Because you guys are all so awesome with your reviews I am making time to update before I leave for the first of prep for my exams. Enjoy Chap 11 and I may update again tonight depending on the amount of reviews so press that magic button when you finish :D
Chapter Eleven: Fine
George and Izzie returned to the house after a long shift at the hospital just as Mark was leaving. They both looked at each other wondering what this meant, Meredith had told them all about her broken marriage, after all it was hard to avoid people when you lived with them.
As they entered the house they could hear Meredith's sobbing coming from the kitchen. Izzie rushed in and found her on the ground curled up in a ball. She immediately dropped down beside, her wrapping her arms around her.
"Meredith, it's okay, it's Izzie, you need to calm down" Izzie soothed noticing her breathing was laboured.
"He was here….and…he said things…and ohhh" Meredith sobbed, her breathing becoming more and more laboured.
"Breathe Mer, its okay, please just breathe" Izzie continued to soothe trying to get her breathing back to normal. "That's the way" Izzie said softly as Meredith began to breathe normally.
"I will make some tea" George said standing in the door way.
Izzie stood up then held her hands out to Meredith to help her up. Meredith sat at the table silently as George placed a cup of tea in front of her. She sipped at it quietly.
After a few minutes George broke the silence. "Are you okay Meredith?" he asked concerned.
She just nodded, lacking the energy to actually speak.
"What happened Mer?" Izzie finally asked curious to what got her in such a state.
"Derek was here and we argued then Mark came over and we talked and he explained, it was my fault too and then I kissed him and now I don't know what to do" Meredith admitted.
"Why did you argue with Dr Shepherd?" George asked, not referring to him as Derek as always.
"He showed up and I was expecting Mark and I told him that Mark was coming over to talk and he got all jealous and defensive, I yelled at him and told him he knew nothing about my marriage then he played the 'well you didn't tell me you were married' card. I told him to leave just as Mark arrived" Meredith explained to her friends.
"You knew Mark was coming?" Izzie asked curious.
"Um yeah, I was at Joe's with Cristina and he came in he wanted to talk so I told him to come around later" Meredith said. "He was all snappy when he got here because he saw Derek and then he noticed I'm not wearing my rings anymore" she continued.
"I've never seen your rings" George commented.
They both watched Meredith as reached for the chain she wore around her neck. Taking it from under her shirt she held up the three rings that were on the end of it.
"You've always worn them" Izzie gasped. "They're beautiful."
"Well technically yes" Meredith confessed.
"So what is going on between you and Mark now" Izzie asked concerned to whether Meredith was jumping into things she wasn't ready for.
"Honestly I don't know" Meredith said with a sigh. "And I kissed him, he was saying all these things and I realised that it was partly my fault that our marriage was falling apart and now I'm just so confused" she admitted.
"What about Dr Shepherd?" George asked.
"I don't know, Derek is…Derek is something special, and I don't want to lead him along but I definitely have feelings for him. My mother would love this, Meredith screws up again" Meredith cried at her 2 friends.
"Everything will work out Mer, you just need to take time and decide what is best for you. Don't make any irrational decisions" Izzie revised.
"Thanks guys for listening but I'm going to head to bed, early shift" she said as she made her way upstairs to bed.
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"Dr Grey….Meredith" Meredith could hear Derek calling her but she kept walking, she wasn't ready to face him yet, she wasn't sure what she was going to say to him.
"Meredith" he called again breathlessly as he finally caught up to her. "Meredith I know you can hear me can you stop and talk to me" he exclaimed.
"What?" she said louder than she had meant.
"How did last night go? Did you guys decide on something?" Derek asked hoping she would tell him they were getting divorced.
"It was ah fine, we just talked and yeah we talked" she rambled.
"Oh okay. Is everything okay Mer, you don't seem yourself" he asked noticing she was agitated and seemed to not want to talk to him.
"Everything is so complicated Derek" she began. "I kissed Mark" she confessed.
"Oh I see so you're forgiving him even after to what he did to you he gets a second chance" he snapped at her.
"It's not like that Derek" she shouted back at him. "It wasn't his entire fault okay, sure I didn't make him jump into bed with Addison but I sure as hell didn't help the situation so just give me some space" she yelled at him before walking away.
"Are you okay?" Cristina asked coming up behind Meredith after hearing her confrontation with Derek.
"I'm fine" Meredith replied.
"Mer I have known you long enough to know when you say you're fine you aren't" Cristina teased.
"I have a husband and a boyfriend, and right now I don't know what to do because I am still very much in love with my husband but he hurt me, so I moved on with another great guy and now he is being a jealous ass and I just need room to breathe" Meredith rambled.
"I don't do so well with the girl talk Mer, but I can offer you drinks on me at Joe's when our shift ends" Cristina said as sincere as she could be.