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Chapter Ten: 2 Men 1 Woman

Meredith was lying on the couch watching an old movie when she heard the door bell ring. She looked at the clock noticing it was only 7, she had told Mark to come by at 8, he was early.

She took a deep breath and opened up the door, shocked to see Derek standing there, not Mark.

"Hey, expecting someone?" Derek asked noticing the shock on her face.

"Sort of but it's okay come in" she said closing the door behind them. He placed a kiss on her cheek once inside causing her to smile softly.

"So who were you expecting?" Derek asked following her into the kitchen.

"Ah, don't be mad but um Mark is coming by, he wants to talk" she said softly not knowing what Derek's reaction would be.

"Oh" Derek replied. "What about?" he continued.

"I don't really know. He just said he wants to explain" Meredith replied for once not wanting to hide anything.

"Meredith, no excuse will make up for what he did to you" Derek said softly, wrapping his arms around her small frame.

"I know, but he deserves the chance to at least explain why he did it. I never said I was going to forgive him" Meredith snapped at him pulling away.

"He doesn't deserve anything" Derek said raising his voice. He didn't understand why Meredith was even giving him a chance after what he did to her.

"Derek this has nothing to do with you, you don't know the whole story, you don't know anything about my marriage" she yelled at him.

"Because you didn't even tell me you're married" he shouted.

Meredith stood there shocked that he had yelled at her like that, tears formed in her eyes. "I think you should go" Meredith said after what seemed like forever.

"I think that's a great idea" he agreed heading for the door, Meredith walked ahead of him, as she opened the door to let him out she noticed Mark pulling up out the front of the house.

"Bye" Derek muttered as he made his way to his car giving Mark a glare as he slid into his car.

"You're still seeing him" was the first thing Mark said as he approached Meredith waiting at the door.

"Not now Mark, I'm not in the mood to discuss this" Meredith said tiredly, letting Mark into the house and leading him into the kitchen. "Do you want something to drink?" she asked grabbing a soda for herself out of the fridge.

"Just water will be fine" he replied watching her seem so at home in the house that was so different to him. He had been to Seattle once and seen the house Meredith grew up in.

Meredith place the glass in front of Mark then sat on the other side of the table. "So what did you want to explain?" Meredith asked slightly harsher than she had meant.

"You're not wearing your rings" Mark noticed as Meredith brushed away a piece of hair that had fallen out of her messy ponytail and onto her face.

"No they reminded me too much of you" she admitted softly looking down at the table not wanting to meet his eyes. She finally looked up noticing the hurt expression on Mark's face.

"I'm sorry, so sorry Meri" he said softly using his pet name for her. "I didn't do it to hurt you, I promised in our vows that I would never hurt you then I did…in the worst possible way and I know saying sorry doesn't fix anything but you need to know I am nothing without you."

"I just don't get why Mark, wasn't I enough for you" she asked tears welling in her eyes.

"Of course you were…are" he said edging closer to her and taking her hand in his. "You are more than enough Meredith, you are amazing and I am so stupid for letting you go" he convinced her.

"Do you know what hurt the most?" Meredith asked tears slipping down her soft cheeks. Mark shook his head. "The fact that Addison was my best friend, that's what hurt the most, and that is why I left" Meredith admitted.

"I know and it doesn't matter how many times I say I'm sorry it's not going to change that. She was just there when you weren't" Mark said regretting the words as soon as they left his mouth.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Meredith snapped at him.

"It's just that after we lost the baby and your mother got sick, you were distant Mer, you weren't the same woman I fell in love with" he explained trying to fill in the eve bigger hole he had dug for himself.

"So the fact that I was grieving AND taking care of my sick mother was enough to drive you into the arms of another woman, thanks heaps Mark for all your support" she yelled at him, tears streaming down her face.

"I tried to be there for you, but you pushed me away, I didn't mean for any of this to happen, I was upset because you were out again, working, you didn't need to work I could take care of you, but you were pushing me further and further away, Addison was there, she listened and then I don't know what happened but before we knew it we were in the bedroom. I hate myself for what I have done to you" Mark explained

Meredith just sobbed as she listened to what he was saying. Realisation hit her that she had been distant and she had pushed him away when she needed him the most.

"I'm so sorry" she breathed as she continued to sob. He rushed around to her pulling her into his arms and holding her close as she cried.

"Shh it's okay, I'm here now" he whispered as she continued to cry.

Meredith broke away from his embrace and looked into his eyes; they held the same pain that she had been feeling for the past few months. She shivered as his soft hands brushed the tears away from eyes and before she knew what she was doing she had lips pressed against his, softly kissing him.

Seconds later she broke away and jumped away from him. "You have to go" she exclaimed.

"Mer…but I thought…" before he could finish Meredith had cut him off.

"Please Mark, just go, I can't do this right now" she watched as he turned and left. As soon as she heard the door shut she sank to the floor and began to cry all over again.