Part 4 (Jenny POV)

Monday, June 1st

8:30 pm

Rural America

As I heard Julian's footsteps recede I pulled myself from the ground, shoulders slumped, and headed back hopefully to a bed or a shower or something warmer than the chilled tone in his voice. I kicked the silver ballet slippers from my feet and yanked off the sparkling barrette as I rushed through the trail, uncaring about the rocks that bit into my heels and the tree branches that ripped at my hair. Who was I kidding? The Right Path Program wasn't for me. I couldn't do this, I couldn't change Julian's life—he hated me! When I reached the dormitory I fell down onto the first bed available to me, even though it wasn't mine. I wept into the pillow; how could he be so cruel? I brushed the tears away roughly with my palms. Was Julian really evil and brutal, or was he just trying to prevent me from helping him, from befriending him?

Entry 2 (Jenny POV)

Monday, June 1st

9:25 pm

Rural America

Dear Diary,

I went to meet Julian today. He was... very different from what I expected, and yet he is also everything that I imagined. He's gorgeous, which doesn't help me one bit, and he has more problems than I would have thought. He seemed so angry! He ordered me to stay away from him this summer, and to just send reports to the Right Path Program saying that he's progressing. But I can't do that: it's unfair, it's lying! Julian sort of scares me; he seemed wolfish and dangerous, like someone I shouldn't get involved with no matter what the circumstances. But I have to, right?

I signed up for this program knowing that I would have to help someone straighten out their life and become a better person, so why should I abandon Julian? He obviously needs me: he's angry, upset, most likely confused, and (I think) hurt. I can't just condemn him to a life of misery and pain just because he said a few mean words to me, or just because he looks a little intimidating. I'll just have to try and talk to him. I am supposed to work with him this summer in the clearing or somewhere on the Greene's property, because they mentioned that that way they can see if Julian is actually meeting with me. I think he expects that he's just going to go to the clearing for a few hours a day and not see a wink of me because he supposedly scared me off. Well, he can't exactly leave early, because he has to pass by the Greene's house to do so.... Maybe I could... Hmmm.

I think I'm going to meet him there tomorrow. It probably seems like a crazy idea to you, when I could just stay in the dormitory and have a free ride instead of helping him out, but I want to do this. I want to help change his life. There's something about him that makes me want to help him fight whatever he is battling, and there's a look in his eye that tells me he doesn't want to do it alone either. I don't care what he says; I'm going to be stubborn. Julian and I are going to meet in that clearing for several hours a day, and there's nothing he can do about it.

Jenny

Thought 2 (Julian POV)

Monday, June 1st

10:29 pm

Rural America

That Jenny girl turned out to be exactly what I expected her to be: naive. Sure she's kind of pretty, but she looks too simple and fragile. I had my fun with scaring the shit out of her anyway; when I met her in the clearing I ordered her to leave me alone and not to see me again until she leaves in August. Of course, I still have to go to the clearing under the fucking watchful eyes of the Greenes--why the hell are they so annoying? But at least Jenny won't be there.

I scared her into giving me some peace and quiet, and now I can enjoy my free summer. I don't need to be bogged down by the stupid and annoying questions of a naive person. Hell, I can barely even stand to look at her, knowing that she believes in hope and goodness and all of that shit. She can't help me; I'm beyond help, and I know that from personal experience. If I can't help myself, then there's definitely no way that she can. Jenny can't fix my all of my goddamn problems: she's not my mother, she's not my sister, and she's certainly not my girlfriend. Why does she even care about helping me? No one else seems to take notice of me....

Though, I have to admit, she was quite appealing when she was sitting in that clearing, sobbing. I know that I could never make someone like her smile or laugh (why the hell would I even want to?) but it made me feel sort of nice when I caused her to cry. It was like, that feeling of knowing that you've caused something, that you have caused someone to feel a powerful emotion. You were instrumental in that feeling. Kind of makes me feel, I don't know, important? It seems sort of cheesy, but it feels good to make someone else feel. Anything, even sadness. Maybe I should try it again....

A/N: Thoughts? Comments? Please review and the next chapter will come a lot faster! :D What do you think of Julian's personality? I have a few thoughts and ideas about conflicts and issues in this story, but what about you? Thanks, and review!

--TOTN