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~Kana POV~
My mother's sobs echoed throughout the silent house. I peeked through the crack in the door. She was slumped on the floor, holding his old knife in her arms, cradling it like a child. Taiko, my older brother, knelt next to her, trying to console her.
"No! NO! You could have stopped it! If you had died in his place… yes… if you die then… then he'll forgive me. He'll come back to me! Yes! You must die for you father! I'll kill you for not protecting him! Die! DIE!"
She was screaming now, raising the knife above her head, preparing to strike him, kill Nii-chan. I whimpered, backing away from the door, trying to run away.
Nii-chan yelled although it was stifled by her hand. I cried out with him and if felt as though I had been stabbed by the knife and not him. My knees crumpled underneath my weight, hot tears streaming down my face as I whimpered quietly.
She paused, turning towards the doorway, smiling widely, a crazed look in her eyes. She shoved the door open and her grin widened. She began to laugh insanely. She raised the knife and brought it down on my left shoulder. I screamed, trying to stand and run, only to fall back to my knees in pain. I crawled, anything to get away. She raised the knife again, her laughter ringing in my ears. I shut my eyes, crying out. But the knife never came down and I looked up to see my brother holding her arms in a death grip. He twisted her wrist, causing her to drop the knife. It skidded across the floor towards me, blood smearing the floor as it slid.
"K-Kana… run. Leave while you can. She's lost it. There's nothing more you can do. Go. Go, now!" Taiko rasped, blood dripping from his mouth, more sliding down his cheek and chest.
"Nii-chan… You hurt Nii-chan! Nothing can bring him back, Mother! Nothing! Stop hurting him, stop!" I was screaming at her, having finally made it to my feet, the knife in hand.
"You ungrateful children! You BOTH deserve to die! Hehehe… Give me that knife! You have no right to hold it, you filthy scum! Die! Die, die, die, DIE!" she screamed at me, blood flying off her face and struggling hands into my hair and onto my face and hands. A sharp crack split the air and Taiko yelled in pain and fell to his knees before collapsing on the floor in a puddle of blood. I held out the knife if front of me, trying to be strong. She advanced towards me, a small pistol in her hand, now pointed at me. She fired at me, the bullet skimming my cheek, another nearly imbedding itself in my neck, leaving a large, bleeding gash in its place. She fired three more times, one connecting with my right thigh, another plunging into my stomach, the last hitting my chest near my left shoulder. I screamed again and raised the knife.
Blood gushed over my hand and splattered my face and hair, her screams continuing to ring in my ears long after she fell to the ground.
With one knife, three lives had been taken. My father's by his own hand. My brother's by my own mother, and my mother's by myself. I fell to my knees, screaming and crying out for someone to help me, to save me from my nightmare.
I sat up with a start, my body covered in a cold sweat. I was breathing hard. It was over, my re-occurring dream. I knew what should have happened next. He had come and asked me what was wrong. I had told him and brought them back, all three of them and then killed them all over again. It had been the knife that had saved me. It had contained innocence and had reacted when it realized that I was compatible. I had been eight at the time.
I looked around me, realizing that I was still in the library. Sunlight flowed in through the huge glass windows. I looked over the table and saw that Lavi was still asleep in the chair across from me, surrounded by books. His bright red hair shone in the sunlight and gently brushed against his face. He seemed so peaceful and fragile, like a child, sweet and caring-.
'Agh! What am I doing? I shouldn't be thinking about that kind of stuff,' I thought, shaking my head to rid myself of such thoughts.
Judging by the sun's light, I guessed it was around seven in the morning. I yawned and rubbed the sleep from my eyes before standing quietly and stretching my stiff limbs. My shoulders and back cracked and my legs groaned in protest as I stood.
"Ah, I see you're awake," Lenalee's voice said quietly as she approached out table. I smiled and nodded.
"What time is it?" I asked.
"Around seven. You should probably head down the breakfast," she said, coming to a halt in front of me. There was a low groan from behind me and I turned to see Lavi stretching lazily and yawning before standing up.
"Hey guys… sup? What time is it? I'm starved!" He rambled tiredly while smiling.
I laughed. "It's seven, Lavi. Wanna come get something to eat with me at the cafeteria?" My stomach decided it wanted to voice its opinion on the matter and growled loudly. All three of us stared at it for a moment before bursting out laughing. "Ok, lemme rephrase that. I'm going to get something to eat at the cafeteria. You wanna come? There now, are you happy, stomach-san?" I asked it, patting my stomach fondly and smiling. Lavi grinned and Lenalee giggled.
