycus used the torture curse against Sam many times. He will be sent to Azkaban with his sister." Severus said. He looked my way. I could feel a few tears on my cheeks. Oh my Matilda! Where are you?
"Sam, are you all right?" Minerva asked. She came up to my side and put a hand around my shoulders. "What's wrong?" she led me to a chair and sat me down.
"Sam, you have to stop acting like this! Matilda may be with her father, but you need to keep going. Stop acting like a child by crying constantly. You spent most of breakfast staring at your food instead of eating it. Now clean yourself up and start helping the Order track her down. You're no use to anyone like this!" Severus said. He seemed to realize the harshness of his words right after he said them. The freaking nerve of some people! He has to be kidding me! I was all of a sudden standing up and pointing my wand at his heart.
"Don't you ever again talk to me like that Severus Snape! Leave me alone, or you'll pay the price!" I growled. Both Minerva and he looked shocked. I ran out of Minerva's office and to my quarters as fast as possible. I ran into my bedroom and laid on my bed, crying. I cried for Matilda and the others I loved. I cried for my father and Death Eater siblings. I cried for my friends' husbands' deaths. And lastly, I cried for the man I loved and hated; Severus Snape.