Another two chapters for you all to enjoy, sorry that I am rushing through this now but there is only 10 more chapters after these 2 and I really want you guys to see the end of it before I move again. Dani xx

Chapter Thirty-Nine: Pain

"Meredith honey what happened?" Mark asked approaching Meredith where she sat in the intern locker room. Bailey had paged him but had not given him any indication to what had happened. "Oh god it's not the babies is it?" fear suddenly washing over him.

Meredith numbly shook her head in answer to his questions. "He's here" she said in a small voice barely audible.

"Who's here Meri, you need to tell me what's wrong otherwise I can't help" Mark softly soothed her, rubbing small circles on her back.

"Thatcher, he was in an accident" she replied a little louder than last time. "I can't help wishing that he doesn't make it Mark. What kind of person wishes their father would die" she said sobbing.

Mark wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to his body.

"Its okay baby, I'm here. You don't have to see him again and it's okay to think that, he hurt you and now you want him to be hurt" Mark said in a soft soothing voice. "You need to calm down though; this isn't good for the babies."

Meredith nodded taking deep breathes to control her breathing and to return in to a normal level. "I just thought everything was finally going so well and now he turns up. It's like the universe hates me or something" Meredith muttered angrily.

"Meredith listen to me, the universe doesn't hate you. You haven't done anything wrong. He is the one who left remember, you have every right to be angry at him" Mark soothed her, he had forgotten how upset she got over her father.

Mark had only met Thatcher once when he and Meredith had become engaged. They had come out to Seattle with Ellis for a conference and they had run into him. Thatcher had tried to convince Meredith that he wanted to get to know her but he let down all over again like the way she was when 5 years old.

"I have to get back to work, I will see you later" Meredith said jumping up and brushing her hair off her face before going off in search of Bailey.

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"Dr Bailey I um need an assignment" Meredith fumbled over her words as she stood outside the room in which she knew Thatcher was in.

"Ah right, go find Dr Shepherd, I think he needs an intern" Bailey replied looking how emotionally broken Meredith was over the fact her father was in the hospital. "Are you alright Meredith?" she asked.

"I will be fine, I just want to avoid him and his family, I'm sure his new family will be here soon" Meredith rambled.

"Okay well if you need to go just let me know" Bailey said compassionately, she always would have a soft spot for Meredith Grey.

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"Dr Shepherd" Meredith called out approaching Derek as she made her way up to where he was filling out a patient's chart.

"Dr Grey, what can I do for you?" Derek replied remaining professional, she looked at her closely noticing she had been crying, something had clearly upset her.

"Bailey said you need an intern and I needed a new assignment" Meredith replied not looking up at him.

"Okay well my patient in 2340 is scheduled for a craniotomy this afternoon. You can scrub in. I need new bloods and final scans" Derek told her. "Mer are you alright?" he continued noticing how edgy she seemed.

"Yeah I'm fine. Just…never mind I'm okay….I'm just going to go get these tests done" Meredith rambled quickly before moving off to go do the necessary tests before she could assist on the surgery.

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Meredith had just finished the tests and was now making her way back to Derek to give him the results.

"The tests are back" Meredith spoke as she approached Derek just outside the patients room.

"Thanks Dr Grey but I've had to push back Mr Boltward's, we have an emergency surgery. A car crash victim brought in this morning, he has a bleed we need to get in as soon as possible" Derek told her. He watched as Meredith's face dropped as he spoke.

"Sorry, I ah I can't assist you Dr Shepherd" Meredith managed to choke out.

"What do you mean you can't assist? I'm your superior, your boss Meredith. You will be in surgery" Derek told her.

"You don't understand Dr Shepherd" Meredith replied bitterly. "That patient's name is Thatcher Grey, he's my father and I don't want anything to do with the case" Meredith all but shouted at him as tears slipped down her cheeks.

Derek stood there shocked; when he and Meredith had been together she had told him the story of her father leaving her and Ellis when she was little. His heart broke for the way she must be feeling and he had just made it worse by forcing her into something she was clearly not in the right frame of mind to be doing.

"Meredith I'm so sorry, I didn't even realise, I didn't even make the connection. Maybe you would be just best to go home. Your shift will be finished soon anyway" Derek apologised profusely.

"It's okay Derek, but thanks I can't be here while he is" she said turning and making her way to the OR board, she wanted to see if Mark was in surgery and to see if he could take her home, they had ridden together that morning.

As she made her way to the board she saw Thatcher. He was being wheeled toward the elevator she stood frozen. He looked so battered and weak, but at the same time she felt nothing but the pain he had caused her as she watched him fight for his life. Without another thought she turned and ran toward the closest on call room closing the door behind she slid to the ground and began to cry.