"I have to go back to Komui nii-san's office to help him with his work and I already ate so why don't you two go together?" Lenalee suggested.
"Sure, why not? I guess we'll see you later, Lenalee!" Lavi called and waved as I dragged him by the arm out of the library towards the cafeteria. When I finally let him stand properly, we had already gone down a few hallways and I was totally lost.
"Uhh…" I was stumped. I stopped and Lavi righted himself and chuckled at my confused face. I turned towards him, pouting and he laughed harder. "Meany-poo…" I mumbled, sticking my tongue out at him. He grinned and rested his arms behind his head.
"Aw, don't say that, K-chan. You're the one that got us lost, remember?" he smiled at me. He glanced around before motioning for me to follow.
"Grrrgle…" I clutched my stomach as it growled at me for food.
"Baka stomach! Shuttup already!" I growled at it, glaring.
"We're here! Come on, we better get you some food before that monster in your stomach gets any angrier at us!" he laughed and pulled me over to where Jerry was.
"What can I get you two on this fine morning?" Jerry asked cheerfully. Lavi ordered the set combination A.
"And for you, Kana-chan?" he asked.
"Umm… I'll have cold soba with a bowl of rice and some green tea," I stated. It didn't take long for the order to be finished and Lavi headed towards a table that appeared to be stacked high with mountains of food. I gapped at it and followed him, slowly.
"Hey, Moyashi-chan! How's it going?" Lavi called, peering around the mountain of food.
'Moyashi-chan? Who the hell is th-,' I was cut off mid-sentence when Allen jumped up indignantly, "It's Allen! A-L-L-E-N! I am NOT a moyashi!" He seemed to be pouting. He quickly caught sight of me and blushed as I gapped at the giant pile of food. "Oh! Ummm… Good morning Kana-chan."
"WOW! Allen-san, do you really eat ALL this food???" I asked.
"Umm… yes?" he seemed nervous as he replied, rubbing the back of his neck and looking down at the floor.
"THAT'S SOOOOOO COOL!!!" I exclaimed excitedly.
"Huh?" both of them looked at me confused.
"Hehe, I'm impressed! It would take me forever to eat all that! All of it looks so yummy though…" I said as drool dripped from my mouth. Lavi chuckled.
"GRRRRGLE GRRRG GRRRIIG!!!" an odd noise erupted from my stomach. All three of us jumped before I glared at my stomach, a pout playing across my lips.
"Didn't I tell you to shuttup already, stomach-san? I'll feed you when I want to!!!" I grumbled.
"Grrbblmmeeegr…" a quieter growl was the response. Lavi and Allen sweat dropped as I continued to scold my stomach.
"You really are impatient. I'm ALLOWED to have a social life, ya know?" I continued to pout.
"Grrg…" it replied again. I stuck my tongue out at it before looking up at Lavi's beaming face and Allen's wide smile, a gloved hand held over his mouth in an attempt to stifle a laugh.
"Hehe… sorry. I guess all of you're food made me even more hungry," I smiled apologetically. Allen smiled before turning back to his food and began eating at an inhuman pace. Lavi chuckled before grabbing my arm and pulling me over to an empty spot at the table.
"Eat. Before you start up another conversation with your stomach!" he smiled. I didn't need to be told twice. I quickly gorged myself with my breakfast before going back or seconds. Lavi ate slowly, watching as Allen and I ate our fill of all sorts of food.
I took one last bite of the pudding I was eating before sighing contentedly.
"Ne, Allen-san? Are you a parasitic type?" I asked. He looked over at me with a drumstick in his mouth before nodding. "How bout you, Lavi?" I asked, turning to him.
"Nah… I'm equipment type," he smiled. "What about you? Parasitic or equipment?"
"Mmm… I'm not sure actually…" I mumbled. He looked confused. "I have two." I tried to explain.
"Two… two what?" he asked, his head tilting to the side in a childish manner.
"Two innocence," I whispered, trying to keep anyone else from hearing.
"EH??? Really??? You have two inno-," he was cut off as my hand covered his mouth, muffling his words.
"Baka! I'm not sure if Komui-san wants my to tell people about my… my condition," I explained quickly in a whisper. He nodded slowly and I pulled my hand from his mouth.
