Chapter Thirty: Our Little Secret

Mark sat beside Meredith's bed as she rested. Bailey had given her the afternoon off and had put her on an IV drip to restore her energy. Meredith smiled at Mark as she noticed him ignoring his pager.

"Baby if you have to go then go" Meredith told him seriously.

"No it's fine they can handle it without me" he told her pressing a kiss to her forehead.

"Did you page Derek?" she asked softly hoping to not upset him. In a week's time she would hurt one of them once and for all, she wasn't sure what was going to be worse, not knowing or knowing.

"Yeah I did sweetie, he is in surgery" Mark told her with a forced smile. He hated that there was still another man in her life and he was still praying that next week he would no longer be a part of their lives and they continue working on their marriage and prepare to raise their family.

"Okay" Meredith replied softly as Mark's pager beeped again.

"Mark seriously go, they wouldn't be paging you constantly if they didn't need you" Meredith said forcefully. "I'm going to go to sleep anyway honey" she continued.

"Only if you are sure Mer" he replied.

"I'm sure, I'm fine if I need anything I will page a nurse or someone" Meredith convinced.

"Alright, well I will come back as soon as I can" he told her kissing her softly on the lips.

As Mark headed toward the elevator he saw Derek walking toward him.

"Mark, I heard about Meredith, is everything okay?" he asked concerned.

"Ah yeah, she didn't eat enough so she had a bit of exhaustion, fainted during surgery. She is in room 3498, she has an IV in so she should be right to go soon. I've got a page to tend to, Meri said she was going to rest but you could pop your head in and see if she is okay" Mark told him.

"Sure thanks, catch you later" Derek told him headed toward Meredith's room.

"Hey" he said softly entering her room. "How you feeling?" he asked.

"I'm okay, I was a little scared though but everything is fine" she told him.

"Are they charts?" Derek noticed the pile next to her on the bed.

"Ah yeah, don't tell Mark" she said quickly. "I got Cristina to bring them by I have to do something while I'm laying here" she defended.

"You could try actually resting" Derek suggested with a smirk.

Meredith smiled back at him. "I am resting, I'm still in bed" she defended herself.

"Okay fine it can be our little secret" he said in a whisper that caused Meredith to giggle. "So it must have been a damn boring surgery if you decided to go to sleep" Derek teased.

"The surgery was fine, C-section of triplets with Addison" Meredith replied.

"So you and Addison are talking?" Derek asked curiously.

"No, she wants to but I'm not ready" Meredith replied.

"Meredith, it's not going to go away, there are 2 sides to every story" Derek said.

"I know that Derek but I can't not yet okay" Meredith snapped at him, she couldn't understand why he wouldn't drop it. "What is it to you anyway?"

"I just think she deserves a second chance, like the one you're giving Mark" Derek snapped back at her.

"Oh so we are back to this again, you seriously need to get over that" she cried at him.

"I'm sorry Mer, you need to calm down, just breathe" he tried calming her knowing it was his fault that she was getting worked up in the first place.

"Just go Derek, I don't feel like talking anymore, I want to go to sleep" she said rolling onto her side.

Derek let out a sigh as another figure stood in the doorway.

"What's going on in here?" Addison asked standing in the doorway. "I heard shouting" she said.

Meredith rolled over again to look at Addison. "It's nothing" Meredith told her. "What are you doing here?" she asked.

"I came to check and see if everything is okay, you know with the babies" Addison replied.

"Well everything, is fine thank you for you're concern" Meredith said with attitude.

Addison didn't know what to say, it was obvious that Meredith didn't want her there which tore her up, her own best friend wanted nothing to do with her.

"I have to go" Derek said looking at his pager. "See you later Meredith" he said leaving.

Addison sat in the chair that Derek had left, whether Meredith wanted her there or not she was determined to stay and talk.

"Where is Mark?" Addison asked. She regretted it as soon as she said I noticing the glare Meredith was now giving her.

"Why did you want to seduce him some more" Meredith snapped.

"No Meredith, I'm sorry for what happened I truly am. I just thought he would be here is all" she replied.

"He got paged" Meredith said softly.

"It was nice of Derek to sit with you then" Addison commented hoping Meredith would explain what was going on there.

"Yeah I guess" Meredith replied not giving any details.

"So are you, Mark and Derek all friends or something" Addison asked.

"Something like that, it's complicated" Meredith told her.

"How so?" Addison pressed intrigued to what Meredith meant.

"Just drop it Addison" Meredith snapped. "Don't you have a life back in New York that you should be getting back to, you know your job and your fiancé" Meredith ranted at her.

Addison just looked at her and began tear up. If only it was all that simple. Truth was that her life in New York was nothing without Meredith and Mark.