"How come???" Allen asked quietly as he leaned across the table, apparently having heard what I had said.
"I… I don't remember. It's still kinda hazy. I've been here for at least two months. But I was in the hospital wing so that I could recover from something. But I can't remember what exactly," I murmured, looking down at my bandaged hands, searching my memories for some kind of hint as to what had happened. I felt something warm grip my hand and I looked up to see Lavi's smiling at me, his emerald eye filled with understanding and… something else. It had only been a flicker but it had been there. Was it… sorrow? I felt an odd feeling of familiarity when I looked into his deep green eye.
"Don't push yourself! It's alright if you don't remember! It'll come to you in time," he said in a calm voice. I nodded and he stood up, his hand releasing mine as he picked up his tray to go dump it out before leaving the room. I looked after him, my hand still feeling the warmth of his hand over mine.
~flashback~
Someone was holding my hand tightly, and I was crying. I was calling someone's name… Taiko! I opened my mouth to speak but he cut me off.
"Please don't cry, K-chan… It'll be alright. Just say you cry anymore, okay? It hurts… when you cry for me and not yourself. Things… shouldn't have turned out the way they did for you… You deserve better than this. Forgive me for not being able to save you from the cruel reality of this life… Forgive me…" his voice was quiet and filled with sorrow. His emerald eyes looked up into mine as he weakly reached his hand up to wipe away some of my tears. "Please… Say that you won't cry for anyone… but yourself… promise me…" he whispered, his breathe becoming faint.
"H-hai… I promise, Nii-chan… I won't cry anymore… but please… please don't leave again…" I whispered, trying to stem my tears.
"Be strong, K-chan… live life the way you want to… don't let others tell you what to do… don't be afraid to stand up for what's right… be strong for me…" his eyes were beginning to close.
"Hai! Hai, Nii-chan! I'll do anything for you! Please! Please don't leave me! I don't want to be alone!" I cried.
"…Be… strong… and don't cry… okay…? ...Make this the last time… you cry…" he whispered, his eyes clouding over.
"Nii-chan! Nii-chan, don't leave me! …N-Nii-chan…?" there was only silence. "Nii-chan! Nii-chan wake up! Please! Nii-chan!!!" I screamed at his limp body, my chest heaving with sobs. After a while, the tears stopped even though my body kept on shaking. "I promise, Nii-chan. I'll never cry again…" I whispered, my body leaning against his.
~end flashback~
"Kana-chan? Are you alright? Kana-chan?" Allen's voice brought me out of my thoughts.
"Hmm?" I hummed, turning towards him. He looked worried.
"You look a little pale. Are you feeling well?" he asked, reaching a hand to feel my forehead. He pulled back and shook his head. "You don't have fever."
"I'm alright. I-I just realized I needed to go get something. That's all," I stood, faking a smile for his benefit. "I'll see you later, Allen-san," I said as I walked away hurriedly. As I reached the doors they opened and Kanda walked in. I brushed past him in a hurry, not even noticing when our shoulders knocked against each other. Kanda looked back, pausing as the door shut.
I ran through the halls, up the stairs until I finally found my room. I opened the door and closed it. My knees buckled underneath my weight and I slid to the ground, my back against the door. My body was shaking and my eyes were wide in shock. I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face in them, trying to hide from the world. I could feel the tears coming and I steeled myself against them, holding them back. I would not break my promise to Nii-chan.
Knock Knock
I jumped, the knocking on my door coming as a surprise. I hadn't heard anyone approaching my room. Then again… I hadn't really been paying much attention so I could have missed something. I stood up and straightened my clothes before opening the door.
"Ah, Kana-chan! Are you alright? You look a bit worn out," Lenalee asked worriedly.
"Ah, I'm fine! I'm just a bit tired! I haven't caught up on my sleep yet, hehe…" I lied quickly.
"Oh…" she said, looking down. There was an awkward silence.
"Ano… did you come to tell me something?" I asked.
"Hai! Nii-san asked you to report to his office to be briefed for a mission. Sorry, I forgot," she stated, a little embarrassed.
"No, no, it's okay! I forget things all the time!" I said, trying to cheer her up. "Well, I should head to his office then. Thanks, Lenalee!" I called as I ran down the hall.
Kara: yay! i finished! hehe i'm so glad! i think i'll be able 2 update the next chappie sooner cuz i'm on break! yay!! R/R ppl! hehe bai bai!!!